May 6, 2002


  • Thanks Kayte  I appreciated this cartoon ALL too well!!!!!!


    Update from the midwifes.  Well my humatacrant hasn't moved up one teensy tiny little bit.  It hasn't gone down so this is a little bit of good.  I DID get to see my midwife.  And didn't need to whine, just needed to look, and she felt sorry for me   She decided that Rob should NOT be going back to work this week.  And I'm am sooooo grateful.  Rob offered on Friday to ask for another week off, but I felt guilty or something.    We HAVE the time accumulated, and by law their required to let him use it.  He called his boss, and he didn't even bat an eye, just said, well I'll see you next Wednesday instead.  Rob was in awe.  I'm able to slow down and not push myself.


    I also made a very hard decision all on my own.  And decided that for awhile I will be taking Paxil.  My midwife did NOT force it, but she made it an option, and I decided that it was a wise choice.  


    I told my mom about it using the words...."Well, I swallowed my pride and am taking depression medication."  She said what does pride have to do with it?  If you have a headache you take painkiller.   (That was the exact words my midwife used HMMMM)  So Rob heard me say that, and escorted me into the bedroom to ask what pride had to do with it.     I guess I got lectured on all fronts. 


    I will blog on another day why I gave into Paxil.  It has something to do with crying everytime I see a newborn on a commercial.  Flashbacks to the night Rainee was born.  Crying at a Crosby rerun when his daughter has a normal delivery.  And well lots of other things.   I believe God is in control.  But I also believe I need a little extra help to stablize myself right now.


    NAK (nurse at keyboard) so I'll type more later. 


    All in all I felt like the midwife visit was extremely good.  I have some more time....and know their still rooting for me. 

Comments (7)

  • excellent.  you are doing as the wise woman would.  ten points.

  • I'm glad you liked the comic! I'm glad that Rob is going to be home for you a little longer. As you know, you are in my prayers.

  • (((hugs)))

  • Glad things are steadily going forward for you, and that the children are all OK.  I remember feeling like you describe for a long time after giving birth.  It took a while for me to accept then that my experience of childbirth wasn't picture perfect, and a long while to get over the fear and upset I felt.  But eventually I felt OK about what happened, and you will too.  I think you've coped admirably with everything!

  • From a girl who has been there, it takes a good long time to recover from a hemmorage after birth. I took liquid iron 2X a day, lots of red meat, and other food rich in iron. As I laid there resting, I was constantly praying. And it's okay to pray for yourself! Maybe you are already doing these things? I hope start to feel stronger soon

  • hi girl, just dropped by to give you some hugs...kiss Rainee for me...

    (((hugs))

    rubymoon

  • Take care of yourself Tonia! 

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