Well, I'm tired today.  And kinda of mad at myself as I feel like I flunked parenting with Jamari yesterday.  I've talked with Rob about it, and talked....and no good solutions are coming.  I do know that yesterday every time I sat at the computer instead of it relaxing me it just made me grumpier.  So for today, when the kids are up and functioning I'm gonna be off the computer. 

I think part of the funk, is also after holiday blues.  But that will pass.

I haven't felt this low since before Christmas.  I truely appreciate all prayer!

And yes Tracie my medication is right.   I'm just having a down day I guess.

Father God, I need you today.  I'm tired, and wishing for a place to hide.  But my life calls me to be the support & love for a bunch of munchkins....so I ask for the strength to do the job you gave me with joy.  I pray that Rob and I would find a few minutes to sit today, and give us all the Joy of your strength.  I'm pleading James 1:4 "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God who gives generously to all without finding fault."   Please show me how to deal with my children and especially my youngest son.  In your sons name, Amen

Well, the day went better then what I posted this morning.  Though there were still some moments of complete exasperation, frustration etc.

I'm struggling big time in relating to Jamari.  *sigh*  Tonight in complete frustration I carried him to his bed screaming.  It was a better place for him and for me.  He stopped crying after 30 seconds.  And was sound asleep shortly there after.

I am unable to comfort him.   The more I try, the more frustrated the both of us get.  He's such a good natured baby 98% of the day.  That the moments when he wigs out always leave me completely unprepared as to how to fix it.....

Father God, I need wisdom in dealing with him, and I need your love for him.  Some things are going so hard. In your sons name, Amen

Morning.  My kids slept in this morning 'til almost 8 completely unheard of.  About the only good thing that's happened so far this morning.

Zeria ate her breakfast, headed to the living room to play, and threw up all over the floor.  (fortunately the hardwood not the carpet) 

Jamari has decided breakfast isn't his thing & threw his tippy cup on the floor about 500x before we finally just put him down.  He'd prefer a bottle...but he's learned a lovely new trick of popping the nipples out of the bottle & spilling milk EVERYWHERE.  Then playing in it if mom or dad doesn't move fast enough.  So he's getting an instant weaning thank you very much!

Kaylin would take one bite of cereal...and then cry & cry & cry.  We'd ask her if she wanted down, so she'd take another bite of cereal to indicate no! she didn't...and then cry &  cry & cry somemore.  She probably has the stomache bug too.  *sigh*

Daddy put her in "her" backpack.  Which she hasn't gotten to be in since Jamari came.  Jamari preceded to cry at his feet until daddy picked him up too.  Meanwhile I'm holding Zeria and comforting her sickos.  *sigh*

Its only 9:00 this has all happened in a hour.  Gonna be a very very very long day.

Oh did I mention that Samuel is screaming beside me as I type.

Happy New Year!

We had a lot of fun last night.  And the two oldest actually made it 'til midnight.  Which is better then Rob did.  He fell asleep. LOL  I woke him up to say Happy New Year, and make him take us home   Some partier he is....

The kids enjoyed the fireworks...though it got a bit cold out there.  So they cuddled up with grandma to watch them. 

All in all it was a nice way to bring the old year to a close.  Family, new people to get to know, and old friends to hastle with.     I'm so glad for my family & friends.

May this new year bring you closer to family, friends, but most importantly close to God!