December 21, 2001

• Did you know I have a rebellious nature?  I do!

  
  

  If someone tells me I "have to" do something.  My natural reaction is to say No! I don't.  Even its something I want to do lol.

  
  

  My sister had a new game to play tonight.  I knew I wasn't gonna get to play it, as my kids bed time cometh early.  She said "you have to play this game"  You know what my very first thought was.  "NO, I don't, and I don't want to."  Fortunately I kept that thought in my head lol. 

  
  

  I like games.  Where did that response come from??????

  
  

  When somebody tells me you "have" to read this...I think Oh really??? No I do NOT!  snicker.

  
  

  When somebody tells me you "have" to think this way about something...oh my then I'm really up in arms.

  
  

  Its the quickest way for me to get a MAJOR 'tude. lol

  
  

  Now the question I'm asking myself tonight...is that a wrong attitude, or a right one.

  
  

  Okay in regards to the game it was just plain a stupid attitude :-d  I like games, it wouldn't kill me to try a new one.

  
  

  When somebody tells me you "have" to read this....now that ones debatable.  Is it helpful, supportive, is it gonna uplift me?  Well then yes, I probably should read it.  Is it derragotory, evil, or badmouthing someone, well, then no I don't.  See I should discern the situation before saying No!  I don't want to read that  :-p

  
  

  Now the somebody telling me I "have" to think this way.  Thats a whole different topic.  The ONLY two people in my life that have the right to tell me "I have to" think something are God, and my husband.  And if my husband is saying it about something that defys God, Nope don't have to think that.

  
  

  Okay that being said...why do I think (in my head) so many times, if a person disagrees with the way "I think" it should be done, or the way "I believe is the right way".  Why do I get so downright upset.  KWIM?

  
  

  As a Christian I tend to get this holier then thou attitude.  My attitude is the ONLY right one.  And ummmm its NOT lol.

  
  

  Well it is in regards to Jesus dying on the cross for sins, being buried rose again on the 3rd day.  The BIG "doctrinal" things.

  
  

  But its not in regards to sooooooooooooooooo many other things.  I may think (for example)  that gays are evil....and I should have no part of that lifestyle.....but God may call others to become close friends with gays to reach them.  I may think that drinking alchoholic beverages is "sinful"  But others are entitled there opinion as well. 

  
  

  I grew up in a extremely strait laced family.  But you know what...I also made rules for myself that NOBODY in my family expected me to make.   And expected people around me to follow those unwritten rules too. 

  
  

  As I get older, I learn there are so many many ways to do things.  And none of them are "right" or "wrong"  they just are.  God may give you the freedom to drink alchohol.  HE does not give me that freedom.  Why? 

  
  

  1.  I have substance abuse babies.  Who do NOT need that stuff anywhere near them.  Or any reason to be tempted to try it "just once"

  
  

  2.  My best friend growing up was raised by an alchoholic father.  When he was sober he was an ok person.  When he was drunk...he was a pedophile, physical abusing CREEP!

  
  

  3.  So for me alcohol is NOT an option.

  
  

  But if you don't have those hang ups...then go for it...some days I envy you lol

  
  

  Sooooooooo where am I going with these random thoughts?  Pretty much everywhere at once. hehehe. 

  
  

  I guess my thought for the night is..."IF it is sin to me then I shouldn't do it."  If God has called me to take a stand on something, then I should.  And I should not force that on anybody else.....UNLESS I feel God calling me to do that too in which case...be prepared to feel lonely (been there done that its not very fun) 

  Okay now that I've been so serious....I think I need a stiff drink! Oh thats right I don't do that and I'm prego to boot. :-d  Well I had to try...lol  HOW about some chocolate instead

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