October 15, 2005

  • I've been up so many times this night its really not worth it to try to go back to bed.   And yet I'm exhausted and should probably try.


    I'm shaky all over I'm so tired.  *sigh*


    Jer was up about every 15 minutes all night long not totally sure why, and Zeria had a major hissy fit over something for a good 20.   She does it occasionally.   We've never figured out why. 


    My mommy skills are broken.   Quite frankly I just feel broken.


    I want a quiet little hole to crawl into and stay there for about 6 hours.  


    Instead I'll go take my morning meds, and try for another hour of sleep.  hahahaha.


    Yes, its 5 am.   My big kids will be up for the day in an hour.  I should just enjoy the quiet now and give up.  LOL


    And yes I'm whiney...didn't go away from last night LOL.


    I'm just feeling intensely overwhelmed.   There's tons of things to be done to move, and I can't do any of them until I know we ARE moving.   And there's tons of so called five minute projects that have to be done on this house before we can move.   YOu know, little holes in walls, little messes here and there.


    Good things.  I need a good list.   We thought our van needed new brakes.   We really really really didn't want to have to spend the money.   The tire shop checked them out and said they were just really dirty.   They cleaned 'em and we're good to go.  *grin*


    The property we're moving to *is* beautiful.   And change is good for the soul.


    My 'ils have been intensely supportive during this time, and so have my parents.


    Actually their way more excited then me.  LOL


    Zeria is *finally* reading on her own.    It requires prompting, but she CAN do it.   This is a major accomplishment.   And yesterday she brought a book to Rob and read it withOUT being prompted.   There's hope for her yet.  *grin*    She's also began to read signs, things on the tv, etc without being told "You can read try it."    We may almost have a reader.


    Kaylin got to read her first story on Thursday and LOVED it.   She wanted more.


    I have a husband who took six kids to the tire shop so I could show the house without them under foot. 


    My bil is coming to fix a bunch of the so-called five minute projects today which will be a major load off my back.


    God is good.   All the time.   All the time God is good.


    I may be coming down off my 24 hour panic attack.   This would be superb.    Takes a deep breathe and heads back to bed to try again.  

Comments (2)

  • :sunny: Hope you're feeling more calm. :heartbeat: It would freak me out to have to consider moving too!

  • I hope the move goes smoothly for you. The support of family is so helpful at a time like this. Good for your bil to come over! What a relief, huh? I hope you can find the time to nap today. Try not to stress too much, okay? Take care.

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