April 3, 2002

• Good morning

  
  

  It still nice outside kinda scarey to have this many sunny days in a row.

  
  

  I'm praying very very hard about a GOOD attitude today.  Did I mention I'm very very ready to be done being pregnant?   I keep telling myself this is probably the last time you'll ever be pregnant you should cherish it.  HA!

  
  

  Cherish the aches and the pains,  the wanting to cry everytime I roll over in bed.  Cherish the fact that I look like a blimp.  HMMMMM Cherish all my never-ending-never-doing-anything contractions. HA!

  
  

  Having a hard time with that. 

  
  

  But I do love the little flutters in my stomache...and watching my whole stomache roll all over the place.  I love it when my kids come up and say good morning or I love you to the "brand-new-baby-in-my-tummy"     

  
  

  Sooooooooo I'll desperately hold onto the little joys and desperately try to ignore the aches and pains...Ha!

  
  

  My husband is a saint...have I said that lately?  He still is doing the dishes....and he plays with the kids so much.  His first priority is spending time with his family.  Over all the other things he would LOVE to do.  Yesterday he and Kaylin and Jamari were up on the trampoline running around and around and around it.   The babies were giggling and giggling...and then daddy would giggle like Kaylin (girlish)  and they'd fall on the trampoline and laugh and laugh.  It was so precious.  And a reminder that though some moments I may want to wring my husbands neck...he is an AWESOME man. 

  
  

  We moved out of our bedroom in preperation for bil to come do the sheetrock.  We have the money to get it all done.   We're doing things slightly backwards in that the wiring will not be done 'til July when fil comes up.  He loves to do wiring...and this way all we will have to do is pay for the wiring not the work to put it in.    It will mean a titch of patching the sheetrock.  But I'm so sick of living in a wall-less room.  And if we don't spend the money when we have it...welll ummm it will disappear of course

  
  

  So now we're living in our rec-room.  Sharing a bedroom with the washing machine and dryer.    Oh joy.  But hey if it means a "real" bedroom in the end I'm willing to live with it.  And it IS clean and warm etc.  So I'll camp out.  Besides its closer to the bathroom...and at this stage of my pregancy I LOVE that.  hehehehehehe

  
  

  I was doing one of my nightly roll overs last night rolling away from Rob to face the outside of my bed.  Which is a MAJOR ordeal at this point.  And moaning, and so on trying to get my body to work.....totally focused on trying to do it as painlessly as possible...when I opened my eyes to the "outside" of the bed to find a little brown face about 2 inches from mine.  Mommy I had a bad dream.  I screamed LOL.  Zeria has the gift of being quiet when she wants to.   When I was done going oh oh oh.....I said and you just gave me one    She snuggled with me for a few minutes went to the potty and back upstairs.   Apparently that was all she needed.  Wow  a kid who comes to me instead of making me come to her...I could like this

  
  

  Oh I forgot in all my moaning of the last days to tell you about my most recent foolishness.  Well, ummm Zeria was very very very upset when Targ had to go.  And very sad.  And well ummmm my parents had one more puppy.  And we didn't want Dragon with Fire to be lonesome.  And ummmm   well  Softly just kinda jumped into my van and came home with us.    Just what this house needed huh?  And yep she named him. 

  
  

      

  
  

  Well its sunny outside...and I've been invited to go on a walk with my family.  I actually made it 3 whole blocks yesterday (the equivalant of)  which is a major accomplishment for me as I've been on restricted movement so long my body's kinda forgotten how to move.   So see if I can add one more today    Gotta do it while the sun shines!

  
  

  Father God, I thank you for the improvements on my mood.  I ask that I would continue to focus on you, and your love.  And not on the things that go wrong.  I pray that you will help me to bite my tongue when something poisonous comes out...and to trust you for the right things to say when my feelings are hurt.  In  your sons name, Amen

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