June 22, 2002

• Good morning

  
  

  Its 7:45 at approximately 8:10 10 minutes AFTER my sister gets here.  I am bundling up Rainee and getting OUT of here.

  
  

  I have been a GOOD mom this week.   I have loved, spent extra time with etc etc my kids.  I even chose to play with them yesterday on "my" day.  And now

  
  

  I NEED a BREAK!!!!!!

  
  

  Okay got that out of my system.

  
  

  Every minute I wasn't entertaining my kids I was on the telephone with caseworkers, lawyers, etc.  (BLUCH)  I hate hate hate using the telephone.  And am getting ever so good at it

  
  

  But the negotiations went well and we managed to let the lawyer only make me testify.  Which means Rob can watch the kids.  I think we'll all go down, and then just me go in.  I really, really, wish I had somebody to go into the court with me. 

  
  

  This will be the first time I meet the birth mom.  And it will be very uncomfortable.  I'm oh so NOT looking forward to it.      Especially cause every foster mom we've ever talked to says she hates foster parents and is very angry against them.    Rob is worried for me as he's dealt with a few too many of this type of person at his job    

  
  

  Breathing, praying, and desperately hoping she doesn't show up    Which would mean that they would just say she's done. 

  
  

  Father God, give me refreshment today and the ability to come back ready to serve my family again.  I thank you for my children and the ways they are growing.  In your sons name, Amen

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