November 25, 2001

  • Good morning!  My kids actually slept in until 7 this morning.  I was verrrrrrry happy.


    Last night I ran away for a couple hours.  Didn't do anything exciting.  Just to subway for dinner & to Walmart & Goodwill.  It was a nice break. 


    I got most of my two tons of laundry done yesterday.  And got my kids drawers sorted.  (BORING)  But long overdue.  I finally stored Samuels summer shirts that are gonna be too small for him by next year anyhow.  (BORING)


    Zeria thought it was boring too and was quite put out that we weren't doing anything "special".  Mommy and her had a couple battles about attitude.  *sigh*  She's NEVER had that particular attitude before.....and I think she has a pretty good idea that it shouldn't happen again anytime soon. 


    I have chosen not to go to SS the last two weeks.  And only go to church.  I finally realized why last night as I was praying about it.  An antiphany so to speak.  I guess I want my real life friends to be excited about my pregnancy.  And they weren't.  They keep saying "their praying" for me.  Which I definitely need LOL....but I'm excited about the pregnancy and about the adoption of James~~if DSHS ever gets their butts in gear.  And I have had very few "real" life people celebrate.  My mom has been one of them~~which has still suprised me.  My grandma is excited (when she's lucid~~which is for another blog)  And our assistant pastor & his wife are thrilled for us.   The rest have the I'll pray for you attitude.  And always assume that I do too....well maybe I should but I'm too stupid and I"M EXCITED.


    Oh sure their are momentary moments of panic.  How the heck am I gonna do a McD's playland trip with 2 babies a toddler & 2 almost toddlers.  Welllllllllll maybe we won't (grin)   Maybe somethings we'll have to be curtailed.  And maybe I'll have to hire a nanny to come along with me to play.  And I have 2 VERY good choices for that.  My 16 year old sister who homeschools & is desperate to get her hands on James who is her half brother.  And my 17 year old neighbor who does our regular babysitting cause she's a LOT closer.  They are both very responsible mature girls that my kids love.  And yes we have the money to do that if needed....it will make other things a bit tighter...but thats ok.


    Anyhow I digress. LOL its my blog i can if I want to


    Sooooo  I guess I curled up inside & stopped going cause I was tied of the little hurts that I was receiving.  And I KNOW they didn't mean to hurt me...but hurt me it did.  Instead I've been hanging around in the sanctuary with a lady who has 5 kids.  AAnd LOVES them all~~even when she wants to strangle her second oldest And IS excited for me.  so pbbbbbbbbt.


    But I still feel a bit guilty for sitting out there and NOT learning.  But you know what for now unless a bolt of lightening strikes me....or another BIG insight I think I'm gonna stay out there.......still thinking on this one.


    Father God, its hard to be friendly when people aren't doing things "my" way.  And I'm tired of pretending it doesn't bother me.  Give me the courage to be honest with those who are intrested, and the wisdom to keep my mouth shut to those who aren't.  I pray for Kaylin that she would enjoy church again.  And that Zeria's asthma wouldn't get any worse today.  I ask for Rob that you would give him clarity of thought as he makes decisions at work and that he would be trusting you for wisdom.  I lift up samuel and ask that he would stay reasonably calm in Sunday School & not give into the other little boys picking on him etc.  I thank you so much for my husband as I watched him sleep last night I was reminded how precious of a gift you've given me.  THANK YOU!! 


    Amen 

Comments (11)

  • Well I'm not an IRL friend, but I'm excited for you!!!   Can you please come organize Jaiden's drawers?  We have an old dresser that doesn't have enough drawers in it and everything gets thrown in there.  I just can't bring myself to organizing it lately!  *SIGH*

  • Seems your not the only one w/ a "BORING LIFE" (lol) it's time to change the drawers   I however really can't.  Where we live (colorado) we can wear all kinds of clothes all year round so that makes for stuffy drawers.  I am excited about your baby and pop in to check on any new news, I just get side tracked and don't comment.  I do have to wonder how your so sain w/ all the kids when I am overwhelmed w/ only...2!!!!

    best wishes, have a great day

  • Well I am excited if you are excited!!  Maybe one baby will have to stay home with a sitter when its McDonalds time.  You will work something out!!

  • I am Happy and excited for you. To have all those children around. Will make for a wonderful life. I always wanted to have more than two children, but could have no more. But I am thankful for what I have. Have a wonderful day. :)

  • Congradualations on being pregnant. The way I see it if you weren't meant to have something you wouldn't have it. Maybe thats not the right way to think but thats my thinking. I was 5 1/2 months pregnant before i realized. Your thinking how did you not know? Well when you don't have cycles and such well....... Then I started to notice stuff you can't miss and I was. My husband and I tried for a year and half. I'm just glad he's healthy (onry). You know that show they show on the learning channel? It shows from conception till birth. Well I watched that a just cryied my eyes out. I realized and I never thought about it but that is truly a miracle. While I watched this I was pregnant. Wow. Sorry I got windy

  • This will be quick I promise. Just have faith in God. I know that is hard when the weight of the world is on your shoulders. I had a patient one day tell me to have faith and I said sometimes thats hard. You know when everything is going on and its hard. She said Nellie I wonder why that is?  Why do people have such a hard time having faith in God and I said I think its because they can't see,feel,touch and were a very matieralistic world. We have to be able to see,touch and feel. She said Nellie think of it this way when the wind blows across your face,blows the trees or blows the American Flag you know thats the wind. Well thats kind of like faith and God you can't see him but you always now he's there. You can also feel him. Sorry I said this would be short. Sorry I got so windy. I'm leaving now. Have a good evening and God Bless

  • I for one am very excited for you...Youre so sweet..Dont let those people get to you...

    Have a great rest of Sunday..

    rubymoon

  • Well, this Granny is happy that you are PG and that you and your hubby have been gifted to raise not only your own but to be able to bring along side those who will become your own through adoption.  After all most all Christians are Christians by adoption through the blood of Christ and we have a mighty Father who is blessing you.

    Now, get your eyes off yourself and back on the Lord and get back into the Sunday School class and while you are at it bring along the other lady.  There is nothing worst then letting Satan convince you that you shouldn't be in class sharing with the others what God's word is teaching you that day.  We are also examples for our children.  What would you tell your children if they saw you in the sanctuary instead of class?  After all it is not a do as I say and not as I do situation especially when you we want our children walking with the Lord.

    ...and if those people who said they are praying for you are, then you blessed.  Just remember, eyes on the Lord and not on the people....also, go check Proverbs 3:5 & 6.  God bless you and your family....

  • I'm excited and so are all my rl friends - lol

    hugs

  • Also remember you go to worship him. You go for him.

  • Thanks for taking my "lecture" as intended, in Christian love.  God bless...

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