July 22, 2005

  • Just wiped


    The boards are not loading for me.  Its the second night.   After five minutes I can get into the front page of a board.   If I wait another five I might get to the page I actually need to be to read.


    Jeremiah has been sick since Saturday.   And its not a happy sick its a scream, push mommy away, kick kinda sick.   In between times he takes long naps...in my arms.  He won't go down any other way in the day time.   Add this to the fact that we've had *gasp* 5 days of summer and I just haven't been online.


    I'm sorry.  I know I should be going to Catheska, and the Ball, and...


    I just don't have the energy.


    I'm wiped.   


    Add to this the issues that I think the paxil has stopped working.    Because the day I don't want to get online...is the day I'm really struggling. 


    Some of that was a issue I had to deal with, some of it is just exhaustion.   I should never make a decision about medication when I'm this tired.   So with Rob as my guide I'm waiting another week.   Jer should be healthy by then right?    I should get a bit more sleep, and then the issues will go away.


    Or I'll go in next Wednesday and up my paxil, or try another med.  Either way...something will give.


    I btw am highly sensitive to jokes about meds these days......A visiting pastor made a joke about them and I was NOT happy.    The choice to take medication for anxiety or depression should NOT be such a difficult one.  One should not feel like a failure because they choose to do it.  


    Preaching to choir again....


    I had posts that I NEEDED to write tonight...but apparently I didn't.   If someone who doesn't have crappy dial-up can get in...please forgive me for making you all wait. 


    Maybe tomorrow Jer won't scream all day...or I'll take him to the doctor to find out why he is. 


     

Comments (5)

  • Take care and rest, rest, rest. It sounds like a lot of folks are needing that these days. *big hugs* :sunny:

  • :) Huggles...been missing you.  Heehee  darn dial-up...doesn't it know you have a wedding to attend and the groom is hanging cause Kil showed up to take Barbara away....mad giants are loose.  Now let your readers figure that one out.

    Seriously, hope Jeremiah to feeling better and his mommy too.  You have a vacation looming here too.  More hugs!!

  • :sunny: Taking meds for depression etc should be considered the same as taking medication for ANY OTHER medical condition!

  • :( So sorry to hear about all of this... I will pray for you

    Hope you can get some rest....:sleepy:

    Huggs,

    kim

  • *huggles* I hope you're feeling better, I know and have gone through the same thing with paxil before. I was on it for almost two years, and I got the jokes too. Family was oddly the worst culprit, especially if I was having a bad day. The first question was did you take your paxil -.- as if being on something automatically makes it everyone elses right to ask that question. Long story short, they ended up raising my dosage after a while I just got more tired from the meds than the way I was before. Celexa (sp? not sure) is similar to Paxil, less side effects too and it worked much better.

    *huggles again* feel better and I hope Jeremiah is feeling better too ^_^

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