November 2, 2004

  • a day. 


    Another day.  I reached 38 weeks today.   Kaylin was born at 38 weeks.


    Comme out come out wherever you are little one.


    Oh I know where you are smooshing my bladder, rearranging my hips, and doing strange and wondrous things with my ribs!  COME OUT!


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    I scrap-booked 6 pages for Jamari's book last night.  And actually enjoyed it.   


    For those of you who've been reading a long time.  Jamari's adjustment to our household was a rough one.   (understatement)   And looking at those pictures of the days where he screamed for 8 hours straight, and refused to let me touch him...its not exactly fun.     And the grieving I did because he was so mal-adjusted.   etc.


    So looking at the pictures just dredges it all up.  I still deal with some mild-attatchment issues with him. 


    Anyhow I had a break-through last night and am choosing to use his scrapbook as a healing process and a honesty thing, rather then rainbow colored.    So as I journal it, I talk about how much he enjoyed having space to move after being locked in a 8x10 room for 5 months.   And how exhausted he made us as he trashed everything in the process.    Honesty, grief, and cute pictures.   Maybe it will help him as he grows....maybe its just helping me.      And I can actually see that he WAS cute.  


    When a baby has been screaming for 8 hours its rather hard to remember.......


    Anyhow it felt like success and I was quite proud of the pages I did.   And am looking forward to doing some more. 


    And last night while waiting for DH to get home I happened to hit a scrapbooking show which I watched and has given me a couple new techniques to try tonight.  (this was after I'd done the 6 pages)


    So gonna research the technique a bit.   And try it.  *grin*  And I'd tell you what it is.....but my pregnancy brain just swallowed the name.


    Its the art of curling paper into designs.  Twilling?  Quilling.  ROFL


    I am spending minutes every day remembering the names of my children....forget learning a new word.  


    And you are?????

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