March 30, 2005
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Good morning
The sun is shining. *cheers*
DH loaded ALL the kids up to go get me pop. And wow the house is fascinatingly quiet. As much as I whine about the noisey kids...I think this is entirely TOO quiet.
My brother is home doing well as far as I know. I haven't called them, they like to sleep in, and I'm hoping after last night that they are. What a horrific thing.
He's ONLY 30. And as my dh so tactfully puts it...he was circling the drain.
Rather makes one stop....
and think.
and.....gah! So horrible.
He was just in my house on Sunday...driving me rather batty. He was kind of grumpy to be honest with you. And my observation at the end of the day was. "I don't think his sugar levels were right." Ugh.
I'm so, so, so, glad I didn't say some of the things I wanted to say when he was grumpy. Wow, it sure gives you added incentive to keep your mouth closed. Somehow the fact that he thought our house was loud....pales in comparison now.
I'm climbing up out of the depression. Of course I've had one whole night of decent sleep...maybe that's what it is.
Or maybe its the realization that life is short. But...I don't think thats it.
Depression for me...isn't about a reason for being upset, it just surrounds me like a gray fog that I can't push off. I don't see a reason for it, its just there, and it leaves just as suddenly. Something that entirely too many people do not understand.
"Just get up and go for a walk," was my moms favorite advice.
"Or just read some Scripture." was a friends advice.
They've never dealt with clinical depression apparently.
I stepped back from walking for a couple days. And I didn't fold my laundry. I just sat. And now I'm starting to feel better then I have in several weeks. It was a wise choice.
Of course...I'm feeling like conquering mountains in my mind today. Probably shouldn't do that...how about some baby steps...like Mt. Laundry.
Ugh do I have to??????
Comments (5)
Well even laundry requires baby steps. LOL. *hugs* Sooo glad to hear your brother is doing better. Whoo.
oh hun, I dont know where I was yesterday. I wish I had read your blog so I could join in the prayers. I am sooo very glad the Drs. got his sugar under control. You must have been scared to death!! I will pray for his continued recovery. Great big hugs, Jo o/
Ps. I too suffer from depression.
If you ever feel the need to chat IM me on yahoo kensjo63 or jolynn36 on AIM..
Clinical depression bites. I really think people who haven't suffered depression themselves can never understand how bad it is. :jealous:
*sends encouraging vibes*
All those quick fix solution suggestions don't really make it any better, do they!? In fact it sometimes feels worse because you start thinking that no one really knows what it's like.
People do though... :heartbeat:
And I know God does...
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