I love my children very much, and I want to enjoy them. But I get tired. I'm working on improving the tired in that I KNOW my thyroid is not where it should be. And am upping the med again. But all I did today was take too ten minute breaks from being a mommy. The first one I sent them upstairs to play in their room.
The result? Samuel snuck a bottle of ketchup upstairs and the 4 of them had a ketchup party. Their are still handprints on the walls that need to be removed.
Soooooo I decided to load them up and go to town to get my thyroid med as I forgot to pick it up earlier. And that way I would be doing something fun, as we would go to grandma's house as well. Not knowing about the ketchup. Found out about the ketchup as they came down the stairs. Decided we'd go anyhoo as I'd already called my mom and she was expecting us.
Soooooooo we'll clean up the ketchup when we go home.
So we go to moms it was fun, stay for only 45 minutes. Go to town get the meds. Get dinner at McD's just for fun.
Come home. Tell the kids to go clean up the ketchup. Sit on the couch to nurse Rainee. Change her diaper and clean her up. It sounds like the kids are cleaning quite nicely. We're almost done mommy. They say. Phew things are in order
Lather Rainee in oil she starts giggling we have a little impromptu dance. Things are going well, and its almost bed time. (moms favorite party of the day
)
And then the fire alarm goes off.
HMM what's that all about. Pick up Rainee and head over to the wood stove. Nope its not smoking. What's going on up there? I yell. Princess comes down the stairs. "I don't know whats wrong mommy." (yeah right) Decide to head upstairs to investigate the ketchup and see if somebody's been messing with the smoke detector. (VERY VERY GOOD CALL)
Head upstairs. Princess starts to say..."Its HD's fault he was playin" I come around the corner and see HD"s mattress on fire. I scream GET OUT! GET OUTSIDE NOW!
They behave immediately. Except for James (he's only 23 months after all) But I can haul him out in a minute if I need to.
I run over to the mattress. Its about a 8 inch fire. Pick it up by a corner and throw it out the window. Underneath the mattress is a teddy bear its smoldering. Throw it out. And a toy airplane Throw it out.
Smoke's filling the room. Start coughing. Very grieved I still have Rainee in my arms and I'm filling her lungs with it.
Tell James GO DOWNSTAIRS NOW! This time he does. I open the windows in both bedrooms. And check to see if there's any other fire. There's not. But there's matches spread everywhere. AS I investigate more I find burnt out ones all over the place.
God's angels were working overtime.
Go downstairs and stand outside breathing fresh air. Tell the kids to go inside and sit on the couch and do NOT move. They KNOW they are in the biggest trouble they've ever been in their teeny tiny little lives.
Call Rob. Want his opinion on how to handle this from here on out. I'm too insane to make a wise decision at this point.
We agree to remove all the kids toys (for now) And show them if their not gonna be respectful of things their not gonna have any. This makes me very sad.
The kids and I head upstairs to start picking up the toys and matches. I'm frustrated but staying calm. Except for the fact that Princess absolutely will NOT admit to being involved though both HD and Kaylin say she was.
Head to the girls bedroom to make sure theirs no matches in their. Their bedroom door is off the hinges. UGH! Apparently HD was hanging on it and it fell off. This is a rinkydink door that has had a LOT of problems. So this doesn't suprise me too much. Go and pick up the door and gonna put it in the corner of the bedroom. Put it up against the wall and some how manage to drop it on my big toe.
Start screaming and crying. Look at it. Well I'm loosing my whole toe nail. And it looked so pretty all painted pink. Hard to distinguish blood/fingernail polish. It hurts a LOT. The cleaning is no longer an option as I can't hop on one foot to clean.
So my kids are sleeping on the floor downstairs tonight. And Rob and I will clean in the morning. And pray hard that we will survive raising this family of 5.
And thank God for smoke detectors. And replace the batterys just for good measure!
"If any of you lacks wisdom let him ask of God who gives generously to all without finding fault." James 1:4
I'm finding fault with myself right now. You can imagine the things I'm feeling. pray please that we will convince the kids to NEVER NEVER NEVER do this again. And that we will teach the Princess how to tell the truth, and HD to respect other peoples belongings.
TIA