Warning this blog is one majorly long whine.

My tooth hurts.  It has gone from a 3 to a 7 pain wise.  And it happened rather rapidly.   Monday I had no tooth pain, and never a hint of it.  I was at the dentist just 6 months ago, so things shoulda been fine.

Today I think its abscessed.   Serious pain.   And getting worse.  And of course its after hours...and didn't really pick up on pain 'til like 5:15 tonight.  Bangs head on desk.

I've been a bitch today.

I am a bitch.

I can't speak civilly to my family even though they've been very sweet to me.   This pain on top of all the pregnancy pain has just kicked me over into truely psychotic.

I also am sick to the stomache.   And dealing with asthma...although that may be panic induced due to the pain.

On top of that, absolutely everything I've said today has had to be repeated three times before it was heard/responded to.   Including 98% of what I said to my husband.  Repeating things when you have asthma.....

makes one bitchy.

Yup....

thats me.

Never, never, never ask your kids what their doing.

Cause they'll tell you, and you won't be any wiser.

"Mom, we're playing a game, and Mari's Amanda.  And its my birthday, and he gives presents to me.   And there's a rattle snake.  Sam's the rattle snake, but he turned back to a horse."

See I'm absolutely none the wiser.......

Good morning

Its a new day.

Yesterday was fairly mellow.   The most exciting thing I did was remove six months of cob-webs from the majority of my house.....Can we all just say EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!

Its amazing the jobs that got ignored while I was on bedrest.   Today I hope to wash down my two silk hanging baskets.   Which are covered in dust and cobwebs.   And de-cobweb the bathroom, which I missed yesterday somehow. 

Exciting huh?  (sarcasm oozes)

I handed Zeria a phonics workbook yesterday 'cause she was bored.  She did 3/4's of it just for "fun".     I like it when school work gets done that willingly.....

I have a $50 work table from Home Depot that we bought like 3 years ago that I currently use for a kitchen island.  It fits in my kitchen wonderfully, and actually looks pretty good.    It however doesn't have a "kitchen proof"  counter, and is open.   Today we are going to run in and buy some wood to tongue and groove the side that faces the rest of the house.    It will match the feel of the rest of the house, and give me better storage.    If we buy it today then Rob can install it on the weekend.    I'm also hoping to investigate tile to see if that would be a viable option for the top.  If not I'll just redo the contact paper that is currently on it.  

Its definitely still cheaper then investing in a island for the kitchen, and besides its the perfect fit and build for my funky kitchen.

Other then that its just being a mommy and a wife.   And waiting.....and begging for this baby to come out.  *snicker*

Its amazing what protein does to my mood.  Seriously.  Last night I had perogy's for dinner.  They were lovely.   This morning due to many extentuating circumstances I didn't eat.   Well a thing of fonions that were in the car....more carbs.  And a diet Dew.

I was dragging, and oh-so-grumpy.  MAJOR grumpy LOL.   And weepy.  Just basket case. 

Did the midwife's with 5 kids in tow.   Just as the nurse was taking my blood pressure Rainee tripped and hit her head on the corner of the cabinet in the wee-little room.  And of course started screaming.  Needless to say my blood pressure was highly elevated.      So they took it again at the end of the apointment, back to where it should be.  (snicker)

Anyhow after midwife's still groggy and grumpy.  Finally had time to eat ate a Frugal burger (MMMMMM!)  and wa-la attitude change.  I KNOW better then not to eat.   Especially this pregnant.    I know better then to eat carbs for meals.   But oh my gosh I can't believe the difference in how I felt after the nice big red meat endulge.    Conquor the mountain kinda feel better.     If only I would remember this.......

And if only starchy foods weren't so much easier to prepare on the run.

Rainee is cranky with a capital C.   She has been for several days.  We had taken her of the prilosec (tummy med)  thinking it wasn't working.  I'm thinking now that it was.......so tomorrow I'll do my 3rd run to the pharmacy in less then a week and get it.   I shoulda done it today, but I was just there yesterday, and didn't wish to get laughed at by the pharmacy assistant........not that there not used to laughing at me.  (in a good kinda way.)    Its just part and parcel of having this many kids, and especially one whose as sick as Rainee is.

Its beautiful and COLD outside today.  This was a nice accident.   The kids are playing outside and this is always a bonus.   

I'm 37 weeks today.  Baby is officially full term.   Heart rate everything looking good.  The waiting game continues.......

Weeeeeeee  its been a couple days.

Spent the weekend enjoying my family.  Turned the computer on for only a few minutes.

We went geocaching on Friday.  Found one cache, gave up on one.   Ironically the one we couldn't find was rated the easiest of all we've looked for. 

Spent Saturday going to Walmart.  4 yes 4 of my kids needed new shoes.  And I managed to get them each a pair without wishing to kill any of them.    I felt like I conquered a mountain.  Usually they run out of shoes at different times, but NOOOOo we all had to have new shoes.    Sam was quite disgusted cause his shoes are only a month old and he wanted something new.  So as he was short on pj's I let him pick out a pair of Spiderman pjs.  He was quite delighted.

Had some really strong contractions last night....was hoping...but they fizzled.

Am dealing with a sore tooth today.  Not sure why.  I was only at the dentist 6 months ago.  I'm so hoping this doesn't mean a root canal.   And I really, really, really don't want to do it before the baby comes.  So if you could pray the pain goes away and stays away until afterwards I would appreciate it. 

Caught up on the boards...including the 3 pages of posts on the new story.  I'm ready for a new story somehow.  

Today I spent the morning in the grocery store.  The kids were well behaved, except the Princess got her feelings hurt because a man showed her what mommy was trying to tell her to get.  He quipped.  "I know how to follow directions."   She started crying.   (just tears streaming down her face not noise)   She is sooooooooooooo sensitive some days.  So I hugged her, and we moved on.

I'm very very very ready to be done being pregnant.  You knew that already right?  Well trust me its a recurring theme.    Put the carseat for the baby in the van today.  All the loose ends are caught up.   Haven't done my paint project...but not sure I'm going to as I just hurt to stand for very long.   My pelvic floor, hips, etc are just caving in with all the extra pressure.

Okies gonna go find my recliner chair and get down.  I've been online getting caught up for 2.5 hours.  My back is rather yelling at me. 

Good morning

I *gasp*  almost had a good nights sleep last night.  Dances wildly in the streets....

Okay maybe I won't do that...big fat pregnant lady would just look a little strange out there.

Rob has the opportunity for over time tomorrow.  I told him, I just can't do it.  Between now and the baby coming I need him home.  He has full permission to tell his boss I'm a bitch if he wants LOL  But I need him.   He said he'd been feeling similarly.   We have leave accumulated for him to be off, so we're safe that way.    

So three days off to enjoy family.   And no real plans.  Except to go out on a date tonight.   I'm thinking we *might*  go for a quick run to my parents new house to show Rob.   My sis and bil are also in the middle of a major remodel I think he'd like to see....but the two are in opposite directions.  We shall see.

I've also written up 3 Geo caches should we get so inspired.

But hey sitting at home and staring at each other would be fine too

Rob is talking about doing "my" paint project.    But its not ready to do, have to finish taking the 75 year old wall paper off the walls first.    And I'm just soooooooooooooooooooooooo looking forward to that.  NOT!

We shall see.

Okay managed to communicate that he's not doing my project.  LOL  He's the worlds slowest painter and hates it.  I ENJOY painting.   HE thought he was helping.   He wasn't.  LOL   There's a zillion things I can't/don't have the skills to do he can do instead.  This is a 100 year old house after all.  *snicker*

Takes a deep breathe.  I hate telling my husband no.  Its rather like taking candy from a baby.  Its so hard for me to stand up for myself enough to do so.   Not because he's mean...just because.

Anyhow life.  Have a good day

Good evening

It was mostly a good day.  Though I'm extremely tired and weepy at the moment.   Just cause.

We (the kids and I)  spent most of the day at my parents house.  It was finally put together yesterday.   It is a second-hand modular.   And is looking quite nice now.  They are now cleaning and painting it getting ready to move in.   When they move in and their other house sales.  They will have decreased their payment from 1200 a month to 400.  BIG difference.

The kids had a blast building forts amongst the leftovers from grandpa's logging, and riding the quad.

I enjoyed them having fun.  And tried to pretend like I was enjoying my aunt.     She's single, in her 50's, retired, and ummm whats that word?  Ahh yes just a wee bit self-centered/selfish.  "Nough said. 

My mom was *supposed* to be there...but ended up doing errands most of the time.  *shrugs*  The kids enjoyed themselves.

I came home, tired and absolutely exhausted.  I'm still trying to figure out why the level of exhaustion I have.    I feel awful.   Oh well what else is new I'm pregnant.

Rob is a GOOD husband.  HE got home a few minutes after we did (from a doctors apointment)  Sent me to bed, and made dinner for the kids.  GOOD husband.   When I woke up crying, he just let me.   And then helped me get in the hot tub (picture beached well climbing in)   and then made me grilled cheeze sandwiches for dinner.

Yup I'm spoiled.

My blood pressure is currently a *bit* elevated nothing dangerous, just atypical for me.  I hope this means I'm not getting another bug.  I'm not quite over the last one......

I'm currently upright as Rob has to get ready for work.  And in about 30 minutes the kiddos will head to bed. 

I'll stare at the tv until after Survivor is over.....and then pray desperately I sleep tonight.  I so hate the insomnia that comes with the last month of pregnancy. 

Okay I just hate this waiting period.  And I'm one constant long whine.  LOL

The baby will be worth it!  

I'm about to make a major decision about something.   Well major for me.   We shall see......continuing to think. 

My heart is heavy for a friend today.  A friend who has no idea how much I care.   And I often wonder why God put her in my life.     And I wish I could give her a real life hug.    It sucks to be brought face to face with our flaws.

And it sucks to make life choices.

On that note I share these verses for all of us who find ourselves making or doing a choice that doesn't exactly make logical sense.

Good morning

Its a new day without flaw or blemish in it.

I'm so glad new days happen. 

I bought new water colors for my kiddos yesterday.   And actually spent the dollar extra a paint for Crayola.  Man is this one instant in which name brands are better.    I've been buying the cheap craft stuff cause we go through it better.   But I tried to use a no-name color crayon the other day and was highly disgusted with its quality.   So splurged and bought "real" ones, and yup crayola crayons are soooooooo much better.  Brighter, color better etc.       Anyhow yesterday it was a splurge on water color paints.   As winter is setting in and I need some things to entertain my kiddos in the house.

So for almost 2 hours they broke in the "new" table my mom brought by and made beautiful art work.   Okay Rainee would put 3 dobs of paint on a piece of paper and bring it to me.   I had 30 of her "art projects"   Sad to say they are all gone now.  *snicker*

But this one...this one I thought was worth sharing.  Kaylin did this.  She's just four.    The date on it is NOT written backwards,  its on the back of the paper and leaked through on the scan.  I did that as I'm adding this piece to her scrapbook.    

I have several others of her artwork, but this one was my favorite.  

Anyhow its actually sunny out today.  *cheers wildly*   So I'm majorly looking forward to kicking my kids out of the house in a few minutes.  They need the wiggles really, really badly!

Okay I need them to wiggle.  

Yup sent 'em out...their grumbling 'cause I told 'em it was coat weather.   Sam up until a week ago was still running outside shirtless.   Well the result of this is of course coming in in ten minutes crying cause he's cold.   And leaving the door open to let all the cold inside etc.   So now its officially coat on BEFORE you go outside weather.  Moms are just so dang mean. 

I have the option of running away today.   I have a good DH.  But so far I'm not inspired.   I don't have money to spend.  I'd just go and eat breaky and still not sure if I'm going to go.  If I don't go today it will be at least Friday before I can, so I probably should.  

I *do* have a new book to read however....so maybe I should.  

Okies think I'll go.  I've found the energy.  Have a day all!

*cheers*  I survived 'til nap.  And came back able to cope.  LOL

I've done a couple very small organization thingys, but mostly I've just sat and stared this afternoon.

And I'm having contractions.

Go figure I sit I get contractions......Of course their not strong enough yet.   But at least they didn't completely stop like they did with Rainee when I got off bedrest.......

Maybe I'll actually deliver this baby naturally???  I'm not holding my breathe. 

Still nothing for me to do on the boards...except a Misty B&B post...that I have to be inspired to write.  *snicker*

Soooooooooo what else can I organize????????????