Good morning.  I have no idea what we're doing today. LOL.  Gonna be an adventure. 

Yesterday Zeria was invited to spend the afternoon at grandma's house so it was just Sam & Kaylin.  Samuel was so excited to be the big kid--and whenever Zeria's gone man does he talk.  And talk, and talk, and talk, and talk. LOL

It rubbed off this onto this morning.  And he's still talking.  and LOUD!  We've each said shhhhhhh!  about a gazillion times.  We don't mind the talking just a quieter decible would be VERY nice.

I think this baby in my tummy in gonna be gigantic!!  My tummy is sooooooooooooo itchy.  And I'm already getting stretch marks--and I'm only 15 weeks along.  EEEEEEEEEEEEK!

I put Kaylin's coat on over her dress yesterday in preperation to go to church.  And its still on this morning.  She absolutely will NOT let us remove it.  So much for the cute dress.  We'll just see her cute blue jeans coat. LOL  She thinks its very special or something.

I'm rambling around in circles.  So I think I'll stop.  Oh yes...tonights date night!!!! YEAH!  we're gonna go watch Monsters Inc (I think) to see if our kids will like it. 

Father God, whatever we do today, let it honor you.  And let us practice our self-control with our kids, and our self-control with each other.  I love you, in your Sons name Amen

I just had to share this.  I was playing keyboard this morning---the doxology, and the baby got the hiccups or REALLY liked the music.  And it was all I could do NOT to laugh right in the middle of it.  I love those flutters!!!!

Good morning!  I just looked at my subscription list and found a dear internet friend has just started a xanga site. http://www.xanga.com/home.asp?user=Daisybliss  She's been reading mine since it started--she must have finally gotten hooked.  I encourage everybody to read her.  She's lots fun--and very sweet.  (The rest you can learn from her)

Midge I think you in particular would enjoy her for you are from neighbouring countries.    The rest I'll let her reveal about herself.  ENJOY!

I feel better this morning.  I've been praying a lot about my attitude.  And was online a lot less.  The kids & I went over to my moms house after nap--and stayed there until Rob got home--he drives past her house on his way home from work so stopped in on his way home.  Rob had told me I could run away and when mom heard I was she invited herself.   We haven't done anything together without hers or my kids in a very very very long time.  It was so nice.

We didn't do anything spectacular went shopping at Costco--got my bil's Christmas present there   And went shopping at Big-Lots a factory outlet kinda store.  Got one of Samuels presents there.   And then went out for a simple dinner at a 50's restaurant with good food at reasonable prices. 

It was a very nice break.  While there though my mom doesn't completely understand my internet fascination I talked to her about recent events briefly.  She gave me the courage to stand strong.  And didn't even say much.    I love moms!

She also just about knocked me over with a stick.  LOL  She has not been anti breastfeeding--but she has been very uninformed.  And we were talking about "James" reflux  and how the first thing I was planning on doing is taking him of his milk-based formula.  Because I "know" both his sister & brother have a milk allergy....so its a good place to start IMO.  Anyhow she knocked me over with a pin when she said--its too bad your trying to dry out for the newborn or you could nurse him.  (jaw dropping here)   

I so wish I could--but it just seems like too much for the baby inside me...so we'll have to find something that DOES work for James.

Today is church.  And the last couple weeks at church have been a bit rough as I've been kind of tired.  So I'm hoping that things go better this week. 

Father God, I ask for your continued guidance, and peace.  I ask that you would allow me to trust you in all I do and say.  And to be aware of others needs when I'm around them--and not just focused on myself.  I thank you for the kids almost sleeping 'til normal time this morning.  I sure hope this means that their bodies are switching to daylight savings time!  And I thank you for the fun visit with mom yesterday.  I ask for Rob that you would give him the energy he needs at work today--and allow us to find some time to spend together today.  In your sons name, Amen 

Wellllllllllllllllll its been a long week.  And my normal escape route the internet has become frot with hard decisions.  And making mistakes, and praying.  It started first with the non-Christian board I post at.  It was the board I enjoyed the most.  But the threads had become raunchier and raunchier.  So after much thought  I chose to walk away.  And it was not understood--though received better then it could have been.

Last night I walked away from a second board.  And I'm tired.  If I had Rynomommy's courage I would disconnect the internet.  Except I have several good friends I'd miss so much.  So maybe I'll surf e-Bay while talking to them it seems easier some how. 

When I was making the decision to leave the first board Chelle D http://www.xanga.com/home.asp?user=Chele_D  a xanga site I just found left this comment.  Sometimes we have to see what the world calls normal so that we understand that we are changed by Christ...when I think of the attitudes which I had before, and the things I allowed to slip out of my mouth, or the jokes that I used to laugh at, etc.  it makes me sad.  But you can probably find other boards on the www that are uplifting, encouraging, and honoring your lifestyle, if you choose to explore.  Sometimes it's when things no longer seem to fit, it's a sign that it's time to move on.  I learned a long time ago that some friendships are for a season, and others are for a lifetime.  If you think you can be a witness, or reflect virtue into the situation, okay.  But if you come away feeling you are soiled by the experience, maybe their witness has pulled you down.  Just something to consider.

The more I think about it the more I thought about it.  If a place is not honoring to God....then I have to leave.  If I find myself being pulled to a spot that hinders my walk with God, instead of encourages it its not right for me. 

Now this does so NOT mean that its not right for others. KWIM?  It just means for me for now God has said walk.  So I walked.  And it sucks!  IT would be so much easier to hang my head down and wait 'til the latest stuff goes away.  But easier and right are not always compatible.  *sigh*  I sure wish they were.

I am a black & white person I'm afraid.  And too often it makes for frustration.  There are many many days I wish I could see gray.  But I can't--and why should I.

Are you totally confused by this blog.  Well join the club--so am I.  I'm not speaking in riddles trying to protect somebody from the truth.  I'm just talking to myself trying to find the truth.  And peace.

Father God, I pray for your wisdom & guidance.  I need you to show me the God honoring way.  I ask that you would not let my time on the internet distract me from my family & my "outside" life.  I need balance.  And I need both places to be honoring to you.  I love you, and I ask for peace for all the people at both boards.  And a lifetime of joy. 

Today I ask that you would help me make the right decisions about what to do and where to go.  I love you, in your sons name Amen

I'm so confused.  What to do what to do.

Father HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good evening.  I woke up with a nightmare this morning.  And had a horrid time shaking it.  Rob was feeling bad for me--and on top of that my stomache was achey. So we decided to screw the normal plans and have fun.    After breakfast, and my stomache feeling mostly better.  We got in the car and started driving.  Weren't even really sure where we were gonna end up.  LOL

We went to Wal-mart first to get some stuff for the Drapes I bought for our bedroom.  ($5.99 at Goodwill and in excellent condition ) 

And then it was such a gorgeous day we ended up at Hurricane Ridge.

It was gorgeous up there--as always.  And the kids even got to play in the snow.  Although because this was an unplanned adventure we did NOT have gloves.  And it was VERY cold.  So we didn't stay very long.  Kaylin was so NOT impressed with that white cold stuff.  It was slippery--and there was NO way she was touching it.  So her facial expression is appropriate in this picture.  LOL

Samuel & Zeria both loved it though--unfortunately my picture of Zeria didn't turn out--so we'll have to settle for just a picture of Samuel tonight. 

Of course the first thing he tried to do with the snow was eat it.  EWWWWWWWWW oh well. 

Good morning.  Yesterday was such a nice peaceful day.  I did NOT miss dragging my kids to cubbies in the slightest.  And my kids were so well behaved--I'm sure that means their gonna be holy terrors today

Kaylin only nursed once yesterday--I'm still in shock over that one.  She just had no intrest.  Even when she got a major boo-boo towards evening she cried in my arms--but did NOT ask for mom-mom milk.  So maybe I'm weaning her.  2 months ago I was sad about it...now it feels right smoehow.  This morning she nursed for a good long while on the one side--then switched to the other.  She was not real happy on that side--so found a new position.  She latched on for a minute--then let go and wiped her mouth with the back of her hand and made ugly faces.  I thought maybe she'd gotten a fuzz.  Then she tried again, and again she wiped her mouth and made an ugly face.  She did this about 5x.  And each time she was NOT impressed.  I think my colostrum is coming in.  And she does so NOT want to eat it.  LOL  So maybe the morning one will go next.  Although I kind of like that nice snuggle in the morning.  So we will see. 

I spent yesterday finding cracks & crevises in our new room & filling them.  And it was much warmer in our bedroom last night.    My mom has 3/4's of a role of insulation that she said we can have so that will finish our lovely "wallpaper"  ROFL.  Actually I hung a couple blankets over the insulation and that looks much better.  I think I'll do that on the other side--and then we'll have a "pretty" room in a redneck sort of way.

Father God, there is LOTS of stuff that needs to be done today.  I pray that you would help me do what would honor you, and leave the rest for another time, and another place.  I ask that my kids would enjoy each other today, and entertain themselves well.  I ask for Rob as he goes to work that he would have the courage to speak for you, and the wisdom to know when to do it.  In your sons name Amen

I found this surfing on another Xanga.  It is powerful!  And I do NOT remember which xanga site it was--so I apologize for not giving credit where credit is due. 

With alll the troubles of the past several weeks it is comforting to know God is always here. When it appears that he is not it's just because we are not looking at things from the right perspective.Look at the words below. What do you see?

GODISNOWHERE