Good morning,  I woke up with energy this morning   I'm excited.  LOL.  Yesterday I woke up asleep & stayed that way pretty much all day.  I just love being a walking zombie.  NOT!

I'm sniffling & sneezing, but oh well--I guess I'm doing my duty keeping the germ population alive.  (tee hee)

Today I am hoping to finish Kaylin's polar fleece snow suit that I'm making.  I started it yesterday.  This is my most adventerous sewing project yet.  And doing it when your a walking zombie is not ummm the smartest thing in the world.  I accidentally sewed the legs together yesterday.   HEHEHEHEHE

We have a Harvest Party to do at our church today.  My mom is in charge.  It was her idea to do one & we've been doing it for about 14 years now.  It used to be at our house--but the attendance has gotten so big we can't provide dry shelter for everybody anymore.  So now that our church has a gym we will be doing it there instead.  Not quite as fun cause its not outdoors--but still fun.

I haven't told my kids about it yet, cause I don't want hear when are we gonna go all day. LOL  I'm so mean. 

I have to decide whether I'm making my finger food today--or running to the store & buying chips.  Depends on my energy level closer to the time.

Poor Rob everything he tried to do yesterday kinda backfired.  Including his tape measure breaking.  So the lean-to didn't get very far along.  This project is just NEVER gonna end. 

The leaves outside my window are so beautiful shades of brilliant yellow & orange.  I NEED to take some pictures to share--but I keep waiting for it to stop raining for 30 seconds.  I don't think thats gonna happen.

Father God, as I go throughout this day let me be slow to speak & slow to anger.  Let me enjoy my kids, and be patient with them.  I thank you so much for a peaceful day yesterday--and for Rob & I getting along.    I ask that we could have a similar day today.  (Minus the zombie act)  I love you, In your sons name, Amen

Good morning,  I'm getting sick.  I have a sore throat & a bit of a headache.  I guess I'm gonna join Kaylin & Zeria in feeling miserable.  

I think I won't be online much today.  (Though I may be wrong lol) 

I went to one of my favorite boards last night--not a Christian board, and they had a thread that made me go ewwwwww!  They wanted to know how big my husbands _____ was and it went downhill from there.  I thought & thought and thought what to do about.  This board has always been innocent fun, and now it was BLUCHY!  And there have been several other similar threads lately. 

This is not God-honoring.  It is not me-honoring.  And how dare they share something intimate about their spouses on the wwweb???

So after a LONG thought I told them that I was taking a bit of a break.  I would lurk, but not post while I pondered on it.  The thread is apparently missing this morning.  I'm desperately hoping that means they deleted it.  But I still need to step back for a day or two. 

So then I go to my other board.  (not a Christian board)  And they have a thread running (for 125 posts)  about how many partners have you had.  And were they male or female.  And I again went ewwwwwwwwwwwwww!  And then the thread went downhill further into have you ever done swing, etc, etc.

Soooooo more pondering.  I did decide to post.  Because I'm PROUD of the fact that I've only ever had one and that Dh has only ever had one.  And that we waited 'til our wedding night.  I think that is a MAJOR accomplishment.  And I have absolutely NO regrets about it either!

That board does NOT take criticism well--so I left it alone at that. They have 1 moderator for 8 forums and 1500 postee's  it is NOT well taken care of.

I guess the verse Whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are noble, if their be any virtue, or if their be any praise think on these things sticks in my head.  And NONE of that was available last night.

And how are you gonna know that a thread is ICK until you open it, and then its too late.  *Sigh* 

Sooooo I'm gonna keep pondering that one. 

I LOVE being on the computer.  I do not see it as  a detriment to my family.  I find it gives me the balance I need to support them.  But every once & awhile I find myself being discouraged by evil, and ick.  And have to step back. 

So stepping back a bit today--though probably not too far--I like to IM too much ROFL!

Father God, today as I don't feel good & the kids don't feel good, I ask for your strength to continue on.  And the courage to say no to things that aren't good for me or my family.  I ask that you would take away the headache so I can function better, and I ask for Rob as he goes to work today that he will find the courage to be a testimony to his co-workers.   I love you in your sons name,  Amen

I guess I'm  a little sad tonight, and a little bit frustrated.  I'm trying to decide whether I become a momma bear with her claws out...or let it roll.   I'll ask dh tonight and see what he says.

I drag my kids out to cubbies each Wednesday night.  Well my kids love to go I guess its me who drrags.  Its a  15 minute drive one way--so for 1hour 30 minute meeting there is no point in going home.  So I sit in the nursery and visit with a couple other moms.  The visiting is good.  But I would rather stay home in my cosey little hole.  Am I becoming a total hermit?

But that's not why I'm sad tonight.  Tonight Samuel wasn't "good"  he had to be "redirected" a couple times--whatever that means.  He's a 3.5 year old.  And they expect him to sit for an hour and a half with 18 other 3 & 4 year olds.  Its NOT in him  

Anyhow so at the end of Cubbies--the "GOOD" kids got, candy.  Zeria of course being one of them.  And the "bad" kids did not.  Samuel thought everybody got candy.  And when he went to collect his stuff & realized he didn't have any he started crying.  I didn't know it was a good, bad thing, so I went back inside to see what was up.  Found out from a leader--who I don't particulary care for tons anyhow.  And came back out.   Samuel is still bawling.  Not temper tantrum crying.  Heart broken sobs--the kind that cut to the quick. 

I have to tell him because 30 minutes ago he wasn't "good"  he doesn't get any.  3 year olds do NOT understand 30 minutes ago.  And I wanted to give him candy--but I did NOT have any, and the convenience store was closed, or I would have bought him a little something.  Another leader was getting into the car beside me.  She has a 3 year old--she understands, she has a candy in her pocket--do I want it.  Its not the same kinda of candy--its smaller--but hey its candy--and thats all my 3 year old son cares about.  I hesitated for a minute--cause I hate to contradict people in authority.  But...he does NOT understand. 

So I gave it to him.  He stopped sobbing, but still had tears on his face and was sniffing 15 minutes later when we got home. 

I know my kids are gonna have much worse heart breaks--but this one just frustrates me.  Especially when it happened at a place I'm not particularly enjoying going to right now.  So do I talk to the leader in charge?  The leader who gave me the candy, said she would talk to her mom (the leader iin charge), but I'm wondering if maybe I should say something.

Or should I respect their leadership and keep my mouth shut.

And can I cry now too please?????

Whats wrong with this picture???

I had a nice long blog typed out this morning, and the xanga ghost ate it.  soooooooo here goes again.

Last night I knew I had to get out of my grump.  So I started praying HARD.  And talked to a friend for a bit who told me to pray for myself not my dh.  Good advice btw

So I prayed for me, and when dh when upstairs to tuck the kids in I decided to take a shower.  I locked the door so he could NOT join me.  LOL.  And took a nice long shower, even shaved :-d  I then got out & used my Mary Kay face cleaner--which I hadn't used in months.  And put makeup--which I hadn't used in months.     And even put finger nail polish on.  Oh wow did I feel fancy.  ROFL

Then I snuck upstairs and got a nice neglige on & my bathrobe that my mom got me for my honeymoon which I keep for "special"  and well the curtain closes here.

But you know what it made ALL the difference in the world.  I felt so much better, dh & I had fun.  And I didn't resent it like I have been lately.  (So touched out) 

I GOTTA GOTTA GOTTA do that more often!

Of course my kids all wanted to know why mommy had finger nail polish on this morning.  Kaylin kept rubbing her fingers on it--she loved the feel of it. :-d

So when's the last time you pampered yourself--and I challenge you to do it soon!!!

Okay laugh all you want.  But I decided rather then getting  angry when my hard work was messed up.  I'd take a picture.  And show myself that it can ACTUALLY be neat in my bathroom.  Maybe I'll make it my profile picture.  ROFL

I think I'll just stare at this picture for awhile--before reality sets in--and I find somebody has pulled all the towels out to make a fort or somethin'

Okay...now I'm really flunking!  I just spent an hour cleaning the bathroom.  It looked soooooo good.  I through away all the excess medicine, junk that collected there etc.  I refolded towels so they looked neat.  Re-stored kids hair stuff so they couldn't spread it all over the bathroom.  Re-stored my makeup so that Samuel can't play with it anymore.  It LOOKED good.

DH came in from a walk.  And where does he put his wet soggy coat--does he hang it by the fire.  NOPE!  Does he hang it in the entryway on the hanger?  NOPE!  He leaves it on the shelf in the bathroom by the toilet.  Does this make sense to you?

NOPE!

I am GRUMPY,  and I'm flunking marriage 101.

You know, be kind.  Do unto others as you would have them do unto you?

Father God, please give me an attitude change.  And help me to be a LOT nicer to dh today.

Tia

Good morning.  We had a wind storm ALL night last night.  We have this HUGE tree beside our house--so that made me more then a little bit nervous.  Plus it kept feeling like our roof was gonna blow off--or some such thing.  The wind is still blowing this morning.

We carved our pumpkins last night--they turned out very cute.  We don't celebrate halloween anymore, but I still enjoy carving the pumpkins   Samuel had the mostest fun!  He would clean out his small pumpkin.  Then pick up the bowl that had the pumpkin "guts" in it and dump them back into the pumpkin, and start all over.  This entertained him for a LONG time. 

I didn't take any pictures--was too busy carving   But we'll take pictures of the kids with the pumpkins outside today.

We went on our date night last night, and ended up coming home early.  We live up a long very woody country road, and I was extremely nervous that the road would get blocked off from trees.  So we came home & watched tv and sent the babysitter home--so she wouldn't get stranded at our house.

And yes, its happened before.  Only it was our whole family getting stranded.  We went to the memorial service of the friend who died with all of her babies in  a car accident. (About 2 years ago)  And after the memorial service, came home got the babies from a friends house--and went back to the reception.  Because we were the volunteers to clean up afterwards.  Just before time to clean up--ALL the power went out.  So people scrounged through the Hall to find candles--and we cleaned by flash light & candles. 

They had enough food left over to feed about 500 people--understanding that 700 people were at the funeral.  Anyhow we decided to drive a van load full to my mom & dads house--they have 6 kids at home--they can always use more food.

So we drove the 3 miles to their house, dropped the stuff off & left--being at their house less then 5 minutes.  Turned around to go out the driveway, got a 1/4 of a mile from their house--and their was a tree about 3 foot in diameter across the road--and 2 others besides that.  We decided that driving (even if/when the roads got cleared would be foolhardy).  So we spent the night in my little sisters beds. 

When we called the trees in--they said...oh thank you, and yes theres a tree down at mile post 56, and 48, and 47, and well you get the picture--it was a doozy of a storm.  You had to wonder if it was God's anger for the stupidity of loosing that family.  Even if they were in a better place.

So why do I digress to this story.  2.5 years later.  Yesterday we headed out to go to the pumpkin patch, got to the main highway, and they told us the highway that we were on was closed--just past our house.  Their had been an accident.  I started crying almost immediately.  This section of road that was closed--was the exact same section that my friend & her babies were killed on.  And in similar weather conditions--only we had black ice that day.  It was just a day of de ja vu yesterday.

And it was another log truck/car accident.  And there was a fatality.  Though nobody I know this time.  At least not that I've heard of yet.  And once again our long deserted country road became the Highway for about 6 hours while they detoured everybody around, so they could clear up the accident.

I don't EVER care for this scenario to happen again.  Because everytime it does.  I will think of Sarah.  And grieve once again.

Life is short--HUG your kids, forgive your hubby for his latest grievance.  (Trust me I'm sure there was one )  I know I had one last night--but its NOT worth it.  Tomorrow you may loose all your loved ones.    So HUG them tight.

In the words of somebody dear.

May you have the best of days. 

HI we just got back from going to the pumpkin patch. And we had a blast!  They have a corn maze, a straw maze, a few animals to pet.  And a HUGE pumpkin field.  This is Zeria making friends with a pigmy goat.

Samuel preferred the sheep--one baaaaa'd at him--and he told it NO! don't do that.  Here he is checking out the pigs. 

Kaylin was a LOT bit scared of the animals.  But it didn't help that she took a cat nap on the way to the pumpkin patch, and was a bit clingy anyhow.  Here she is saying--this is ALL the closer I'm getting thank you very much!!!

Here's Samuel in the corn maze.  He was our chief path finder--and MAN did he get us lost.  We went round in circles--slip slip sliding on the mud.

      Mommy thought this corn "tunnel" was VERY cool. 

The trail was VERY VERY VERY slippery--and even holding daddys hand Kaylin had a face plant   She took it like a trooper though.  And continued on the grand adventure.  (I wish the mud showed up better--oh well.)

The walk through the maze took us over an hour.  So Midge got hungry.  Mommy's never nursed in a corn field before.  LOL  Oh and mommy was VERY ticked when she saw this picture--she's already showing a bit--mommy tried to edit it out a bit   But didn't work too well. 

After the corn maze we went & got our pumpkins.  We will carve them out after nap.    Daddys supervising that job! ROFL Zeria wants you to see her beeeeeeeautiful one. 

And unless your getting bored of pictures here is our very last one.  Aren't we having fun???