December 30, 2001

• Well yesterday is over and that's all I can say about that

  
  

  The kids were so good yesterday.  It was the first day since Jamari came into our lives that I felt like they were "normal"  whatever that is.  LOL  I'm hoping desperately this means we've settled into a routine.

  
  

  Kaylin has discovered a new joy.  She LOVES to push up the dining room chair to the kitchen sink & do dishes.  The big kids thought that looked pretty cool so they joined her.  And they truely did all the easy dishes.  Of course a couple got thrown back a couple times   But they sure had fun!

  
  

        

  
  

  The worst problem was Kaylins grief at having to share the sink.  She thought that that was NOT cool at all!

  
  

        

  
  

  Doesn't she just look sooooooooo happy! NOT!

  
  

  Jamari he was just hanging on the floor playing with pots & pans.  And trying to figure out how the heck he could get up to do dishes too.  (give him 6 months lol)

  
  

         

  
  

  

  
  

  In regards to my bil disasters.  He's still at the motel.  Rob drove him there.  He called to ask him (at my request) if he was mad.  He said no...his back was just hurting....so I guess we'll leave it there.

  
  

  He said not to bother coming & getting him for church.  Rob could get him when he got home.   Which means he'll be stuck in a tiny town with no wheels until 4:00 this afternoon.  Sounds fun to me (shrugging shoulders)  I am tempted to call him and ask him if he wants me to come get him....but then again...why?

  
  

  Not sure what to do about it...will get back to you about my decision.  (See if I drive to get him for church is 20 minutes in the wrong direction and then a half hour back to church)  A major pain in the neck especially considering I play keyboard and have to be their early.  But still...seems wrong to leave him stuck there ALL day!

  
  

  Oh well.

  
  

  GrannieDee left the comment that he needed prayer.  And I would have to agree.  He's so lonesome.  And after listening to Rob describe how "wonderful" his brother was I couldn't figure out why.  I know now why....and it grieves me.  I want to give him a life so bad.  But remember from my single years.  (Until I was 28)  that NOBODY can make you learn to live life...you just have to choose to do that.  And its HARD work when your dwelling in self-pity.  So am continuing to pray!

  
  

  Rob btw says I was NOT wrong to correct him--though of course he wasn't there to see the whole saga.  And Rob I'm coming to realize has a very rose glasses look at his family.  And does NOT evaluate them extremely well.  He immediately forgets the bad in regards to people.  Which is probably why he survives being married to me   So I can't judge him for that

  
  

  My heart grieves in regards to Rob's family.  Because I've tried so hard to fit in.  And it just isn't happening.  I feel like I've found peace in regards to his parents.  I don't understand them, but have learned how to essentially deal with them.  Mind you it helps that I'm not forced to do this on a day-to-day basis.  There not rude or anything...I just don't "clique" with them does that make sense????  I guess I need to continue to pray about it. 

  
  

  Father God, I ask for wisdom in regards to this situation.  That you would either put it on my heart to call, or to drop it completely.  I ask for the kids today that they would enjoy Sunday School & learn about you.  I ask for me that you would give me peace that passes all understanding.  In your sons name,  Amen

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