May 21, 2005

  • hello


    shaky, weak, and drugged.


    I have been flat for a week.  i haven't had the mental energy to stand most of the time.


    Tuesday Rob stayed home from work after listening to my cry off and on all night.   We couldn't get into my regular pcp, but got into a ok cp at the same clinic.  She gave me flexeril & told me I could use ibuprofen 800.  I was already.     i was too dopey to tell her.   Went home, took flexeril made me loopy, still in pain.


    Called the dr.  got diffy one.  He prescribed vicadin.  Rob went and got it.  It helped some, but still major pain.


    *sigh*


    Wednesday back to first pcp (not my regular one) and got a demeral shot.  Still didn't remove all the pain--its apparently my life.   But did enable me to sleep. 


    My 15 year old sister came and spent the night so as to snoopervise the babies so Rob could go to work.  I somehow managed to keep Jeremiah happy.   Drug induced haze.


    Thursday feeling some-better, but get fever.  Still don't know why.  No kidney infection, pain in wrong place.   No calling of doctors, just slowly coming out of pain during day.  Relapse towards night.  Rob ended up calling in sick last minute 'cause it was obvious I wasn't gonna make it.


    And we scheduled the soonest chiropractor apointment we could.  


    Friday vicadin is actually covering the pain.  Woo!   Of course I'm drug induced stooper, but at least the pain is gone.    My blood pressure has been high all week.  NObody's ultra concerned about that...the pain is probably the reason.


    It makes me intensely shaky.  Plus the mild fever that sort-of-leaves.     Friday afternoon new chiropractor.  I haven't been in 4.5 years.  Been managing my pain on my own that long.   Been doing mostly ok at it too.   Learned to accept pain as life...but this new pain...just awful.


    She was extremely thorough, and did massage as well as manipulation.   Last night I was achey, but not sore.  I know that doesn't make sense.  But it did to me.  I nursed JEremiah off and on all night as per usual, and still felt pretty good.   Towards morning about 6 am'ish I opted for ibuprofen.  It worked.   Amazing I'm downsizing drugs.  *snort*


    I slept from 6-11.   HARD.  Actually real sleep, with dreams.  Haven't dreamed all week, just been so out of it. 


    Just about a half a hour ago the pain remerged rather victoriously.   I panicked.   But took a couple deep breathes, moved positions, walked, breathed, and stuffed some more ibuprofen down my gullet.  I feel pretty good at the moment.   I'm coming of the shakes of pain, and breathing.


    Its been a extremely rough week.


    This pain is under in my right shoulder.  I'm coming to realize that due to my lower back pain which is chronic and never ending I've been compensating by over using my right shoulder.  I.E. to support my weight while dressing, climbing into our super tall van, etc.  


    The chirporactor yesterday asked me if I used it to push anything.  And I said no.   And then I started watching.  I use it for everything....even when its in this much pain.  Time to rebalance my body, so it doesn't scream at me this loudly ever again.


    But in the midst of all of this.  I can truely say I have rejoiced.


    I never got angry at Rob, or my kids, or God.  A major first.   Instead I found myself thanking God for the pain.  Which I know non-Christians will think is highly weird.   But is says  "In everything give thanks, for this is the will of God."   And wow I got a vacation this week...


    No laundry,


    no dishes,


    no kid care


    Of course I was drugged beyond all reasoning.  *snicker*


    But it was still a vacation.


    Have I mentioned my husband is a saint?  He is trust me on this. 


    Currently he's in the laundry room talking to Jeremiah whose semi-happy in the bouncy seat while folding laundry.  He's a saint.


    And I can't even reward him yet...


    will remedy that as soon as I can.  TMI I know. 


    Thanks for the prayers.  Its been a rough week. 


    The computer is where the pain began last week.  So it may be I'm scarce for the next week.  I"m sorry.  Pain takes precedence.

Comments (8)

  • I am glad to hear from you... I was getting rather worried.  I hate to hear all you have been through, but I am glad it is getting better.  Keep us in touch, so we don't worry too much. :giggle:

    Praying for you still

  • You had me worried young lady.  And I don't have your phone number.  But, am so glad to hear you are getting better.  **hugs**  :wave:

  • You are the 2nd person in a row in my SIRs who had a really difficult, sicky week.  Praying you are on the mend! (((HUGS!))) :heartbeat:

  • :heartbeat: Hope you're feeling better soon!

  • Pain definately takes precedence *hugs* take care of yourself.

  • {{{HUGS}}} I'm sorry you've been in so much pain, but very glad you're learning how to manage it, and keep it from coming back. 

  • DO take care. Rest, relax and recover! *HUGS* :sunny:

  • Poor thing! My goodness you've had it very rough. I'm sure it was pretty scary. I can understand what you mean about the pain and not blaming anyone or thing. I was read a book by Joseph Campbell and a part of it explained how what we face every day is really brought about by us and so it is better for us to just accept it as part of us and not think it is something forced on us as a punishment. Makes it easier to deal with. I'm glad you are feeling better. Just take it easy if and when you can! :heartbeat:

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