Good morning,

HMMM I didn’t know their was a buton that did this…..I guess you learn new things every day.  hehehehe

Well, Thanksgiving went ok.  I came very very close to having a blow-out with a family member, but went for a walk in the orchard instead, and did some DEEEEEEEEEEEP breathing.  ROFL  Then came back and had a fun day. 

Okay, done with that button, its kinda annoying.

My dad has bought some gorgeous property which he’s logging and developing.  He offered 5 acres to us for a VERy good price.  It was sorely tempting.

See we love the house we own.  But its not gonna survive our kids in their teenage years.   It has exactly 3 bedrooms in it.  And we are a family of 7.  hehehehe

If we could add on, that would be a good option, but I’m just not sure how to do that, because of the age and workmanship of the house.  It is 100 years old after all.  And was built as a community get together.  (Its a schoolhouse for those who are new)

But I guess will stay content here, and keep another option open as time goes on.  

We really, really like living here with the exception of how close the road is….but oy do you think we can raise 5 teenagers with exactly 1 bathroom????  bwahaha

HMMM my sis is late to work today.  gonna have to get off and call her soon.

Hoping to wonder around a couple of craft shows today with Rainee.  Sounded like some low key entertainment and a nice break from kiddos. 

Have a great weekend all!

Good morning

Happy Thanksgiving !!!!

Oh that was yesterday for most of you…for us it is today.

I have a pecan pie, a peach pie, lots of olives, and such like and a 7 layer salad.  All waiting to go to grandma’s house.

Over the river and through the woods to grandmothers house we go….Hmmm does anybody know the words to the rest of that song???? 

I baked last night when kiddos were sleepin’ so they didn’t make mommy grumpy by “helpin’”

We had a delicious day yesterday.  Just low-key and fun.  We ended up having a lot of learning moments.  I put up my world map and US map.  I had finally found a place for it.  And it stirred up 30 minutes of conversation or more and learning.  geography, counting, phonics, you name it we did it.    And the kids were inspiring it…I was just along for the ride.  It was very fun. 

I let my two big kids play computer one of their very first times.  And they thoroughly enjoyed that.  And are bugging to be on again this morning…I may have to learn to share.  OH NO do you think I can handle it????

Have a great day all

Here’s lookin’ at u kid 

have a happy thanksgiving all!

Good morning

I supposed we could entitle this blog confessions. 

First of all I have struggled a lot with emotions while being sick with this bug.  I have not been accepting of what God put on my plate.  Okay I’ve been down right angry about it. 

Something along the lines of….if God felt fit to give me a plate full with my kids being the ages they are, and their health conditions, don’t ya think he could have kept me healthy?  whine, whine, whine.

I KNEW it was a wrong attitude, but couldn’t get past it. 

I’m almost past the tude.  And continuing to pray with it.

Second confession…I keep going off my paxil.  And it hasn’t been pretty.  Yesterday I went into hysterics over the fact that I couldn’t get something to work on the computer.  and yes I mean hysterics.  Fortunately my kids were sent upstairs at the beginning of the hysterics, and fortunately my dh didn’t say a word just let me be hysterical and waited me out.  (VERY VERY VERY WISE MAN) 

When I came down off the ceiling…….I did some heavy thinking.  And it wasn’t fun.  I also had a nice long chat with a net friend who also deals with depression, and was raised in a house with depression.  And she helped me think too.  Thanks friend!!!!

Anyhoo so last night when the house was quiet, I talked with Rob and confessed that I had AGAIN gone of the #$@*&( paxil.  And he just took it quietly.  And I told him I was contracting with him to go on and stay on it for 6 months.  Until Rainee was a year old.   At that time with the doctors advice and blessing I’d go off it gradually if we felt (together) that that was the right thing to do.

See I originally went on it for 3 months, and that 3 months was up 3 months ago…and I resent very much the fact that I still NEED it.

But I do…and it is much wiser to admit I need it, then to become a crazy, nasty, abominable witch.

My grandmothers (plural)  both dealth with depression.  And neither of them sought help until it was too late, and neither admitted to a problem.   And both of them ended up being very miserable as they got old.

I keep seeing myself in those roles.  But the difference here is…I have got to admit NOW that I need the med…and convince myself to take it.  Or enlist help to take it.

I have 5 very precious children and a God-gift husband who need a whole me….not the hysterical me.  So if medicine is needed to get me over whatever I’m feeling…then so be it.

On the healthy note.  I’m NOT.    And I’ve decided to except the status-quo.  And work on the fact that I’m not healthy.  And when I have a good day enjoy it, when I don’t focus on my kids, and let absolutely everything else go.   and I do mean everything.  

I did have a friend with anemia tell me yesterday that your health is very poor when your anemic.  Well the last blood work I did ago said I had my iron level *normal*.  So I stopped taking the iron.  BUT I did some reading last night, and came to find out…that the first month you get your blood work normal, you should continue to take the iron for 6 months in order to get your blood supplies stored extra.      Why do doctors not tell you these kinda things???

Soooo  being a good girl and going back on the iron too.

Okay I know way too many medical details.  And your probably bored spitless, but I needed to work my way through things, so that I can get a grip on them.  I am a very NEEDED individual.  And lately I’ve been going around saying that I’m not.  And its wrong, and I need to “cure” that mind-set. 

And its a many-faceted approach in order to do that.  Meds, accepting lack of health, and so on.

So my goal for today?  To enjoy my children!  Thats it nothing else.

Thanksgiving isn’t being celebrated until Friday, cause DH has to work.  And I don’t have Bible study today, because it was cancelled.  The house is reasonably clean, thanks to DH.   And so today I focus on giving my kids some extra attention, and curing this #$@*#&$@#(*&@#(* sore throat I have.

May you have a great time getting ready for Thanksgiving!

HMMMMM try two.  Had a whole blog ready hit submit and it went into the ghost of xanga’s past I guess.  Anyhoo…I have Rainee’s 6 month pictures.  Wanta see???? They turned out VERY nicely in my not so humble opinion. 

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Okay did you survive that.    She was such a happy baby in regards to getting her picture taken   She thought it was all a grand adventure!

My favorites?  Well the first shot, the one where she’s eating the rose~~~just too typical of her   And view 6.  I think 6 *might* be my favorite, but its hard to say….    She just a camera clown. 

Up from the grave she arose…..

That is how my dh greeted me this morning when I drug myself out of bed.    How sweet can you get????

Well I’m still sick.  Sore throat, mild fever, achey all over.  Saturday afternoon was the worst~~was running to the bathroom, and felt like i was dying. 

Yesterday, I spent most of the day in bed.  My sis got the kiddos up for me, and then my parents came and took them all to church (‘cept Rainee of course)

I desperately need to go grocery shopping….but am thinking its not gonna happen today.  Unless I have this amazing burst of enurrrrgy.    (would be nice)

Couple of the kids are coughing (again)  But the bug doesn’t seem to be knocking them flat.   Just keep praying it stays out of Rainee’s lungs.

I’ll be back playing and visiting SIRS, when I feel human….if that ever happens

Good morning

Kiddos are eating breakfast, and watching George Shrinks. 

Rainee is *gasp* shock of all shocks sleeping in.  I’m not sure how to function without her bla-bla-bla-blas. 

We were just totally and completely lazy yesterday.  And I don’t mean a little.  I napped a lot, and read a book, and snuggled with varying kids.  It was quite nice.

I started making myself nervous (and dh)  because every time i sat down I fell asleep.  And I’ve also had a achey tummy and nausea.  So you can all guess what I was afraid of.      But this morning I woke up with a sore throat, and kinda achey all over.  So I guess I was just getting sick.    First time I’ve ever been excited I’m getting the flu.    But I’m sorry, I’m just not ready to be prego quite yet!

So do you think we’ll ever have all of us healthy in this house ever again?????????????????

I’m thinking the mommy is gonna lay on the couch and stare, and the kiddos can function around her.  Sure wish dh was home, but he’s gotta work some times.     Especially if I want a Christmas present from him

Oh its clear and gorgeous this morning.  We got to see the morning star when we got up.  Maybe I’ll bundle the kids up and we’ll go outside at some point.  i know they would sure like that!  We actually got to play outside a bit yesterday, which was very nice.

Kaylin has finally figured out she can sit on mommy’s lap and snuggle without nursing.  Its a lovely discovery.  I’ve never actually cuddled with her go figure.  Its always been moilkie’s.   I’m enjoying this new phase. 

Father God, I ask that you would give me strength to deal with everything that goes on today.  And that you would keep us honoring you.  I also ask that you would keep me calm and not allow me to snap at my kids.  In your sons name, Amen

Good morning

Kiddos are eating breaky (dad made it)  And mommys desperately trying to wake up.

Its Friday, and daddys day off~~have no idea what we’re gonna do.  We’ve worked so hard on our last few days off, I’m inclined towards playing.  But not sure at what.  So we shall see.

What I’d really like to do is go to bed.  I’ve been going to bed early, and getting up late.  DH is starting to worry…..I’m usually awake when he gets home, and I haven’t been.  He woke me up to see if I was ok.      Just kinda draggy….

Yesterday ended up being a nice kinda day.   I got to spend some quality time cuddling with the kids.  Rainee actually let me put her down long enough to do so! :-p   Every time my lap was free Kaylin was standing beside me saying in her garbled way wanta sit mommy lap.  So she did    

Kaylin is my best behaved daughter.  She’s shockingly well behaved, and lately has been neglected as a result of her other siblings lack of behavior.  So it was fun to enjoy her. 

 Just been informed that the kids emptied a bottle of lotion.  go figure.   They sure do like emptying things.  *sigh*  Making me broke replacing things.   Just for the record these are not 2 & 3 year olds they are 4 & 5 year olds.  Aren’t they gonna grow up???????????

I dreamed last night that a house I grew up in was available for sale, and it was bigger then ours, and cheaper and we were gonna buy it.  It was a lovely dream.    I loved that house, a huge pond to swim in.  Way way way away from any major road.   BUT  it is smaller then ours, gotta love the way dreams work    I’d still move into it in a heart beat to get away from the county road.

My kids LOVE to play outside, and thats part of the reason their getting so destructive inside.  Theirs nothing to do…except play with their 1,000′s of toys.    Anyhoo their too little to send outside on their own, and I don’t feel right carrying baby Rainee out their, besides who wants to sit in the rain and watch kids play  

I grew up in a neighborhood that was long ways away from the road, and we were always allowed outside…some days I just wish we could move this house up the hill on our property. 

Soooo blessedmom  no more complaining about your 68 degree Florida weather!!!!!!

Have a great day all

Its beginning to look a lot like Christmas.  Come see and tell me what you think. 

Good morning

I a tiey (tired) baby today.  Thats what Kaylin always says.  And it fits me today!

Baby Rae decided that sleep was highly overrated.  And so both Rob and I look like something the cat dragged in and rejected. 

Samuel ate all of daddys biking energy bars sometime yesterday.  I caught him with one.  And thought I had convinced him it wasn’t acceptable.  But apparently I didn’t do a good enough job.  I’m so tired of him being sneaky.    I do NOT know how to curb this.   They are allowed to eat whenever they want.  They just have to ask.  If I give them free reign they get very destructive and wasteful.     What the heck is wrong with asking??????

Rob just headed back to bed to try catch up on some sleep.  When my sis gets here, I’m gonna do the same.  He unfortunately will have to get up and go to work.  

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWNN

Ok.  ummm something intelligent to say.  Christmas is rapidly approaching.  Are you ready???? BWAHAHAHAHAHA

We have our kids presents bought.  My mil/fil’s present.  My dad’s present.  So all we have left are about 7 more, plus stocking stuffers for the kids.  And whatever I’m buying for dh. 

I really DO want to send people on my xanga list a Christmas card.  If you’d like to receive one e-mail me your addy.  Signor@tenforward.com

Have a great day.