Can anybody tell me how vacation snuck up on me so quickly? 

I had to rapidly think through my grocerys when I realized yesterday that payday was today.  *panics*  LOL

Last year we vacationed on a planned menu, it cut down the crap we had in our van by 1/2 and cut our expenses down by half.  So Rob and I sat down and planned a menu, and I shopped accordingly today.  Now I have a pile of vacation stuff sitting on my trunk in my bedroom.

I also bought Zeria's bday pressie as her birthday is in 8 days--in the middle of vacation.   She was going to get a new bike, but I scored one for her at the rummage store for $7 a couple weeks ago.  It was used twice.  Which isn't the case any more.  I offered her to still get her a new and bigger bike, but she very much wanted something else, so I purchased that.  She unfortunately knows now what's she's getting, but at least we know she'll like it.  What is it?  A digital camera.  Its a kid friendly one.  I got her one last year, and she loved it although it got abused by a friend and broke.  We had a long talk about how she won't be lending it this time.  I so hope I didn't make a mistake.  But how are they going to learn.  And I didn't pay a ton for it.  UMM $50'ish?

So, now I've been shopping for about 6.5 hours, and I've spent a ton of money, and I'm exhausted.  LOL

Which means next step is a cat-nap.  The step after that is to go feed the chickens.

Yup, chickens.

They were an impulse buy on Saturday.  Actually we've been planning on purchasing them all summer, but I never remembered to stop at the feed store.   Someone was selling them at the Sekiu/Clallam Bay fundays---and so we have $16 chickens.

I think we're getting closer to qualifying as a farm.  *snicker*

I'm feeling a bit better--but still tired and draggy.  And the sinus headache is lingering.  The depression however appears to be slowly disappearing.  One can hope right?-

A rough week.

I've been scarce online--rather obviously.  I've dealt with a fair-amount of pain, and a huge amount of depression.  They go hand in hand.  I think I'm starting to climb out of it a bit.

Its been worse somehow since I moved to Clallam Bay--the cycles of hiding.  But in someways its been better.  I've hidden from my "online" life more.  But from my family less. 

In the past I would have buried myself online, now I'm just burying myself in my family I think its probably the better choice.  Even if it does leave people wondering in the stories I'm working on.

I'm hoping to get back into it tomorrow afternoon, as things are starting to look a bit more right-side up. 

If you haven't dealt with real debilitating depression for a period of time in your life...you just can't really understand what I'm trying to explain.  Its this haze of gray fog that surrounds your head and makes it almost impossible to function.  The simple things become almost impossible to conquer.  You see yourself almost from outside of things and know that there's something wrong, but you can't fix it--just observe it.

My husband is a saint.  He just rides through it.   And last night he just looked at me while I was getting dressed and said quietly.  "I want you to know, that no matter how your feeling I really do love you...I mean it."

Man God knew what he was doing when he had me wait for Rob.  So I cherish my family, move a bit slower, and hold on until this bout of the blues disappears. 

A couple shots from watching the fireworks last night--or waiting for them.  The lady who Rob buys his weekly mocha from invited us to watch them from her beach.  It was quiet and deserted--unlike the public beach.  We thoroughly enjoyed it, and the sunset just went on and on. 

This weeks photo challenge topic is Under Bridges.  This bridge is at the edge of our property, we walked to it through the river about a month ago.  Its not your most impressive bridge, but it was a lovely adventure, and hopefully we'll get back there soon.   The medicine is slowly starting to work, but I'm not completely up to snuff yet.  On top of that I have a wretched tooth-ache.  I guess I'll be hauling myself to the dentist extremely soon.  *sigh*  Tomorrow our little town is having a parade, and fireworks, so we shall be busy, and hopefully I'll have a few pictures to share.

yup its spelled wrong.  *snicker*

My never ending sinus headache has continued.

Its the reason I've been scarce online--too hard to think.

So, I finally drug my butt to the doctor and have meds that should start dealing with the allergies...I hope.  The pain has GOT to end.

The pain is mingling with anxiety and depression and just not making me a pleasant person to be around.  I'll be back when its gone. 

Been lazy-groggy day today.

I had a sinus-headache all morning/early afternoon.  Now that its gone, I'm just kinda staring blankly.  I'm hoping to drag myself down to the river with the kiddos after they eat dinner, but other then that just lazy.

Fourth of July is tomorrow, but my hubby's working.  I'm not entirely sure what we're going to do.