June 5, 2002

• Good morning   well for another half hour or so.

  
  

  I'm struggling a bit today.  Yesterday was a good day.  We had a bunch of errands to do the first being heading to the bank an hour away.  On our way Rob started talking wistfully of getting off the Peninsula.  etc, etc.  I understood his desire.  He's always accusing me of not going with his spur of the moment suggestions...so ummm we went to the Point Defiance Zoo. 

  
  

  We had a lot of fun.  And all the kids except Rainee LOVED it.  They were also extremely good during the very long long drive.  I got TIRED.  And probably should NOT have done it....but screw it I'm tired of being responsible.  So for one day I had fun.

  
  

  And now I'm paying the piper.  I bled a LOT yesterday and it got worse as the day got longer, and it was my own fault.  *sigh*

  
  

  So when the midwife called to ask whether the bleeding stopped I had to say no.  Sooooooooooooooooo   I'm expecting her to say she'll call the meds in.  No *sigh*  She says she's been talking to the Dr and he says he feels it would be better to check things out and consider a D & C.  I'm not excited about this.  Okay I'm worried, mad at myself for overdoing it (even if it was fun)  And sick that once again my dh will have to pick up the pieces. 

  
  

  So this afternoon my sister comes over to watch 4 of my kids, and I will take myself into the clinic to be examined and we will decide what to do from there. 

  
  

  I know a d&c is not super major...but it IS to me.  And I'm not very happy about it.    continuing to pray, and try not to think about it too much.

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