April 5, 2003

• Evening.

  
  

  I slept a lot today.  And snuggled with my kiddos, and tried to process my information overload.  Too many words from too many doctors.  They couldn't even keep the information straight after awhile.    Shoot the diagnosis they came up with for all of her seemingly unrelated issues didn't fit in the diagnosis box on their check-out paper.  The nurse had to write in cramped writing on the top, and the side, and finally got out a second page.  bwahahahahaha.

  
  

  We will be doing a Reflux test soon.  I'm not sure when, hopefully we can get the scheduling for that soon.

  
  

  It will be a 24 hour study which she will take after having been off her zantac for a week or so.  It will test to see how substantial her reflux is, and if that could be contributing to the lung disease/and or central apnea.   I don't know when it will be scheduled.

  
  

  We have a follow up in regards to the 3 night stay on the 17th of April.  (During our so-called "vacation" time.)  We've decided not to go to Pocatello (my 'ils home) this year after all.  It is just too much right now.

  
  

  We will however return to Seaside where we stayed for 2 nights as a mini-vacation.  We will stay like 3 nights there with the 'ils and a couple nights on our own.  I'm not sure exactly where the money for it is coming, but we're gonna do it anyhoo.  We need a mini-break from reality.

  
  

  I'm over-stressed, and kinda in denial right now.  The phrases this can't be happening, is this real, and Why God are repeated a lot.

  
  

  I'm holding on by a thread.  And I'm not being dramatic about it either.  I just want to know whats going on.  And it doesn't appear that there are any answers.

  
  

  God is in Control....

  • 11:06 pm
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