April 24, 2002

• I'm typing with a baby in my arms.  And man is it precious.  She actually has her eyes open this morning   We were beginning to suspect she didn't have any.  LOL  The nursing had a set-back yesterday as we could NOT get her to wake up.  But we survived, and I think things are going much better now.   A lactation consultant came out yesterday and we worked on a couple things.   And when I heard her weight decided I'd get more religious about waking her every two hours.  She's still going down in weight.  Not a MAJOR concern yet, just need to be more concientious about waking her. 

  
  

  We are adjusting as a family, and extremely greatful that Rob has a good job with benefits.  He will be off work until May 8th.  I'm soooooooooo glad.   Originally he was gonna take off until May 1st, but when everything went south I asked him to take another week off.  He has the vacation time acculumlated just means we probably won't be taking a vacation this summer.  But hey thats ok. 

  
  

  Where he works is a vacation spot.  Right beside a lovely beach.  Probably we will just borrow my parents motor home and park it at a RV park.  The kids and I can play at the beach during the day, and then play with daddy when he's not working.    And it saves him 2 hours of driving each day. 

  
  

  Well, I'm feeling very good about what has happened over Rainee's birth.  The blogging has been therapeutic.  And Rob and I worked through all my griefs.   And prayed over each one of them and gave them to God.  And each time a negative comes up...I confess my anger, sadness etc and move on.  Its not a perfect moving on.  Two steps forward one step back.  But I am moving.

  
  

  I may have more blogs about the past.  But today I want to focus on today.  With one exception.  I need to write out the very specific miracles God worked in regards to the delivery experience.

  
  

  1st one.  My bedroom got finished BEFORE I went into labor.  I have a clean comfortable place to recover.

  
  

  2nd one.  Rob was home and not an hour away at work.

  
  

  3rd one.  We didn't have to wake anybody up in the middle of the night to come get the kids.

  
  

  4th one.  Midwife listened to me and induced right away rather then waiting hours for nothing to happen.

  
  

  5th one.  I go to a peds clinic.  There are 5 regular doctors, 1 NP, and several residents there.  You get what you get when an emergency happened.  I have one doctor who I choose to work with if it at all possible.  She's been with me through Zeria's hospitalization, asthma, and is a EN breastfeeding mom.  WE just "happened" to go into labor the day she was on call.  The second I heard them say page Dr. Harrington she's the ped on call.  I breathed much easier God was in control.

  
  

  6th one.  I have a friend and Zeria's SS teacher who works as a Respitory Therapist in the hospital.  We've been through Zeria's hospitalizations together twice.  There are several Respitory Therapists at the hospital.  She just "happened" to be the one on call that night.  I cried when I saw she was the one working on RAinee.  And was extremely grateful to God to see her. 

  
  

  7th one.  My mom.  She does NOT like being in the delivery room.  But she came and did a excellent job.  She kept quiet, and just let me do what needed to be done.   She has 6 kids at home still and much to do.  But she kept my kids, helped me through labor, and drove to Seattle to be with Rainee because neither of us were able to....

  
  

  8th one.  The peace I had through that neverending night.  Yes, I was crying/screaming when it was going on.  But I KNEW God was in control.  And afterwards when they told me how serious things were.  I was incredibly intensely calm.  God gave me the ability to SING.  sing????  I'm still trying to figure out how the heck that happened.  It was to ME the biggest miracle of all.  It was because of the Grace of God.

  
  

  9th one.  We picked the name Grace on a lark.  Not because it had great meaning, just "liked" it and it flowed with Rainee.  Now for the rest of her life it will remind me of the Undeserved favor I have of raising Rainee.  This is so incredible to me.    Because that IS the Biblical meaning of the word Grace.

  
  

  10th one.  Nothing else went wrong.  So much could have.  WE were in a peds room with parents who much more had gone wrong.  A 34 weeker in a isolation tank, a baby with a cleft palate, and a 3 month old who kept having seizures and nobody knew why.   I got to go home with a healthy baby.  And one whom the doctors weren't quite sure why she got the helicopter ride.   

  
  

  11th one;  The spots "disappeared"  God healed them.  How amazing can you get?

  
  

  12th one;  After all the attention to me.  And all the bleeding I did.  I was able to get up 24 hours later and take care of my baby.  I am NOT sore.  Just very weak/shakey.   I couldn't even get up to go to the bathroom for 8 hours after Rainee was born.  I used the lovely chamber pot.   

  
  

  13th one;  God gave me unbelievable energy while I needed it.  When I hit the ferry on the way home I was completely exhausted.  And in pain.  But it was ok then.  I had the baby.  We were headed home.  He held it off until all was safe.

  
  

  14th one;  ON the ferry I was in a panic.  i was in so much pain.  Rob offered to take a motel for the night.  We prayed.  And God literally knocked me out (I think)  I slept the whole 3 hour drive without ever waking.  So did RAinee.    Thank you God!

  
  

  MIRACLES!!!! 

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