September 12, 2002

• Good morning  

  
  

  I updated the time-stamp because I forgot to upload my rose.  One of the last of the summer. 

  
  

                           

  
  

  DH is out with the kids going for a walk before work.  I think he was disappointed I didn’t go…but I hadn’t eaten breakfast, brushed my hair etc.  So it was nice to have the quiet for a few minutes.

  
  

  Soccer practice went much better yesterday.  I felt like I had the kids attention the whole day instead of constantly reminding them where/what they were supposed to be doing.

  
  

  I got my blood tests back from Monday…..and well there’s a reason I’ve been dragging.  And its not that I’m a mom of 5 kids 5 & under.   

  
  

  I’m still anemic.  And had stopped taking my iron, so back to doing that.  And my TSH is back to where it was when I was first diagnosed with hypothyroidism.  Its supposed to be between 2-4  and it was at 44.  UGH  I guess that explains why I’m pulling out handfulls of hair, and all I want to do is sleep.  So upping the meds some more, and hope things get under control.  I didn’t have the major mood swings (for the most part)  Because the paxil is masking the symptoms.  This is probably a good thing, as my family doesn’t need that garbage.  But hopefully it also means when my thyroid is back where it should be I can go off the paxil. 

  
  

  One of my friends gave me a box of Russel Stover Chocolate.   Oh can I eat the whole box today?? PlEASE????????

  
  

  My sil gave me 3 candle albra’s (sp?) and we enjoyed them in our bedroom last night.  I’d forgotten how much I like candle light.  So digging my candles out and gonna use them again

  
  

  I got 12 loads of laundry done yesterday.  (not folded yet)  By going to the laundromat.  Today my sister will fold them while she’s working for me.   It has been such a god-send having her working for me.

  
  

  I’ve almost reached my goal that I set this week too.    What is the goal?  Well,  my husband has been so good over the last few months.  And has never demanded anything.  As I healed and grieved the perfect birth etc.  And through all of the emergencies has remained a rock.  And I wanted so much to do something “special” for him.  But you know what he didn’t want anything special.  He just wanted time with me.   So I made a goal to have intimacy with him 3x a week.   He is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy over that goal.  And I’ve actually been enjoying it too.    I abandoned the goal of a perfectly clean house~~he didn’t want that.  I abandoned the goal of always making home cooked meals~~he didn’t want that.   I abandoned the goal of model children~~he didn’t want that.  

  
  

  He just wanted me.      I can do that!

  
  

  Father God, today is a new day.  With many things I want to do and many that I need to do.  Let me have your wisdom in doing the right things.  The things that you want me doing.  I pray for Princess’s self-control…that she would continue to have victories in regards to it.  I pray for HD’s obedience factor that he would continue to grow.  And for my babies, that they would be a joy to be around today.  For my husband I pray for his energy level that you would give him the strength for today.  In your sons name, Amen

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