September 17, 2006
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Every night I've gone to bed saying I will go to the ER in the morning. In the morning I think, Oh it feels a bit better I'll wait. And by night I'm kicking myself.
Picture me kicking myself.
The good news is tomorrow is normal doctors hours and I can get in and get something else. My ear is *not* healed. I did about an hour of moaning again this afternoon.
I have cotton in my ear along with the antibiotic at the moment and that actually feels pretty good...so hopefully I can thrive until tomorrow.
I rather melted down over the pain, and just feeling bleh this afternoon. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
We drove out to Neah Bay to pick up door knobs for our newly placed doors. I told Rob I wanted a Native to walk up and offer to cure me...and then suggested that possibly I'd been watching too much Roswell. I bought this as my guilty pleasure, but Rob has gotten addicted too. *eg* Its great, 45 minutes of mindless mystery, and no commercials. Of course the downside of this is when we're both sitting in misery waiting for a commercial, and realize that's what the pause button is for.
I had the thought today that its been a long time since I've had a close friend that was willing to believe in me, and support me with the exception of my husband. Now I'm not talking mindless support where there's no give and take. Just the kind of friendship I had in college and in High school. Its fun to be back in contact with my friends from college, but a lot of life has gone by since then, and she's a lot of miles away. I so wish I could make some friends....
I could get depressed now. I've been here almost 10 months. And we like our church, but I don't feel even remotely close to anyone. I guess...its just the choices I've made. Homeschooling in a non-homeschooling community. Raising biracial children in a non-biracial community. But life just gets lonely some days.
Comments (4)
I know what you mean about making the kind of friends that you had in high school and college. It just never seems the same. I have friends but it would be nice to have a few who you feel are there for you no matter what. But I sure don't miss all the stuff that came along with those high school/college days. You will find that one friend who will mean the world to you, just give it time. Hope you feel better. GO TO THE DOCTORS!!!
I know what you mean about the friend issue. I have become close to my sil's up here and now we are planning on moving back to Nova Scotia. I have been thinking a lot lately how much I am going to miss them and is this the right decision we are making. My husband feels like this is where God is leading us and we have to trust in that. Plus I do have some really good friends back home in Nova Scotia but like you said a lot of time has passed and we have moved on to our different paths. Especially spiritually. I guess the best thing to do is trust in God and he will bring you the support you need.
Michelle
Still praying for your ear to heal and that God will give you a close friend like He gave me YOU in college.
{{{HUGS}}} I'm in a non-homeschooling community too. I feel like a real oddball sometimes. Even if I am one, it's not a pleasant feeling.
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