Kaylin and her aunt Brittany. At her aunt Christina's birthday party.
Aunt Christina opening her birthday presents--she's the big 16 now. 
Zeria & a friend, and her cousin Andria. At her sister Christina's birthday party.
Samuel eating birthday cake. MMMMMM MMMMMMM!!!!!
But I DON"T WANT TO GO HOME MOM!!!!! Your so MEAN!!!
Good morning
I actually slept last night. And feel ready to face today. Which is a nice feeling.
Rob came home from work last night--and kicked me out of the house for a couple hours. It was a very very nice break. Kaylin is cutting a eye tooth & a molar--and she is CRANKY! And she wanted nothing to do with nursing, so I had NO means to comfort her. It was a LONG day.
The morning the kids were good. We went to my littlest sister's soccer game, and then out for pizza. The kids had a riot--and Kaylin was happy. These days I seem to rearange my life around whether Kaylin is happy or not. She essentially didn't get teeth until 11.5 months--so was just plain a happy baby. This teething business now is FOR the BIRDS!!!
In the van yesterday Samuel asked a question, and Zeria answered it. I agreed that her answer was right. Zeria smiled and said--thats because "Big sisters are ALWAYS right!" ROFL!
I informed her that mommys make many mistakes--and so do big sisters. She then of course wanted to know what mistakes mommy makes. So I told her mommys got grumpy, and that wasn't nice. And sometimes big sisters did too. She didn't like that too much 
Beings that I'm a big sister--I can relate much more then she knows. LOL
Father God, its gonna be a busy day, and I'd really appreciate it if Kaylin was NOT cranky today. I ask for you to allow me to be patient with the kids as we get ready for church. And that I would find spiritual food to chew on for church this week .
I ask today too that you would help me NOT to criticize the way that Rob does things. His way may be different--but at least he trys. So please forgive me for my critical spirit, and allow me to move on.
I love you, in your Sons name, Amen
Luke 1:78
Because of God's tender mercy,
the light from heaven is about to break upon us,
79
to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death,
and to guide us to the path of peace."
I LOVE the picture of light. I once wrote/and directed a childrens musical on light. The picture is so incredible. At the end we did a candle theme. One child lit a candle, then another, then another. Starting with the room completely dark. It was a extremely powerful picture of how light works.
Yesterday for the first 1/2 of the day I was in the dark. And I knew it, and it seemed nothing could shake it. Then all of a sudden I realized the light had one--and I was once again where I should be. I still can't tell you how/why. But wow did it feel better!
I read about people struggling with depression, and I've been there before myself. And all I can wish is that they can find light. Because it pervades everything--and all of a sudden you can function again.
Its my experience with most depression--NOT all because trust me I realize that there is chemical imbalance. Having dealt with a low thyroid for the last year--believe me I KNEW there was more wrong. But anyhow, in most depression there is something wrong. And its amazing what a small thing can set you off.
For me there were two things I was mad about--and I dwelt on those instead of God. Thursday afternoon I got a letter from "James" caseworker. They came up with another committee that he has to go through before he can be placed. So it will be at least a month before we can get him. I was angry. And I posted a angry blog about it. But the xanga ghost ate it. LOL
Probably a better thing that it did.
I also had a disappointment. It was a stupid thing. I wanted to be asked to do something, and I wasn't. And I poubted. DUMB??? Of course!!! I had a choice--support the person who was chosen to do the job--or poubt. For 24 hours I poubted. 
And man did it make for a miserable day yesterday.
I have this verse that constantly haunts me. "Trust in the Lord, with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5&6
Yesterday I chose NOT to trust. And my life was so dark. I slowly, slowly prayed for trust, made baby steps to trust, and the light came back. Praise the Lord!
I LOVE light!
Do you ever get the impression your NOT supposed to do something?
Plan balance the checkbook--its only been a month and a week after all........
So open up my bank account to get the debit card receipts. Member error--please call your bank to fix--we do NOT recognize this password.
#$@*(@#$#*@(#*$&#*@(#$@
Okay now what? Dh comes home calls the bank. They have to call Seattle. Its fixed.
Access account wait, wait, wait, wait, Ok got it--start printing.
FATAL ERROR....OUT OF INK...
#$@*(#*$*@&*#$(#*@&$#*(
I guess I'm NOT gonna do it today after all.
So much for that plan. Anybody wanta chat?
In 1993 half way through my last year of college my parents called me and told me they had decided mom would NOT be pursuing a career now that we had almost all left the nest. INstead they would be adopting a sibling group.
For years I had prayed for more brothers & sisters--always was a sucker for babies 
And my parents had talked adoption before--so this wasn't a total shock.
2 weeks after I graduated from college my parents finally adopted there family of 4. A 7.5 year old, a 6 year old, a 4.5 year old, and a 13 month old. 3 months later their 2.5 year old sister came to join them. 5 years later another girl (now 8 came to join them) In 1998 I adopted their younger sister & brother (Zeria & Samuel)
I CAN NOT imagine what my life would have been like without them. I was so lonely when I left college--after having the time of my life. And God filled the incredible void in my life with my sisters & brothers. I was there nanny until I adopted my own kids. And I LOVED them & spoiled them to pieces.
Now what I want to know is how in the heck did my 7.5 year old sister become the absolutely gorgeous 16 year old that she is now???
Happy Sweet 16 Christina!! I love you!
Plan for day--do laundry.
So I wake up do my devotions, surf my boards (typical morning start.
Then eat my breakfast. Sharing it with Kaylin of course--cause she's a mooch
All this time I was feeling quite nauseous but hoped it was going away. So I eat. I sit there for 30 seconds building up steam to go fold my MOUNDS & HEAPS & TONS of laundry.
and instead I ran to the bathroom--and you know what I did there
And I've been SICK ever since. Its 4 hours later and I finally put food back in my stomache. And who knows whether it will stay. (sigh) I apparently looked so awful Rob called into work "sick". Normally I protest--today I was too sick to protest. So today I guess I baby myself, and rest. Guess I've overdid it the last few days--and this is God's way of making me take a break...
Right now he's on a mission to get 7up for me--then who knows what will happen.....probably just enjoy the family.
Frivolous aside ??
What do I do tonight when Survivor comes on--HE HATES reality shows--well except he grugingly admitted he likes Amazing Race But I HAVE to watch LOL. He's always at work so its not an issue. Oh such earth shattering choices
This morning has NOT started out well...and its only 8:30. NOrmally my rule is I do NOT open anything on my computer until I've read my Bible. But today--I'm gonna whine first--then go read Bible Pathways.
Today started out normal. Kaylin wakes up mommy nurses her. No problem I can do this. Its dh's birthday today--only we celebrated yesterday. Rob let me sleep in a bit after Kaylin was done nursing, which made me feel a tinge guilty, cause I should be spoiling him--but being pregnant, and exhausted I had no will-power to argue. LOL
I came downstairs to him washing dishes--and Samuel buck naked. Its not super warm in our house in the morning, and that made me a tinge grumpy. (I know, I know--he didn't deserve it.) So I slipped my shoes on to go outside and get my thyroid med, and clothes for Samuel. Our laundry is still NOT caught up--so all clean clothes are in the van from our trip yesterday. As I headed inside I saw the little stock pile of dirty diapers in the van I know EWWWWWWWW. It was from living out of our van for the last two days. So I grabbed those too, and headed in.
Problem--they make me start gagging. (Gotta love morning sickness) So I head to the bathroom to finish that little scenario. (yuck, yuck, yuck) I'm in the bathroom having just finished the deed still holding Samuels clean clothes, when I hear Samuel start screaming. I want to continue to feel sick, but Samuel takes precedent. Whats wrong I say? coming out of the bathroom--he burned himself Rob says.
Then I truely ticked. Samuel was warming himself at the fire--because daddy was so busy doing dishes, he failed to get himself dressed, and fell backwards against the stove. Its not a bad burn--but it still #$@*&(@ me off--because if Samuel had had clothes on--he'd have NOT been warming his booty on the stove (literally today)
I of course had to point out the fact that every time one of the kids has gotten burned on the stove--its been while daddy was "watching them". #$@*(@. And life just went down hill from there.
Happy Birthday Rob--I just want to scream at you. *sigh*
So gonna go do my devotions and redeem this day. Yep, un huh. Go turn on the computer--I read Bible Pathways each day. Click on I-explore. Disconnected--did NOT pay the bill. This after me asking him each day at least once a day to pay it for the last 3 weeks. #$@*(&*(@
Happy Birthday Rob--I still want to scream at you. *sigh*
So I gather what little bit of wits I have about me. (And btw I have not screamed at him yet LOL) And start cleaning up vacation mess. Man I'm glad this wasn't a 5 day vacation--2 days was bad enough LOL.
Find the book I bought last Friday--The power of a praying wife. (Uh-Oh) Okay...I'll read this for my devotions this morning.
(Uh-Oh)
I sit down on the chair to read. A LOT of you have read this book you know what it says. Don't change your husband, change you, pray for him, pray for you.
Okay...so here I am.
Father God, I'm sorry I didn't get my tail out of bed, and enjoy my family this morning. I'm sorry I got so mad at Rob when the kids weren't dressed. I'm sorry I told him off when Samuel got burnt, and I'm sorry I was just plain grumpy this morning. I ask that you would allow me to forgive Rob for not dressing Samuel this morning. And for not being willing to be lazy. It irks me so much when he gets up and is running--and it takes me hours to come up with that energy. I pray for the strength for me to be satisfied with my life, and to NOT push myself beyond what I can handle. I love you, I thank you for the butterfly kisses in my tummy--I LOVE that feeling. And I thank you for my husband, even when I want to kill him.
In your sons name Amen
HI, I'm sorry about my eratic blogs the last couple days. We decided to run away for our weekend (Monday & Tuesday)
We went door shopping, clothes shopping, and stayed in a NICE motel with a pool. It was a nice break from the everyday, and now we're ready to get back to the grindstone of the lean-to & kids, etc.
I got 2 very nice maternity shirts. So should be set now with what else I've already gotten. I let each of the kids get an outfit at Factory 2 U. And my dear husband was a sucker--and picked out a second one for Zeria
I gave Kaylin the jumper I picked out for her to carry--we did NOT bring a stroller & she walked everywhere did extremely well too. Never got tired. Anyhow--she carried that dress, and carried it. We could NOT take it away from her to pay for it--so they scanned it while she was holding it. ROFL And then she carried it down the side walk. We were afraid they'd accuse us of shoplifting in the next store--so we took it away from her to put in the car--and she bawled. We were so mean.
As soon as we got back into the car--she grabbed that jumper and held onto it for 2 hours. Until we were mostly home. I think we made her week
My ultrasound is in an hour--then I'll find out why I'm so big.
We had the most beautiful water view at the motel. It was fun
And I'm scatter brained & not in a blogging mood can you tell So I'll come back after the ultrasound when my mind is a bit more normal. hehehe (whatever that is?)
TTYL
