February 1, 2002

• ' Afternoon.  Just got back from my sister's celebrating her sons bday.  She is now like 9 days overdue.  And getting VERY impatient about the birth of that there baby.  Party went quite well, especially considering how many people were inside her little tiny house.

  
  

  Zeria has been whiney ALL day.  She has also had asthma (which I realize is a lot of the why behind the whiney)  Its getting very old however.   Bedtime is in a half hour.  And I'm ECSTATIC about that.

  
  

  I spent this morning (4am-5am)  wide awake and praying for a solution to the next 7 weeks of low activity before the baby is born.  My kids are getting so restless, and I haven't got the ability to take them for our weekly McD run etc.    And there starting to resent it.  *sigh*

  
  

  So went to town this morning (my run-away morning)  and went to a Discount Store and bought a bunch of craft stuff that I can do with them while I'm sitting on the couch.  Hopefully this is a success   I'm hiding the craft stuff so it is a ONLY when mommy is helping.  Zeria got a bunch of stuff in her stocking and its already gone, as she was just so careless with it.   

  
  

  I btw HATE doing craft projects LOL, but my kids are getting so restless.    Sooooooooo here goes nothing   

  
  

  I also found a really cute magazine about paper dolls.  Gonna puruse that and see if I can't get inspired.  I used to love paper dolls when I was little.  These are more fancy ones and way cool. 

  
  

  Rob did me a big favor and moved the computer for me, so instead of hiding in a corner (which was more astetically pleasing)  moved it so its up against the back of the couch.  This way I can see 98% of our downstairs and the 2% I can't see is OFF-limits (bathroom & kitchen garbage LOL)  This will hopefully avoid some of my mess pictures.  Which though they are very entertaining for you are getting VERY VERY VERY old to me.

  
  

  I'm down today.  I flunked parenting big time yesterday.  So hoping my new measures will keep things flowing a little better.  I really really would like to hire somebody to come into play with the kids.  Have the money, but can't really find anybody.  *sigh*  I may talk to our Monday night baby sitter and see if she's willing to come one day a week, but not sure yet.  Part of me feels guilty in hiring somebody to "play" with them, but I'm so NOT able to play with them right now, so I don't know what to do.  *sigh*

  
  

  Jamari has been an angel this week for the most part.  And I would say this has been the least stress free week in regards to him.  He has gone from screaming every time I touch him, to loving to be cuddled.  Like he would cuddle all day if he could get away with it.   I introduced him to a binky this week and he LOVES it!  It has been so nice to have several ways to soothe him.      I realized in looking at his life story book that when Jamari lived with his birth mom he had one.  But he did NOT have one with his foster mom.  Some people really really hate them, so that may be why, not sure.  That foster mom was definitely not my favorite.  Anyhow I thought I'd see if he still wanted one and he DOES!  And as I can't nurse him to satisfy his sucking instinct the binky will have to do. 

  
  

  Father God, please do NOT let me cry on Rob tonight.  Its not fair for him to half to listen to my vents so often.  Let me find the joy of your salvation once again.  I ask that tomorrow would go much more smoothly then Thursday did, and that I would be able to maintain a sense of humor all day long.  I thank you for my big kids being SO helpful, and my babies being so cuddly.  I ask that there would be NO major disasters tomorrow, and that my contractions would stay away.  In your sons name Amen

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