awesome news...

We didn't bounce any checks.   The bank gave us incredible grace giving us overdraft protection though technically we didn't have any.

And now we do. 

And the gas check cleared.   That was the awesomest news for us.

Rainee had her check-up.   (2 year one)  Got Hep A shot.   And nothing new.   I think thats the first check-up that's ever happened at....although we were advised to get her an eye-check-up as one of the last body parts she hasn't checked up on.   The likelhood of her wearing glasses at some point is HIGH.  ROFL

I had my first midwifes appointment.  Nothing new.  Except all of a sudden my rhubella immunity is gone.   So I'm supposed to avoid anybody with a fever....and they'll redo my vaccine after the baby is born.

Didn't hear the heart beat...but thats not suprising...the ultrasound tech barely got it cause the baby was flipping around so much.   So we'll wait 4 weeks and try again.

She told me if I was worried I could come sooner.  I'm not.  LOL

life...

Rob took the day off today.   My parents have made us a loan for a week to get us out of the hole.   (we pray)

He should be at the bank right now depositing the money, and begging.      Oh and finding out the damages....

If I go offline for the next week don't be suprised.   The debit withdrawal for juno bounced on Saturday.... 

My parents offered the money we weren't even going to ask them.   They deal with way more financial ickiness then we do.   But dad just did a big job and temporarily has the money....

This was nice.

We've decided we're not all going to bil's wedding.  Just Rob and the three oldest kiddos.   This is actually a huge relief for me.  I had no idea how I was gonna sit for the 17 hours required in driving.   I feel bad as well...but sitting is one of the first ways I get contractions...and regardless of whether they amount to anything I really can't deal with the pain for that long.

I'm taking all the kiddos to Rainee's doctors appointment.   And then by the time its time for mine Rob will watch the kids.   This was the only solution we could come up with at the spur of the moment......Besides he's the one who has to dig us out of the financial hole.   As me trying to do it with five kids would have been more then a little frustrating.

Soooooooo theirs a partial solution.   The rest of the lump will be removed when we find out whether the gas check cleared or not.......

After today Rob will be taking a few extra overtimes to help make ends meet.   And cashing out his comp time.  We'll be out of the hole fairly quickly.

But its still icky.  We just feel like ummm failures when the money becomes this messed up.   You would think we could handle simple addition and subtraction eh?

 

welll

ummm

crap.

Warning one big panic attack folllows.

Friday I had four plus hours of contractions.  

That sucked.

Of course I know my history so didn't panic as much as I would have.  Didn't even call the midwife...just got flat.

They weren't say transition contractions.  But they hurt, and they caused tears.

Hiking must be over til the baby is born.   WAtches myself turn into one big vegetable.

Yeah...I'm having a fairly large pity party.

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So yesterday was our anniversary.   And we really celebrated in California...but we planned to go out to dinner.  Had a nice dinner.  Went to pay.  Debit card denied.

We don't have a credit card.

I drove home and got the check book and came back.

We wrote a rubber check and left.

And another one to the babysitter.

Tried to access our account to see whats going on......and ummm the banks site is down.

Crap.

Bigger crap ahead?

We have a $550 check for gas that we wrote on Tuesday.  The likelihood of it having cleared is pretty low.....

Crap.

Rob's SOS'sing his parents....once we know the damage.  But we can't find the damage 'til the bank opens.

Crap.

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Rob said this morning.  I know that I can trust God, because he's been with us in other situations.  But I'm really not looking forward to the process of getting dug out.

Yup that sums it up.

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Rainee and kaylin are both sick with a cold.  Mommy's staying home.  I'm not sure if this is good or not.  It does mean they can take the GEO to church.   The van is costing us $60 a pop to fill it right now.   Gas is a $2.25 a gallon.

And did I mention payday isn't for a week and two days?  I think I'm housebound for a bit.

Except tomorrow.   Tomorrow...I have a day from ghenna.  And I *thought* I would have the money to hire a babysitter.   But I don't.  So now I'm gonna be playing  car pool driving a lot of distance with no money to pay for such.   Two doctors appointments.  Neither of which can I cancel.   Good news is neither of them have co-pays....cause we don't have the money to co-pay.   Bad news is their too far apart from each other and the kids aren't allowed at the second one.  (My first mid-wife appointment ya know the invasive one.)

So

ummm

one big panic attack.

Please pray for us if you get a chance.   Its our fault.   But that doesn't make it any easier to deal with.  

Good news...lots of grocerys.  Probably could live for four weeks on what we have.  Would be boring LOL  But we could live on it.  

 

I'm here.

Just in case you thought I got lost today.

Just hanging.

My sis brought her girls over (nephew was with his daddy "helping" drywall).   They played in the seven yards of sand we had delivered today.   Its going into our slate patio by the hot tub.   We've been collecting rock for awhile.  And finally got the sand to set it in.   So thats our project this weekend.  My job is to say its "level".   *snicker*   And oh and the creative placement of the rock.  But other then that I'm basically just a state foreman sitting around watching work.  I really need to take a before picture tomorrow.....

Anyhow we hope we have enough slate collected, but if not its fun to go find more, and Rob saw some awhile back.....Its actually not quite slate.  Its more like flat sandrock...but not quite that either LOL.    And its free we just collect it on logging roads.  *grin*

I'm so enjoying my yard this summer.   What a difference it has made having my bro mow & weed eat every week.  It just always looks so nice.  Instead of always a wee-bit long and reminding me of all the work that needs done.  I managed to get the herb garden 98% weeded.   I couldn't find my garden claw, so didn't quite get done.   I found it later, so will finish up with it tomorrow.

Other then that just being here.   And pushing through each day.  I kinda collapsed about 3:40 this afternoon.   But twas okay DH was home I crawled in a hole for an hour and then started slowly functioning again.  

All in all this pregnancy is going wee bits better then the last ones.  But mostly I think its cause I have NO expectations of it going well. 

Oh p.s.  I redecorated at xanga.  Its nice and "springy"  *grin*

 

Quiet day today.  Kaylin's a bit miserable with a spring cold.   She crawled in bed with me this morning and took a two hour nap.   She was a bit happier this afternoon, but sounds awful.   Rainee was coughing tonight which I suppose means she'll get it too. 

WE've survived several colds with her.   But I'm not afraid to admit my heart tightens everytime I hear her cough.   And its worse now.  Cause I KNOW I'm pregnant, so if x-rays etc are required she'll be forced to be without me.  I try not to think about it......and pray it won't happen.

I bought a Rich Mullins CD yesterday and finally got time to play it.   I'm thoroughly enjoying it.   And this song is just so apropro to my life right now....to my choices.

A friend blogged about choosing to love her husband.  I don't struggle with that....but its about the only thing I don't struggle with.   Daily I have to choose to get out of bed.   Daily I have to choose to take a baby step and not dwell on the things I used to be able to do.   Daily I have to choose to Praise God even when my body hurts, and theirs five kids demanding five different things.

I choose to take a step holding on tightly to God.   And the song gave me the comfort and courage to take just one more step.....

Rich Mullins Sometimes step by step

Sometimes the night was beautiful
Sometimes the sky was so far away
Sometimes it seemed to stoop so close
You could touch it but your heart would break
Sometimes the morning came too soon
Sometimes the day could be so hot
There was so much work left to do
But so much You'd already done

Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise You
Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise You
I will seek You in the morning
And I will learn to walk in Your ways
And step by step You'll lead me
And I will follow You all of my days

Sometimes I think of Abraham
How one star he saw had been lit for me
He was a stranger in this land
And I am that, no less than he
And on this road to righteousness
Sometimes the climb can be so steep
I may falter in my steps
But never beyond Your reach

Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise You
Oh God, You are my God
And I will ever praise You
I will seek You in the morning
And I will learn to walk in Your ways
And step by step You'll lead me
And I will follow You all of my days

And I will follow You all of my days
And I will follow You all of my days
And step by step You'll lead me
And I will follow You all of my days
And I will follow You all of my days
(Sometimes the night was beautiful)
And I will follow You all of my days
(Sometimes the night . . .)
(Sometimes the night was beautiful)
And I will follow You all of my days
(. . . Was beautiful)
(Sometimes the night was beautiful)
And I will follow You all of my days
(So beautiful)
And I will follow You all of my days
And I will follow You all of my days
(Oh God, you are my God)
And I will follow You all of my days
(Oh God, you are my God)
And I will follow You all of my days
And I will follow You all of my days
(Sometimes the night was beautiful)
And I will follow You all of my days
(Sometimes the night . . .)
And I will follow You all of my days

Afternoon.

Its beautiful outside.   Babies are nappin'  when they wake up I'll be back out in it.   Although I think we're gonna make a quick run to the mom and pop store to get sour cream.  I don't "need" it...but I want it for dinner LOL.

We're having bratworst.   And I need something to go with it.  So was leanin' towards baked potatoes.   But baked potatoes without sour cream?  How boring.  

I've been doing little hikes with my kids again.   So I must be feeling a wee bit better...or determined to stop being a lazy bumb.  One of the two.  I'm averaging about 3/4's of a mile every day.   Not particularly fast hiking 'cause Rainee is walkin' too not in the stroller.   But fun nevertheless.   And good for me to get moving again.

I need to get out and weed my flower beds soon, but haven't been greatly inspired.   Using my energy sparingly.

I've been online very little.  About the only time I'm on is during my kids nap.  Or maybe 45 minutes in the evening.  Just kind of frazzled with it right now.  

Oh about the Zion Chronicles.   They are Christian.  And very much written from a Christian view point.   But I think well done, and extremely well-researched.   They are about the time just before Israel became a state.    Written from British, Jewish, and American view points.   The author is Bodie Thoene.    I highly recommend them.   But do caution their definitely Christian.

Okies off to do one more search of the boards to see if I missed anything.....

 

Good afternoon.

I spent this morning getting poked.   

Got my second diabetic check done.  I passed with flying colors.   This is a good thing.   In between pokes.  (two hours between)  I ate a quick breaky and wandered around down town.   WEnt to the Bible Book store, a old five and dime store, and a couple other book stores.   It was a nice wander.   And I admit I spent some money.  *giggles* 

Found the first four of the Zion Chronicle series at one book store for a couple bucks a piece.   Books I will require my children to read when they get older.   So nabbed those.    Bought the Ballad of Old Joe (veggie tales)   And a couple other books.    Also found myself a nice basket with a lid for my kids hats, gloves, scarves.  I've been watching for one, and was quite pleased with what I found (for under $20).    I currently have them in something without a lid and my kids keep dumping them and the dog thinks they make a lovely place to sleep.   So that was a fun find.

Its gorgeous today.  So after the babies wake up I'm headed to a lawn chair to read.  *grin*  That really hurts my feeeelings.  (not)

Does anybody know anything about satelite radio.  I.E. is their one company better then another, etc?  DH gets no radio on his way to work.   And his commute is an hour fifteen one way.   We tried to install a cd player, but long story it doesn't work.  (sigh)

Anyhow for Father's day I'm thinking of investing in one for him.   Its available at Walmart even now...and fairly reasonable all things considered.   But I'd love to know if anybody has actually tried it......

I'm 13 weeks today.  Wow...that went fast.  Somehow I doubt its gonna continue to go that fast.

Have a great day.

Okies have my pictures of Pompastatue.   (our name for Grandpa)  Zeria took them for me.   And she informed me the kids insisted they should be in it too....

Mommy was rather lazy, sides Zeria likes to use the camera.   And Rainee finally decided to let go of me...so I really didn't want her to see me and change her mind.   She be crrrrrrrrrrranky!

Had to go to town today to deposit a check.   There was a BAD accident and the highway was closed.   Ended up doing back roads making the 40 minute drive into an hour and a half.    With loud and restless kids.

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So there's pompa.  He's rather a funny lookin' fellow.   But we like him.  Mari is personally in love with him........and likes to pat him and talk to him.  Its all rather hysterical.

                

So that's my mothers day gift.  You can giggle if you want. 

 

 

 

Mornin'

Last night was brought to us by the alarm.  It went off on a average of 1.5 times every hour all night long.

I sure wish I knew why.   She'd been doing so well.  I keep hoping once her flovent is back in her system it will disappear.

She also pulled her oxygen off 4x??? or so.  One rather looses track after multiple wakes.   So she'll be wearing her oxygen 24/7 for a couple days to re-teach her she can't do that.   I'm wishing it wasn't Sunday when we had to do this.   Cause we'll get to field about 550 "friendly" questions as a result....but we have to start sleepin.

On that note.

Happy Mothers Day. 

My kiddos got me a little flowering basket, and daddy picked me out a  big one.   And I also got a beautiful lawn ornament that Rob and I picked out together a couple months ago.   Okay actually its not beautiful.  Its ummm funny.  The closest thing I can think of it looking like is the dwarf from LOTR.    Or in other words Kilpatrick.    Actually I thought it looked like my dad when I found it which is why we got it. 

I'll put up a picture later.

Okay yelled at the Princess 3x in regards to doing her hair.  So probably I should hit submit and just plain do it......

Mornin'  Cruised the boards.   Did a post or two and chuckled over another one or two that somebody else had written.

My house is vvvvvvvvvery quiet at the present moment.   My hubby and kids went on a Dew run for mommy.   The quiet won't last much longer. 

Had a nice relaxing date night last night.  Regardless of the fact that a lot of it was spent picking up the van etc.    Tried to snuggle with DH when we got home....and he fell asleep on me.   The nerve of the man.  *snicker*   He always whines that I don't initiate.....so pbbbbbbbt on him.

Oh was that oversharing???  Ask me if I care.

Rainee alarmed again last night.  And we were both so tired we ummm were rather idiots and never checked to see if the oxygen had fallen out.  It had.  Only we discovered that this morning.   We were such responsible parents.

And we're gonna do this with a newborn in the house???  What were we thinking???  (snort)

Its gonna be intresting thats for sure and certain.   And we may end up having to revisit a home health nurse come newborn time.  We'll see.....

I *did* end up going grocery shopping yesterday.   And took Kaylin with me.  It was very entertaining.

The first conversation we had was.  "Mommy, when I go to heaven do I stay there?"  "Yes, Kaylin."  "But what about going to church and Mother's Day?"  she inquires.  (priorities of a four year old apparently)

And then this.  "I miss our blue mini-van."  "Why do you miss it it was just a piece of junk clogging up the driveway."  "Cause I thought that the big white van was its mommy, and now the mommy is missing its kid..."

That one I could quite contain the laughter on......bwahahahahahahaha

I love imagination.

Okies kiddos are here.   The day begins.  We wanted to go to the Irrigation Festival...but now I'm not sure.   We're tired, and tomorrow's gonna be a loooooooooooooooooooooong day.   Decisions, Decisions.