February 3, 2003

  • Good afternoon


    Guess what I did today?  Guess?  Anybody?


    I went to the doctors.    Gotta love this life.  It was time for Mari to have a check-up, and I scheduled some time to chat with Dr. Weller about Rainee's heart.  I love that man.    He was so gentle, and answered all my questions, and was just comforting.    He thinks that the heart and lung things are gonna end up being two DIFFERENT problems, and it will not clear up the lungs.   He gave the reasons for this, and I have to say it made sense.  But time will tell.  


    He said,  it looks like she just has two seperate Chronic conditions, and its just WRONG.  (his words)  I had to agree.    she has NOT gained any weight since my visit in childrens, actually lost a couple ounces.     So, I've added another thing to worry about Rainee to my list   


    Gonna start doing the watch tv thing when its time for Rainee to nurse, to see if she'll nurse a bit longer, and offering MUCH more.  Plus we're desperately trying to get her to eat solid food.  She hasn't  btw had a healthy check-up since she was 4 months old.    Dr. Weller was kinda snickering about this, but he did say that she needs one 'cause there are things that don't get covered.  Sooooo  I guess I'll call and schedule one tomorrow.  UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH!!!!


    DH finally balanced the check book.  (Long story)  And we're a LOT low on money at the moment, but we will survive, at least we didn't bounce anything.  And we have our tax return coming hopefully by the end of the week, so all we'll be fine.  If I can just convince DH to forgive himself, for letting us dip too much into the reserves. 


    Panic set in this afternoon when I realized Rainee wasn't gaining weight, and actually loosing.  I went back into my panic routine, anxiety, etc.    But, I'm slowly getting things back under control.    Anxiety is a frustrating thing.  


    One of the things that helps keep things under control is blogging, and I've been avoiding blogging, for some weird reason.  So gonna try hard to get back in the habit.  I have pictures of mari's party, but need to upload etc, not sure when I will get it done.....


    Thought for the day;  God KNIT Rainee together in my womb.  He KNEW what he was doing, he has a plan.  I just have NO idea what that plan is.  

Comments (5)

  • Hang on to that last paragraph!!!  It is the truth well spoken    Praying for you

  • Yep, I agree with ladybag--hold on to God's promises.

    Have a great week, Tonia.

  • (((((((((((())))))))))))) <---really big hug there!  You're so right Tonia.. God DID knit Rainee together. It's so hard to see past the chronic illness, but God is gracious, He will carry you.

    Sorry to hear you hit a financial bump.  Thankful your tax return is going to be in! 

    God's peace, grace and healing on your family!  You're definitely in my prayers.

  • God is in control! and praise God he is.

  • *hugs* I thank God for the faith that you and your husband have, because no matter what you can or can't afford in the material world, your children will always have everything they will ever need.

    You are such an inspiration, Tonia!

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