September 6, 2005
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Today was a good day. The first truely good day in well since a week ago Thursday.
I have just been...
out of it.
I can't even explain. My body ached, I felt a tinge crampy, did one day of being so dizzy I couldn't get out of bed (literally) and just down. I would almost say depressed. Mostly just in enough pain I didn't want to think, but not enough pain I wanted to go to the doctor.
Hows that for vague malays?
My grandma is dying. Her crit as of Friday was at 15. There arranging for Hospice to come pitch in. It could be 6 months. She has a DNR, and when offered a transfusion she said "h*" no. My dad who has her power of attorney had also said the same thing. Her mind isn't there...its so time.
I need to go see her soon. Tomorrow would be good eh?
Its not gonna be a fun visit. What do you say to a woman whom you loved dearly, but now feel is really in most ways is dead already? I so don't know.
My mom said she was contemplating just reading the Bible to grandma...and I'm thinkings its a good thought.
This wasn't btw the reason for the malays. It happened in the middle of them.
We are contemplating a MAJOR change in our family...
and no I don't mean another child. *sniggers madly*
We fell in love with a turn-of-the-century Victorian house in the town that DH works in. If we were to sale this house, and by that one we would own our house FREE and CLEAR. Which would be spectacular.
The problem? The house was taken off the market....
So we're trying to find out why...and the owner. The house is empty, so its not cause they want to live in it.
The other problem? Well DH works at the end of nowhere.
And I do mean nowhere. The closest Safeway, Albertsons, Walmart would be an hour twenty minutes away by a LONG curvy road.
The church choices are Church of God, Assembly of God, and Presbeterian. Rob would so NOT be comfy in the Assembly. And the other two have wee glitches in their theology that I'm not completely happy with. But we would be willing to consider them....
Rob and I are totally excited about this, and not sure why. Possibly cause we're nuts.
The price of gas *is* going up...so moving for that reason would be good...BUT
There literally is no grocery store in that town, so we would have to do the hour and a half drive several times a month at the very least. Most people hit the grocery store ONCE a month.
This would be a rather novel way of living huh?
And slightly nutso. *giggles*
The fun part? I can see the ocean from the front yard. And the beach is a five minute walk....
Yes I'm drooling. And dreaming. And praying.
So, I know the boards. I feel very bad in particular about Dragon and Catheska. I've NEVER stayed away this long from online, but was just sick....still am a little bit.
So, I will try for tomorrow. I don't want to write stuff that frustrates people, so for now I shall remain away.
The wee bits of energy I've had I've used to keep 6 kids occupied. And school. School is going well. And I'm finally feeling like I'm finding a groove...which means tomorrow the bottom should drop out right?
And ya know sheer joy today was? Pushing my boys on the swings. Jeremiah and Jamari. I just beamed at the sunshine and the smiles. And its the first time in a week and a half I even wanted to enjoy those. So life is looking up. the bigger kids and Rainee were off on the other side of the house exploring or something, and I just had the two of them. And they were just so cute, and Jamari was talking a mile a minute in a soft gentle voice. He was treasuring the moments as much as me. I just don't get time like that with him often. He doesn't allow it. It was a gift. Maybe...I'll go live on the swingset.
Comments (6)
Hi. I'm glad to here that you are feeling better. I'm sorry about your Grandma. I think that your mom reading the bible to her is a very good idea. I'll be praying for you. Take care.
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I want the house!
We hit the grocery store every two weeks anyway... just a rejuggling of the budget and menu planning... *g* I hope you feel better and I like that idea of just reading the Bible to your grandmother. That's what my father did for his own grandmother when she was dying.
Presbyterian... when I attended Bible Study Fellowship in Seattle it was hosted by the Presbyterian church in Richmond Beach. The pastor addressed us one evening and asked for prayer for the Presbyterian denomination because of all the non-Biblical attacks assailing them in the past several years. I decided right then and there that were we to ever seek a church in that area I'd go there simply because he was dead on. My grandmother attended a Presbyterian church as well... I think they're like Southern Baptistis in some ways... each church is different and independent -- you just have to check it out and see where they stand. One Presbyterian church may preached the Truth, while another may fall into the more liberal parameters they seem to be embracing these days. *g*
Anyway. I hope you feel better soon!!!
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{{{HUGS}}} on your physical discomfort and for your gm's illness. That's a hard time to handle. How far away is she from you?
As for the hour long drive to the grocery store...how long is Rob driving every day now? I know it's a pain, but it would still be an improvement, right? I hope you can find out why the house has been taken off the market, and get it put back on!
So sorry to hear about your Grandma......I remember what a difficult time it was when my Grandma was here physically but had really been gone to us for a long time....Praying for you and your Grandma.
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