Its James's got ya day.    I like that phrase stole it from weadopt.    Its been one year since we got him.  And what a year.  bwahahahaha.

Its been a year of adjustments.  Learning to deal with James's screaming.  And he has done a lot of it.  And I'm sad to say when I think of  him thats the first thing that comes to mind.  Is the hours we listened to him scream unable to comfort him.

BUT now he's a well adjusted little boy.  A snuggle and a tease.  Learning to talk, and exploring the world around him.  He loves his big sister Tina especially, and would live in her arms if he could. 

His all time favorite person is his daddy.  He loves daddy, and spends hours talking, and snuggling and being carried by daddy.   He has a beautiful smile, and keeps many people entertained.  He has a special ability to fall asleep whenever he's tired.  He's fallen asleep on stairs, high chairs, the nursery floor in the toy box.  And other similar spots.   This is a good ability when your number 4 in the family of 5.  Makes for a easy keeper  

James adoption is not final yet.  His birth mommy appealed the decision that the judge made to terminate her parental rights.  We're waiting for that appeal to come up.  AFter the birth mom appealed she did something stupid and is back in jail.  So she can't win, but we still have to go through the appeal process, so we continue to wait.  Knowing that we will win...just have to wade through due process.

When I started the process of adoption.  It was just to adopt Princess.  But while I was wading through paperwork her brother HD was born.  I thought that this would make my family complete.  So agreed to take him.  Little did I know that this would set a precident.  Babies come in twos around here.  BWAHAHA   

Midge has been my only singlet.  James was only allowed to be the baby for about 4 months.  And I feel bad for him in that regard, but he doesn't seem to notice that he missed out on something, and gets lot of snuggles regardless. 

Anyhow...that James.  And regardless of the struggles we've gone through in regards to him.  I KNOW that he is a gift from God, and it is my job to train him in the way he should go.  May God work mightily in his life. 

Yeah, Xanga let me put the picture up.     So here's my Awana tree.  And my girls will be devastated if I don't manage to bring it back home.  They fell in love with it.  Especially the dolly on the top.  

Kaylin has two black eyes today.    compliments of the concussion.    But other then that is fine. 

Zeria and Rainee both had checkups yesterday.  Gonna try Singulair for Zeria and her asthma.  And the diaper rash from h*** on Rainee is actually yeast (again)  Sooo we're trying something new on it its Nystatin powder instead of cream.  The rash is so bad that every diaper has pink on it from oozing blood.   

She also go figure has a yeast infection in the crack of her knee.     Plus exzema behind her ear.  She's just one big skin infection.  Do you think we could get Rainee completely healthy all at once? 

The only time she was rash free was when she was off the flovent.   But when she was off the flo-vent she had asthma.  (which is definitely the worse of the two)  I suggested to the doctor that the flo-vent could be causing the rash and got poo-pooed.  I mean why would I the mother know something different or unusual????

Today is our Awana tree festival, and it should be fun.  Will just hang out and make bids on our favorite tree.  And enjoy the entertainment provided and visit.  Poor dh of course is working.  But you can't have everything.

I'm still coughing up a lung.  Though feel a *bit* better today.  Will see if that lasts.  I've also been dealing with nausea and slightly achey stomache.  Enough that dh went and bought me a pregnancy test at his insistence.  I'm not.  Which is a relief for both of us at this point.   I guess it must just be from the stupid never-ending cold.

Tired of listening to health stuff?  ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow we will be celebrating one year of having James.  So that will be my tomorrows blog.    Oy its been one long year. 

Father God, may today be a day that honors you, and one in which the kids enjoy themselves and learn more about you, in your sons name, Amen

update~~Kaylin's goose egg is NOT one.  She has a concussion.  But is ok.  Just have to observe her for nausea, balance etc for the next while.    

Good morning

And the cold goes on.  It seems to be getting worse not better.  I considered the ER for a few minutes last night I felt so miserable.  But decongestant and albuterol fixed me enough to function.  I'm getting very very very very tired of this bug!

Kaylin fell down the stairs this morning and has a big goose-egg on her head.    She also has the cold.  Poor kiddo.  So she's laying a bit low this morning.  Reading books, and snuggling on the couch

Princess got her feelings hurt cause she the little mother in the house, and daddy told her to go upstairs while he was asessing how badly Kaylin was hurt.  That hurt her feelings because that was "her" job...(in her eyes)  Oh well

The funny of yesterday?  Kaylin kept saying a sentence over and over and over and over.  For over 10 miles of driving she said this sentence.  It sounded like Fuk & Brown a ou hou.    We knew the last part was at our house.  But the first part.  Oh my goodness.  Its so fun listening to your 2 year old say what sounds like a swear word over and over and over.  And I kept trying to convince her that maybe she should say something else seeings we couldn't understand her.  But oh no she just kept saying it and saying it.  And finally thanks to Zeria's persistence, and mommy's a ha.  It was Fox and Hound at our house.  Bwahahahahahaha  Gotta love communicating with a 2 year old.

Oh and one other Kaylin story.  When we were driving to the bank and Cosctco stuff etc.  The big kids were being very noisy, and silly.  So finally I said..."Could you guys please be quiet for a bit."  Well Kaylin pipes up...."mom I be quiet."   I didn't acknowledge her...and if you do NOT acknowledge her she will say the same thing over and over until you do.  So she says again.  "mom I be quiet".   again I spaced it.  "mom I be quiet."   Finally Rob says...yes you were.  hehehe.  If he hadn't she would have said it all day long bwahahaha    being noisy telling me how quiet you are. 

Sister is coming for a bit today to work.  So hopefully I can do some extra sleepin'    I need to if I'm ever gonna fight this stupid cold bug off.

Have a great day all.

Good morning

Well the date night was WONDERFUL  

It was definitely time for us to have a break.  We didn't do anything spectacular, just dinner and Christmas shopping at Walmart.   But it felt good to stare, and not worry about little fingers touching anything LOL

Rob and I did a semi-impulse Christmas buy yesterday.  We took the kids to Costco while depositing checks.  And I showed him the thing I'd been looking at for awhile, but couldn't quite decide about.  He really liked it too.  So we decided to splurge and bought a train table for my kids wooden train set.  It has 2 drawers for storing train stuff, and maybe it will mean that we're done tripping over the train-tracks that go all over my house.  bwahahaha

Bought two more pieces for our outdoor nativity scene.  A donkey, and a angel.  Hopefully next year we can pick up some shepherds.

I have 2 black (indoor) nativity scenes.  So that the kids see things that look like them.  Forgot to take something into account....Kaylin is very sad that there's none that look like her.  Where's me? mom, where's me?  Soooo last night I found a little kids one that is white.  Didn't buy it...but think I'll go back tomorrow and get it, to satisfy the "white" kids in the house.  LOL

though personally I think their pink, and the "black" kids in my house are brown.  But then maybe I'm color blind huh?

The script was waiting at the pharmacy when dh called them yesterday morning.  That made both of us very happy! 

My cold still lingers on.  *sigh*  Someday I will be healthy again.

Father God, thank you for today.  Let me teach my kids to honor you, and let me be a calm mommy today.  In your sons name, Amen

Psalms 139:¹¹ If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
             and the light become night around me,"
¹² even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

Good morning.  Remember what I said last blog about God being distant.  Well this is the scripture he gave me this morning.  How cool is that?????

Gonna play telephone tag with the doctor this morning (if) when we call the pharmacy the script isn't in yet.  Hopefully this game is oh so NOT necessary. 

Our Awana Christmas tree festival is this weekend.  And I *think* I have everything ready for my  tree.  Except ONE thing.  I really wanted the e-picture of the bw baby with the saying on it that said something to the effect of theirs nothing so precious as a baby sleeping in your arms.  Its done its rounds a couple times in e-mail.  And I found it on the net once when surfing.  I've spent literally hours looking for it and can't find it.

One last desperate appeal~~can you help me find it PLEASE!

I'm doing a tree with the theme sleep in heavenly peace.  And have tons of pictures of babies sleeping which I mounted to Christmas balls.  Plus some baby dolls etc, that I'm putting on the tree.   It should be quite cute.  I did it with kids in mind.  I want them to enjoy it. 

Headed to town today at some point.  Need to deposit checks.  Not sure what else is happening.  Guess we'll go with the flow.

Good evening,

Its been a very crappy day.  

And I don't mean just a little bit.   My rat-finky doctor did not fax my prescription in for my paxil.  I stayed off-line basically all day trying to get ahold of them to find out why.  She said she was gonna do it late September...when I went in for my check-up.   My old script was still good...so I just assumed she had.  Well she hadn't.  And so I've been without it since Friday.  

So we called the doctors office twice.  Finally DEMANDING to talk to a nurse to find out why they were being so orney.  The call was placed at 2 pm.   The nurse finally returned the call at 7 o'clock tonight.  Of course the pharmacy's already closed.  And she said well...we sent the information to the front desk...and they probably sent it, but it might still be in their in-box.   #$@*#$&@#(*&*@#(

Sooooooooo I may still not have it.  And this is a medication you are NOT supposed to go off cold-turkey.  And well I have.  And its not purdy. 

My kids have enjoyed today anyhow.  They "helped" me put up Christmas decorations.  And thought that was wonderful.  I put up decorations that I don't care about tons and tons.  So if one gets broken, I won't get ticked.   I should probably say when, not if. 

Daddy and the kids went for a hike in the fog/rain this afternoon.  Mommy refused to go that just sounded icky.   

Mommy has hid in her room quite a bit today in an attempt to keep her bad attitude away from her kids.  I don't think they know that mommy was having a bad day.  I hid it well from them for the most part.

Daddy however...well he got the brunt of my bad mood.  Poor guy.  He is unfailingly patient.  Except for today  

We NEED a date night badly.  Tomorrow (phew)  my sister will baby sit.  We just need some down time something fierce.

Do you ever get tired of repeating yourself?  I do.  Absolutely everything I said to dh today..I had to say at least twice before he heard me, understood me.  UGH!   Its bad enough when I always repeat myself with the kiddos...couldn't the dh get the wax out of his ears??????

Rainee Grace was up all night last night.  I nursed and nursed and nursed and nursed her.  And then Kaylin Joy woke up at 5:45 and got the other side of me.   I'm so ready for that child to wean!

Okay, so maybe it wasn't the lack of paxil that was causing me to be grumpy...maybe it was my oh-so-hectic life.  bwahahahaha

I love my husband.  He is a true gift from God.  And a wonderful friend.  Why do I find it necessary to lash out at him sometimes?  Meany me.     I gotta find some self-control.

So Hope....any recommendations for a new doctor for me?  I am so NOT happy with mine.   This is NOT the first time they've refused/failed to return my calls on a fairly urgent thing like this.  I love the doctor...I HATE her receptionist/nurses.    *sigh*

This blog is kinda wandering everywhere huh?  I guess I'm exhausted, and frustrated, and trying to find God in all of this.  Cause I know he's here...he just seems a bit distant today.  Or is it me thats a bit distant? 

Father God, enable me to forgive the person in my life that has hurt me so much.  And to establish an adult relationship with them.  Give me the strength to function tomorrow.  And JOY in my family even with little bits of sleep.  I'm needing you bad.  In your sons name,  Amen

Good morning

Rainee has been awake since 4 am.  UGH UGH and UGH

And now she's asleep...just in time for all the other kids to wake up.   I kept dreaming that I was tired and then she'd kick me while playing in bed...and I'd wake up just enough to remember that she was STILL not asleep.  Silly gurl

I had fun at the craft show.  Didn't buy much.  But it was fun looking.  I did buy a silly camo hat Christmas ornament for bil to put on the top of his present.   And then I went to Big Lots...and scored BIG time.  I ended up getting all my sisters presents in one fell swoop.  As they had some very beautiful porcelain dolls on sale for under $10.  Saving myself over $40.    Also got some stocking stuffers for my kids.  Play microphones, and binoculars that are 4x strength and my kids will think very cool  (1.49 ) 

Came home and ordered my brothers Christmas present...so now I have two presents left and I'll be done Christmas shopping.   And I know what one of them is just waiting 'til the check comes tomorrow to get it.

BUT the big one is my dh's...and I'm still struggling with what its gonna be.  I have several ideas just trying to figure out which route to go.

He wants one of those big manly gas weed-eaters.  And has no music in his commute car as it was stolen and never fixed a couple years back.  Both of those are good options.  So I'll be thinkin' on it. 

HMMMM Dh's wallet is sitting on the computer.  OOPS...he's gonna be needing that today, as he's already at work. 

Do I HAVE to bathe the babies before church?  I'm so tired this morning

Father God, give me the joy of the Lord as my strength today.  In your sons name, amen