Good morning! Sitting here desperately trying to wake up....
I finally have a picture of all of the kids & I together. Here we are in our Sunday best. 
Its also my new profile picture.
Fortunately there's not tons to do today. I have to wrap one or two presents for tonight. We go to my parents to do the extended family Christmas openings. We've always opened Christmas eve there. Its one of the last German traditions we hold onto. That and liverwurst...but well thats just eww to most people LOL!
I also have to do a meat tray or two for tonight. We're doing cold cuts & stuff this year for dinner, as nobody wants to eat much before opening presents anyhow. hehe
Christmas this evening has many firsts. Its the first year we haven't all given presents to everybody. My extended family has just gotten too big. So we drew names out of a hat. (BORING) And we will only be giving a gift to one person. Plus the gifts my parents have to give...We will not be exchanging our own personal family gifts there either. Its gonna be so strange. The end of a 30 year tradition. 
And yep I was the last hold out to the "new" way of doing things...I hate giving up traditions. LOL Well ok not the LAST hold out...both Zeria and my neice are ummm ticked at us as well. They decided they were giving to everybody anyhow. 
So we have to finish Zeria's homemade presents up today. Did I mention I HATE craft projects lol We are glitter gluing a circle and putting a picture of her in the middle of it. (Her Christmas picture)
Yesterday I fell on my way to church carrying Jamari and holding Kaylin's hand. Our stairs on our deck were extremely slippery. I managed to keep Jamari very safe. But I got Kaylin in the face with my foot. And there were 3 of us crying on the ground. It was not a pretty picture. I have a strained ankle thats needs to be wrapped this morning. And Kaylin has a couple bruises. But other then that we're no worse for the wear.....except we will NOT be all going down the stairs together again EVER I think. Do I get the bad mommy prize??? I think I apologized to Kaylin 500x yesterday
Father God, Its your holiday and I ask you to help us remember that. I thank you so much for the downplaying we did on gifts this year. And I pray that you would help us thoroughly enjoy the next two days without the letdown that comes from too much planning. I pray that my kids would have thankful hearts, and not be whiney about things. I ask for my self-control, that I would be understanding of their excitement, and moodswings. And I also covet that Rob would get off work early tonight if at all possible so he doesn't miss too much of the celebration. I love you. In your sons name, Amen
Found a new toy Thanks to Alice who linked me to Sean's site. I now have my own custom designed smileys. And it was relatively easy. So now when your at my site and you put
: - ) you get
; - ) you get
: - D you get 
: - P you get 
: - ( you get
{ v } you get 
And my e-props are now "shiney"
Check it out its way way too much fun.
Good morning! Well after Samuel's nightmare about 9:30 last night when I was still awake the kids slept VERy good! We all did. YEAH. And no middle of the night wake up by Jamari. (phew) Rob ummm slept a little too well. His alarm goes off at 2;40 and at 2:50 I rolled over and realized he was still in bed with me. Fortunately he wasn't too late, and so was easily able to make up the time.
Me thinks we need to get him a different alarm clock.
Today is our churches Christmas cantata. Not sure how much I'll get to hear of it. As I have two squirmy babies to try to watch. And I didn't get a nursery attendant for today, as nobody volunteered, and I could understand why. HMMMMM should be exasperating, and exhausting. LOL
I made my Christmas cards to give out in church today (very very last minute). I had spur of the moment energy, and decided to quickly put them together on the computer. Besides kept getting bumped off the internet last night, so had to have something to do. I was gonna show it to you, but it says it needs to be made smaller, and I don't have the time right now. So maybe later.
Rob poor guy still has 2 some assembly required toys to put together, and he works today, and tomorrow. HMMM Kaylin may be getting a rocking chair in pieces, and a rocking horse in pieces. snicker Oh and he still has to wrap my presents. Do you think he's gonna get it all done????? He says no problem. I'd be flipping out if I was him!
Rob's brother will be arriving late Christmas day for a week. Rob has missed him a LOT. So this is my gift to Rob. I payed D's way to come up for a week. Poor Rob didn't manage to get all the time off, so I'm gonna be stuck entertaining his brother a couple days. Oh joy. But he's a computer addict, maybe I'll just share mine. NOT!
Father God, I ask for things to go smoothly today in church. And the babies to be reasonably well behaved. I ask that Rob would get everything done for Christmas without being too stressed. And I ask that we would remember Why we celebrate Christmas in the bustle and hustle, In your sons name, Amen
Good morning Well the kiddoes had fun looking at the Christmas lights. I have to admit my favorite house was not overly lighted. But they did have 4 different parts of the Christmas story layed out. Including a hill with shepherd sitting at it & a angel flying in the sky. They had several painted/lighted murals representing backgrounds for the varying scenes. It was very cool, and actually had to do with the "real" meaning of Christmas
This was the first year Kaylin was old enough to really see the lights, and she was VERY impressed, and kept jabbering away about what she was seeing. It was so cute.
Jamari on the other hand, well ummmm he got a bit tired of the whole thing, and was much more content sucking his bottle, then actually looking at the durn things.
I've already folded two loads of laundry this morning. And have at least 4 more to go (as the washing machine/dryer get done with them lol) Jamari actually let me stand up to fold both of them. (whats the world coming to) Sooooooooo here's hoping I can get the rest done too. I do NOT want to be folding Christmas eve day. And I cant do laundry tomorrow. Soooooo I have little choice here. If he gets too ornrey I will have to sos to my moms house and have a little sister come babysit. They LOVE to play with their youngest brother
Zeria fed Jamari his morning bottle this morning, while I nursed Kaylin. She thought that was way too cool And had a BIG grin on her face the whole time. Last Saturday & Sunday I tried to balance both of the babies who think they both need to be fed at the exact same time. It was just too hard. And as its the only nurse Kaylin still wants, I don't want to preempt her for the baby. She has done remarkably well accepting this new brown thing into her life. So I'm not gonna mess with that one.
She's so cute about Jamari. She always see's me first when I go get to get babies up from naps etc. As her room has no wall/door. (some day lol) So I go get her, and she talks a mile a minute (no idea what she's saying ) And points to Jamari's room wondering if we're gonna go get him.
We hid the walker, as Jamari was torturing Kaylin in it....and ever since then they've been great friends. Today they were playing a game of peek a boo or something. Kaylin had a hat she was making as if she was gonna put on Jamari's head. and every time he caught her getting close she'd run around to the other side. Sooooooo cute.
Yesterday afternoon. After a nice long break from the kids. (Rob kicked me out) I tried again in the true bonding process with Jamari. I haven't "clicked" with him as quick as I did my two oldest adopted babies. The first time I picked him up he screamed at me, and I started bawling. So Rob took him and said its okay breathe. I did. And prayed hard. After awhile I tried again. And after a half hour of cuddling with him skin to skin. Things felt right. And I feel like I've finally truely connected with him. Thank you Lord.
Father God, I thank you so much for two loads of laundry getting folded without a baby screaming. I ask for the rest of the day to go as well. I thank you for the fun evening last night. I ask that you will give Rob the wisdom to say the right edifying words to his coworkers today. And for me to be even-tempered with the kids & Rob. In your sons name, Amen
Guess what we did today??? We baked cookies. The first batch....well it burnt. (bad bad mommy) But the second batch should be very good. Samuel & Zeria were very good helpers and put chocolate chips in each cookie to make sure it tasted good. It was VERY serious business
Kaylin well ummm she helped eat chocolate chips And she thought those were VERY VERY GOOD.
Jamari said well I tasted my first cookie dough, but wasn't impressed, this bottle is much more to my liking thank you very much.
Headed to see the Christmas lights in our town tonight. Its our last chance before Christmas Eve. Gonna let the kids do Santa's Village too One house has all kinds of carnival like rides for stuffed animals etc set up. And opens their yard up, so it can be toured. Its of course the kids favorite stop.
Did you know I have a rebellious nature? I do!
If someone tells me I "have to" do something. My natural reaction is to say No! I don't. Even its something I want to do lol.
My sister had a new game to play tonight. I knew I wasn't gonna get to play it, as my kids bed time cometh early. She said "you have to play this game" You know what my very first thought was. "NO, I don't, and I don't want to." Fortunately I kept that thought in my head lol.
I like games. Where did that response come from??????
When somebody tells me you "have" to read this...I think Oh really??? No I do NOT! snicker.
When somebody tells me you "have" to think this way about something...oh my then I'm really up in arms.
Its the quickest way for me to get a MAJOR 'tude. lol
Now the question I'm asking myself tonight...is that a wrong attitude, or a right one.
Okay in regards to the game it was just plain a stupid attitude :-d I like games, it wouldn't kill me to try a new one.
When somebody tells me you "have" to read this....now that ones debatable. Is it helpful, supportive, is it gonna uplift me? Well then yes, I probably should read it. Is it derragotory, evil, or badmouthing someone, well, then no I don't. See I should discern the situation before saying No! I don't want to read that :-p
Now the somebody telling me I "have" to think this way. Thats a whole different topic. The ONLY two people in my life that have the right to tell me "I have to" think something are God, and my husband. And if my husband is saying it about something that defys God, Nope don't have to think that.
Okay that being said...why do I think (in my head) so many times, if a person disagrees with the way "I think" it should be done, or the way "I believe is the right way". Why do I get so downright upset. KWIM?
As a Christian I tend to get this holier then thou attitude. My attitude is the ONLY right one. And ummmm its NOT lol.
Well it is in regards to Jesus dying on the cross for sins, being buried rose again on the 3rd day. The BIG "doctrinal" things.
But its not in regards to sooooooooooooooooo many other things. I may think (for example) that gays are evil....and I should have no part of that lifestyle.....but God may call others to become close friends with gays to reach them. I may think that drinking alchoholic beverages is "sinful" But others are entitled there opinion as well.
I grew up in a extremely strait laced family. But you know what...I also made rules for myself that NOBODY in my family expected me to make. And expected people around me to follow those unwritten rules too.
As I get older, I learn there are so many many ways to do things. And none of them are "right" or "wrong" they just are. God may give you the freedom to drink alchohol. HE does not give me that freedom. Why?
1. I have substance abuse babies. Who do NOT need that stuff anywhere near them. Or any reason to be tempted to try it "just once"
2. My best friend growing up was raised by an alchoholic father. When he was sober he was an ok person. When he was drunk...he was a pedophile, physical abusing CREEP!
3. So for me alcohol is NOT an option.
But if you don't have those hang ups...then go for it...some days I envy you lol
Sooooooooo where am I going with these random thoughts? Pretty much everywhere at once. hehehe.
I guess my thought for the night is..."IF it is sin to me then I shouldn't do it." If God has called me to take a stand on something, then I should. And I should not force that on anybody else.....UNLESS I feel God calling me to do that too in which case...be prepared to feel lonely (been there done that its not very fun)
Okay now that I've been so serious....I think I need a stiff drink! Oh thats right I don't do that and I'm prego to boot. :-d Well I had to try...lol HOW about some chocolate instead
Good morning. I actually slept last night. It has been a LONG time. No tossing & turning, no getting up multiple times to use the potty, etc, etc.
As a rule, I am a wiggler, squiggler, insomniac. It was soooooooooo nice not to be that way last night
Yesterday went suprisingly well, considering the first two hours of the morning was almost a complete disaster. Jamari is perfectly content to play and explore around the house, as long as mommy is sitting. Mommy stands up, and he starts crying etc. I guess my housework, is going back to being done in the evenings. (oh well)
Tonight we're going to my sisters birthday party. (the soon to be 12 year old) Gotta run into town and get her a present. Didn't get the invite until yesterday afternoon. The kids will thoroughly enjoy that they LOOVE partys.
I also need to pick up my iron. Tried to get it a couple days ago, but the pharmacist was being ornrey. So gave up. Ran out yesterday, so definitely need to get it today.
I'm struggling with something of a personal nature right now. I'm not sure how to deal with it. For those who pray I'd appreciate it.
Father God, I need my focus to be on you, not on the net, or on problems around me. I ask for me to trust you in regards to all things. I ask for your wisdom in regards to my problem. I also beg Lord that you would give dad a steady job with good pay. Hasn't this time of testing gone on long enough? Thank you for your love, and for the kids calming down after nap. I pray that you would give us all energy for this day. In your sons name, amen
