Good morning

We celebrated Fathers Day for Rob last night.  And today for my dad.  Rob has to work so that's why the early celebration.

I bought him a Bonhoffer radio drama from Focus on the Family so he had something to listen to on his way to work.  He said it is very good.   

The kids & I also made him a t-shirt with their hand-prints on.  Thank goodness my sister was here.  That was a challenging project.    We traced each of their hands and then cut the hand prints out and traced them onto the shirt using tri-chem.  We did one for Rob and one for my dad.  They turned out quite cute.   But om were they frustrating.

Kaylin still is miserable   She slept all night last night though going to bed at 5:00 pm.  So that was nice.  Well she woke up at 8:30 and snuck in a nurse...but I was still awake so that was ok.  Except at the same time Rainee was screaming, and well so was Zeria because she had a leg ache.  hehehe  Trust me it was a bit frantic.     Thank God for Rob.  He woke up (he has to get up at 2:45 so I hate to wake him)  Anyhow he woke up and comforted Rainee until she was calm, then took Zeria and put her in the tub.  We've discovered that letting Zeria soak in the tub for a few minutes does wonders for her leg aches. 

Kaylin's hands and feet are covered in this major rash.  She did something similar the last time she had a fever.    It looks like they were burned.    If the doctor was open for business today I'd go in.  But their not, and I hate going to the ER for a rash.  So I guess I'll just keep her out of SS in case she's contagious. 

Her burn on the back of her leg is slowly healing though it looks awful too.  Pretty much she's just a walking owie right now. 

Jamari actually fell asleep on me yesterday and ended up snuggling with me for over an hour.    I very much enjoyed that.  He's even starting to voluntarily come over to me when he wants something. 

Father God, I pray for wisdom today in dealing with each of my children.  I ask for calmness of spirit when things pile up and I can't handle them.  I pray for joy when dealing with my children in your sons name amen

Good morning

My mom and I went yesterday to the Homeschool convention and did the curriculum fair. 

OM do I have information overload!!!!   There was way way too much stuff there for me to be able to concentrate  

I did find two different Math curriculums that I'm very intrested in.  One is called Math-U-See and the other is Moving with Math.  I just need to research it a bit more and I will purchase one of them. 

I bought a couple books for me about parenting and a couple for the kids.  Mostly I just looked and took in what was available. 

Kaylin is miserable today.  And is making the rest of us miserable.  My sister will be here very soon and I'm sooooooo ready for some relief. 

Father God, I pray for the ability to comfort Kaylin today, and relieve her misery.  I thank you for your love in your sons name Amen

Good morning

Its gorgeous today, my van is working, and I'm headed to the lake. 

Its our first swim this summer.  And my sister will be there so I may even get to get wet....though it depends on how cold it is still.  LOl

ITs my favorite place in the world to be, and I'm so hoping for many days to get to go. 

Our camping trip was lovely.  Well okay we had some disasters...what would my life be without them?? But we felt like in the end it was a success and we plan to do it again.  The above picture was taken from our campsite.  It was sooo beautiful.    We went to sleep with the waves crashing and woke up to them crashing (oh yeah and the sound of munchkins too )

The disasters?  Well ummm ok we didn't bring a check-book and the camp wouldn't take cards...so I ran to the mom&pop store to get cash leaving Rob with the kids and well the serpentine belt on the van fell off.  *sigh*  Fortunately I babied the #$@*&( van to a pay phone and called my poor mom who really didn't need another stresser in her life. She rescued me, and let me use her van.  Ours will be in the shop probably until tomorrow (waiting for parts)  So, now we are vanless, and stuck at my house.  And the weather is GORGEOUS and just perfect for my first trip to Lake Lael, but it is not to be.      I guess God wants me home hehehe.

The second disaster was the Hot chocolate.  My loving dh decided to make it VERY hot.  I usually serve it lukewarm to my kids.  But umm oh no he brought it to a boil.  And then served it to Samuel.  Samuel thought it was too hot and abandoned it...so Jamari grabbed it, and spilled it  all over Kaylin's leg.  She has a nasty burn now.    Bordering on second degree.  This is her second nasty burn in her short 2 year old life.  Mommy's getting good at doctoring them.    Its on her thigh between her legs, so she will NOT be wearing pants for awhile as they irritate it.

Oh and btw if you ever have to deal with burns I HIGHLY recommend second skin.  It is a WONDERFUL product!!!!

I am having Bible study at my house today that way I can go.  Otherwise I would have been stranded all day.  We scurried around and picked up messes.  House isn't spotless but everybody is moms and they'll understand.  LOL

Here we have the kids eating marshmallows.  Ummm they put them on the sticks and they ate them.  Forget the cooking part. hehe.   And yes Zeria was a PIG.  5 at once is a bit much don't you think  

This was Jamari's first camping trip and I think he quite enjoyed it.  Though was very ready to go home the next morning.  He crawled into my moms van and sat there waiting for us to leave...we hadn't even taken the tent down yet LOL

It was also Rainee's first camping trip too.    And she did very well, even slept the first half of the night in the car seat. 

And here we have miss Kaylin babying her "owie".  She was such a little dirt ball by the time we got home.  But thats what camping is all about right?

And one last scenery picture, because well it was beautiful.    This was the trail to the beach. 

May you have a beautiful day

Good morning

I'm starting to shake to doldrums.  Yesterday I just wouldn't let myself think   And I kept busy in a good way.  We went to church and I was reminded my sisters were competing in a Hershey Track Meet.  So I asked my 16 year old sister to come with me so I could run into Subway without unloading munchkins.  Subway "cooked" lunch for us, and we went and sat outside in the GORGEOUS sunny day and watched the track meet.  There were lots of people to chase my munchkins, lots of volunteers to hold the baby who only came back to me when she started rooting   And I even got a wee bit of a sun burn.  We got home just in time for Rob to get off work, so it was a lovely break.  And kept me from having a pity party. 

Today is our weekend.  And if the weather clears up (we were HOPING it was gonna be like yesterday)  We are gonna take my youngest 3 sisters and go camping.  All I have to do is sit and enjoy the beach which is less then 10 miles from our house.  Rob will do the rest.  And once again I will be getting out of the house which I'm getting kind of sick of looking at

I look and see everything that needs to be done, do a teensy bit, and then realize thats ALL I have the energy to do.  And its just sucky.  So I think I'm gonna find ways to escape it for awhile. 

My 16 year old sister will be a Mother's Helper for me 2 days a week.  She will help with the kids, and do the housework that we're just not getting to.  I'm gonna keep her for at least the summer.  Sunday I don't need anybody as we spend most of the day in SS/church.  And by the time we get home we just nap, and wake up just before Rob gets home.  Wednesday we are at my moms for Bible Study, etc.  and spend very little time at home, so I don't need anybody then either.  It should make things workable. 

Baby steps once again.....

Father God, thank you for helping me shake the worst of the anxiety and depression.  Thank you for the husband who lets me talk when I start getting that way.  Thank you for the sunshine yesterday.  If we could have some today I'd be very greatful.  In your sons name, Amen

Good morning

I'm here...I'm alive...and I'm not in much pain.  But I'm terribly shaky due to a bit more blood loss.  My midwife said to give myself until August to feel better.    That just ruined my summer. 

I'm struggling with depression and anxiety again.   Praying hard, and wishing for a vacation to Hawaii without kids.   

You know its a good thing I'm semi-healthy   Because the amount of time I'm spending running around getting the "simple" tests for the D&C is killing me.    Yesterday I spent from 2-5 at the Dr doing the ultrasound, etc and deciding we needed it.  Today I spend from 2-5 meeting the surgeon and doing the pre-op blood work etc.  I'm exhausted.  The best thing about it was Rainee slept in her car seat like an angel for most of the time.  She woke up nursed snuggled down in the sling went to sleep hard, and then slept until we got home.  

The real hitch will be tomorrow.  She's NEVER had to take a bottle and will have to take at least one.  Plus she's used to feeding on demand......and won't get to for awhile.      Poor dh gets the joy of trying to soothe her.  He's gonna have SO much fun.  Not.

Okay now my exciting fun news.  My online friend IS moving up a LOT LOT LOT LOT sooner then originally thought.     So she should be up here the end of July or so.  I hope we manage to get together sometimes. 

My kids are spending tonight & tomorrow night at grandma's (the 4 oldest.)  We were originally gonna take an anniversary trip on Monday and Tuesday, but instead we traded that for a trip to get the D&C.  *sigh*

Oh and apparently I have some cysts on my ovarys which I have to have checked in another month to see if their still there....and then we may have more decisions to make.  Joy Joy Joy.

The positive;

Rainee is smiling, and even does this cute quiet giggle thing. 

Well I guess the D&C is scheduled for Friday.  My pre-op visit is tomorrow.  My parents will be keeping my kids.  *sigh*  I'm glad I have breastmilk in the freeezer!  If any of you xangites have had a d&C could you tell me how it went how long it took to recover, etc.

TIA

Good morning   well for another half hour or so.

I'm struggling a bit today.  Yesterday was a good day.  We had a bunch of errands to do the first being heading to the bank an hour away.  On our way Rob started talking wistfully of getting off the Peninsula.  etc, etc.  I understood his desire.  He's always accusing me of not going with his spur of the moment suggestions...so ummm we went to the Point Defiance Zoo. 

We had a lot of fun.  And all the kids except Rainee LOVED it.  They were also extremely good during the very long long drive.  I got TIRED.  And probably should NOT have done it....but screw it I'm tired of being responsible.  So for one day I had fun.

And now I'm paying the piper.  I bled a LOT yesterday and it got worse as the day got longer, and it was my own fault.  *sigh*

So when the midwife called to ask whether the bleeding stopped I had to say no.  Sooooooooooooooooo   I'm expecting her to say she'll call the meds in.  No *sigh*  She says she's been talking to the Dr and he says he feels it would be better to check things out and consider a D & C.  I'm not excited about this.  Okay I'm worried, mad at myself for overdoing it (even if it was fun)  And sick that once again my dh will have to pick up the pieces. 

So this afternoon my sister comes over to watch 4 of my kids, and I will take myself into the clinic to be examined and we will decide what to do from there. 

I know a d&c is not super major...but it IS to me.  And I'm not very happy about it.    continuing to pray, and try not to think about it too much.

Good afternoon

I had my 6 week check-up scheduled today.  But as I'm STILL bleeding going on 6 days now we decided to post pone it to two weeks from Monday.  If I'm still bleeding on Wednesday I'm gonna be taking a heavy duty med to shrink my uterus which I'm informed will make me very crampy.  *Oh joy*    They did do a finger prick to discover my humatecrant is STILL at 9.6  I guess it likes it there.  But quite frankly I'm not suprised considering I've been oozing so much.  *sigh*

Okay this is gonna be the worlds shortest blog 'cause I forgot I promised my kids I'd play memory and they just reminded me. 

Today  ahem dh and I have a date   And its been a LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time since well nevermind.