Good morning

Should be starting school...will when I hit submit.

Got a e-mail last night from the realator who was trying to help us.   She apparently has authorization to show the house we wanted to look at.   Even if it is a for sale by owner.   I flew a e-mail back to her and hope to hear from her later today.  

Its absolutely beautiful today.   Gonna be one of the last perfect days this year more then likely.  I hope to find time to enjoy it. 

Funnys.   We watched Hidalgo with the kids on Saturday night.   Some of it went over their heads, a lot of it they liked.    Zeria wanted to know why they were going to kill the mustangs.   We explained.  "White men are stupid!"   She announces.   She paused for a minute.  "But not you guys."

We're still giggling over this.   Rob told his coworker this (who happens to be Indian)  and he said Zeria was very smart.  *snigger*

Rob and I snuck off to the bedroom for a few minutes Sunday and left JEr exploring in the living room.   He started moaning for us.    "Jer come find us"  I called.  Our house is all on one level, but its quite a maze to get back to the bedroom.   And he's never taken the walker through the hall, laundry room, and another hall. 

But he did.   And with a great big beam on his face.  We were quite proud of him. 

Yesterday he figured out he can push the walker while standing on the outside of it.

He should be walking quite soon.....

Zeria and I struggled with reading a lot yesterday.   Munchkinmommy could you e-mail me the name of the book you were reading?  *tia*     I know she's got some learning disabilities.    She writes a fair amount of letters backwards a fair amount of the time.   And words like was, no, and saw she reverses.   

She's reading four letter words quite well.   But five letter words are absolutely throwing her.  So  I guess we'll keep reading beginner books, and not try the chapter books for a bit longer.    I just so want her to discover the joy of reading on her own...and its just not there yet. 

We had a wonderful weekend.   We accomplished a lot around the house, and played a lot with the kids.

And everything we did was free.  *snigger*  Well except for the gas to drive to church and back.

Friday night we were both just sick of heart.   And finally (which should a been the first thing we did )  I suggested we pray.  (d'uh) so Rob and I each prayed...a rather short prayer.   And the frustration literally rolled off.    We got in the hot tub enjoyed that, headed back to the bedroom and the solution hit me.

If we move to Clallam Bay we have to get a line of credit based on the equity on this house in order to get our Down Payment.    Soooo we're going to apply for that now and use it to pay for the work on the GEO.   Within two to three pay checks it should be paid off and we can just have it sitting there if we need it for the move.   Or we can use it for the two or three major house projects left on this house.      

The propane is paid for...and we won't need more for another month and a half.   And at that time the tank won't be empty, so it will be less of a bill, and we will just cinch our belts in a bit tighter in the meantime.   *deeeeep breathe*  

So we have solutions mostly, and peace of mind for all the decisions that are coming, or not coming.

I loved my house so much this weekend the thought of moving was just ewwww.    So I'm not sure where we're going.   Of course if the person doesn't call back, that house is out of the question, and nothing else is currently available.  *shrugs*

Okay business end of my life over.

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Saturday Rob and I spent several hours finishing our patio over by the hot tub.   The project that got rudely interupted when Rob broke his leg.     It looks wonderful, and only took about 2.5 hours to finish.    We also did some brush clearing, and some weed whacking.   The side of our house is greatly improved and we both had a lot of fun doing it.

Sunday...sniggers  I did a Psychological experiment.   I went outside with Jeremiah and the kids didn't come running over to see me as they usually do...so I just snuck over to a little used corner of our property and sat in the tall grass with him.

Rob came out about ten minutes later and said "Where's mom?"   I just remained quiet.     It took them all about 20 minutes to find me.......

It was rather fascinating.  *giggles*  The dog of course found me much sooner then that.  

So then the kids really wanted to play hide and seek.   So we did...for the next two hours.   (until past bedtime LOL)

I hid all by myself first and nobody found me.   I was there for almost 40 minutes.    Everybody walked past me (including Rob)  multiple times.   I started making noises, whistling etc and finally Zeria and then Sam found me, and then the little kids caught on.

After that I took one kid with me to hide and everybody else had to look.   It was a great adventure.    And lots of giggles.    Of course I'm still pulling leaves out of my mop of hair today....and admiring the huge amount of black berry scratches on my legs...but they just make me giggle at the fun of it all. 

I have to remember to play with my kids, because thats when I love being a mom the most.  

It never rains....but it pours.

Well life just hit deep doo-doo here.   We had to fill up our propane tank so we can heat the house.

We knew it was going to be expensive, and had budgeted accordingly.  It was DOUBLE what we estimated.   $1000.

And as we don't have credit with the gas company we had to come up with it out of pocket.

We now have ZERO money in our account and its a week until the next pay day.

The GEO as you know is driving on borrowed time, and well we have places we have to get between now and then and only about a half a tank of gas in the van.   Not counting that the GEO has to be filled at least once to get Rob and forth from work.  

We have a 1,000 credit line on our checking account to prevent us from bouncing.   Unfortunately we shall have to use it this week.   Which means of course that pay day will be less.

And we needed it to be more so we could pay for the GEO. 

UGH!

And while I was still reeling from that my dentist bill came in...$355.   And I still don't have my crown in....

I'm just overwhelmed.   

The irony in all of this...is if the Geo had waited 2 months to die and we were living in  Clallam Bay we could have just ditched it and Rob could have walked to work. 

He can't drive the van to work.  It costs $80 plus to fill it, and he would have to fill it every 2 days.   We're kind of out of options.....

I don't exactly see a light out of this tunnel right now.      I mean yeah we have food, and a house, and so on, but how am I supposed to keep the house warm this winter.

Suddenly I'm extremely worried.   And trying so hard not to give into it.     

It would all make more sense financially if we could move....

Except we can't move today. 

Shoot we haven't even gotten ahold of the land owner.

And how are we supposed to afford the move? 

Can I pray that it will be a warm winter?    Or maybe the kids and I will move into the bedroom and bag the gas heat.   Which as you know isn't really an option.

Trying hard to find the silver lining...not really seeing it right now. 

Good morning, school is finished, and I'm ready for bed.

Its only 10:45 though LOL.

Just rather dragging this morning.

Awana started last night, and all but Jeremiah are able to go now.   They had a lot of fun.

Samuel melted down on the way home...but as we'd had a rather hectic day I wasn't too suprised.   And Rainee had a breathing attack during the middle of cubbies.   Bobbi one of the leaders recognized something was wrong, but was unsure what it was so brought her to me.     I knew immediately what was wrong and treated her.

After club I educated four leaders (including both co-directors) as to what to look for.   They know her history well and treat it extremely seriously.   I will be leaving medicine with her, and praying hard.  LOL

Ironically it was the first time I'd dropped Rainee off somewhere without worrying...d'uh.   I can't do that.  I have to keep educating the people around her.

The skunk though decided she was fine.   And when I asked her if she was having trouble breathing she said no.   Even though it was obvious.   On the way home we discussed it again.   And again she said NO I wasn't having a hard time breathing I was just tired.

The problem is she *was*   Her respiration rate was 50.       So we talked a bit about it, and eventually she "sorta" understood.   Its a lot for a 3 year old to understand after all.  

The other issue is when I gave her her treatment she immediately stopped the high respiration and was ready to go play, something she was completely unable and unwilling to do only seconds earlier.   She just stops functioning when she can't breathe.  (rather understandable if you ask me.)   Sooooo we keep talking about it I guess. 

I've done enough reading at AAMA to know this is quite normal.   Kids don't want to be seen as different.   So, I'm not shocked, just bummed its happening so early. 

In regards to the house "scheme"  Just one a holding pattern.   The owners father is dying I guess, so its not a priority for them which is rather understandable.   I guess we'll call back in a couple days. 

And 0h yes the other issue.   My husbands commute car is dying.  *sigh*   It has 187,000 HARD miles on it.   And the rotars on the engine are going.   We have to replace the engine or get a new car.   The plan in place for the last two years has been to replace the engine as its a trusty little car.   The problem is new engines are much more expensive then originally suspected.     (like 1400)    UGH!   So we have to decide rather soon what to do.....

UGH  He can't use the van...it gets NO gas mileage and would break us rather quickly if he had to drive it.  

Life.

somewhat bummed

We drove out to see the house today.  We were supposed to have an appointment.   We got out there and waited and waited.   Nobody showed.  My parents had both come too, so there was quite a mess of us hanging around a strangers yard.   *snigger*

Finally we used my moms cell-phone and called.   No answer.   Left a message and waited a bit more.   Finally cell-phone guy returns call and tells us there was a family emergency and a "friend" has the key...to call her and she'll let us in.

So she comes about five minutes later.  Unfortunately however she only has the key to the downstairs.     The house is currently being rented out in two pieces.   The bottom piece is empty, the top piece the lady is being evicted.   They think she's flown the coop already.  

The bottom is small...and poorly laid out.     The kitchen dining room area is lovely.   The living room is rather strange and has this stupid hall wall that is just USELESS and taking up much needed living space.

The bathroom...well it just left us shaking our head.  HUGE I mean HUGE.   But nothing in it.  NO storage, no extra closet space.   Just one GIGANTIC room with a huge jacuzzi style tub and a shower.   You have to walk passed this to get to another HUGE room to the sink and toilet.   Now if they had reversed this order...I'd be slightly more intrested.   But just strange.  *snigger*

And only one room that is really really small downstairs which they were calling a "bedroom"  Yeah right.

VERY clean, lovely nice paint, and some well done stencils here and there.

But, we haven't seen the upstairs so *shrugs*  we can't decide until we do.  

Based on the downstairs probably we would say no...as the living room is TEENSY.   But we can't base a 2200 square foot 3 story house on one floor.   Soooooooooooooo   we will try one more time.    

I'm gonna call the owner again and try hard to be polite (it was an emergency LOL)   And then take it from there.  

Days over...just waiting for Rob to come.

I keep forgetting to share this, something to definitely smile about.

While its loading, still thinking.   I'm amazed how excited my mom is about the move.   She rather hates our house we live in now.   *Snigger*  Okay, not the right word.   She just sees all the projects in it that need to be done, and how rather squished we are in here.   She would love to see us take out a second and "fix" all the things wrong with it still.    Unfortunately we for her we won't.  LOL     We have felt very strongly about staying out of debt...which is rather funny thinking about what we're considering doing right now.

Because temporarily there's gonna be some huge debt if we do things as we are currently planning......

Ideally the *best* plan would be to get a six month lease on the "new" house with a option to buy.   This would give us time to sell our house AFTER we get out of it.   I just can't see trying to sell it and keep it showing ready with six kids...it just wouldn't be pretty.  

But wether the individual would even consider that I have no idea.  

So currently the plan is to take a equity loan out on our house to get the down, and then get the financing for the new house.  (I think.)   Sound confusing?  It is.  *giggles*

If the owner would consider owner financing that would of course cut a bunch of paperwork corners, but we don't know if he will, and won't until Wednesday.   So we keep planning for all contingencies.

Sounds rather like we're doing this doesn't it?  LOL   That's cause we're seriously considering it........

Anyhow my smile picture;  

Wild and random thoughts keep flitting through my head as I contemplate wether a move would be right.

But first in case any ones intrested in where we're thinking of of moving. 

The postives, a MUCH bigger house, my husband much closer.

The negatives, a LONG drive to town for grocerys and other things, and farther away from my family (though still relatively close)

The postive, living five minutes walking distance from the beach, and next door (literally) to the library)

The negative living on 4 city lots instead of my lovely treed property.   My kids will be city kids living in the middle of nowhere.

The positive, the yard is fenced so I will no longer worry about my kids running on the road.

The negatives, I researched the churches more thoroughly out there and well they aren't fundamental...so there is no church.

The postive this gives us our own built in missionfield.

The negative.   This gives us our own built in missionfield.

The positive.   Our church is only a 35 minute drive so we could still go to it and it *is* the closest next available option.

The negative.  A 35 minute drive to church on a VERY VERY curvy road, that will be treacherous in the winter.   This isn't freeway driving folks, its nasty Highway 112 driving which averages 35 miles an hour...or slower.  Its crooked as a dogs leg.

The postive;   Change is always intriguing.

The negative;  Change is always terrifying.

Do you see my round-robin sort of thinking?  *snigger*

And I haven't even seen the inside of the house yet so I don't even know if we are "truely" intrested......

Man I'm a wreck of wonderings. 

So I fell in love again...

This house is just awesome.  And HUMONGOUS.   2,200 square feet.  Four city lots, we *think*  there's a view from the beach from that upper balcony.

And all of five minutes walk to the beach.

150,000.    Which we can sell our house for.   We owe about 30,000 on ours, so we wouldn't be free and clear like the other house, but we would be the same amount of equity.

And a five minute commute for Rob for work.

Six bedrooms in this apparently.   And no lease on it.  *snigger*   The owner is selling it, so no realator to deal with.   We are hoping to get a walk-in tour tomorrow or the next day.   My mom will go with us.

She fell in love just looking at the picture on the back of my camera.

We aren't 100% sure we're doing this...but man it is definitely tempting.   A lot of praying is being done, and a lot of prayers are coveted.

So want to see inside and see if its as nice on the inside........

I don't do this often at all.   And I rarely speak my political say...but I really liked this.   And have been echoing it.  Yes things went wrong, but...well ya know.   I'm not saying anymore I don't relish a flame fest.  

I went and had the lovely joy of a root canal today.   And full of percaset. 

So I won't be writing anything "serious" tonight...just not a good idea.  

Tomorrow we're headed to a beach to camp for the night, and leaving the kiddos with my parents.    I so hope my mouth isn't hurting and ruin it all.  

And this has just become the worlds shortest blog....

Good evening

Life moves on.

So anybody made any guesses as to why I'm sick?  I have one...and I probably should find out if I'm right or wrong.    There is a slim chance I could be right.....after all we still haven't gotten DH's last all clear check.     Hummms.  Probalby should go buy a test, unfortunately gas is so high I keep refusing to go to town.  

My birthday is Saturday.   My parents are keeping the oldest 5 for the night Friday night.   Rob and I are gonna go camp on a beach half way between Clallam Bay and Neah Bay.   Well actually we're gonna use our van with the seats out as a "camper"  giggles.   Jer is of course coming with us as he's rather attatched to mom. 

The Victorian has been leased out for 2 years.   He would be willing to sell it as an investment property, alas we aren't intrested in it for that purpose....bummer too cause we sure fell in love with it.   

We are actually gonna go out and look again.   Both Rob and I were suprised how much fun it sounded to move out there.   The thought of Rob having to drive 3 less hours a day...wow that would be so nice.    So, prayers would be appreciated.

Made a good contact with a real estate agent, who will be looking for us.   So this is always good. 

Funnys.   I made cookies last night after Rainee was in bed.   She came down stairs after they had all been "hidden".  "I 'mell something dood like tookies."  She pronounced.   She's got a good sniffer. 

I was stirring the soup for dinner tonight just before serving it and Samuel investigates it.  "Is there anything in it?"  He inquired.   Rob and I are still trying to figure out what he was trying to say.   Did he not see the meat?  the potatoes?  the saurkraut?  HMMMS a lot.

I am essentially unable to get online in the day time.  Jeremiah won't let me type, and I get too grumpy when I'm interupted.     But 'tis okay the boards aren't exactly moving fast.  

Soooo we move along.