October 31, 2001

  • I am just finishing up Luke.  And had an epiphany  last night.  Now I'm trying to decide whether to blog about it.  Buttttttt its my blog so pbbbbbbbbbt I will  


    Jesus stood before Pilate and all kinds of accusations were made against him--and he said "NOT" a word.


    This kept running over & over & over & over in my head last night.


    So often we as Christians feel we must defend ourself.  And we as Christians DEMAND that other Christians defend their actions.  But  Christ he stayed quiet.  What does that mean to me.  Maybe I should STOP defending myself from others.  And demanding for explanations. 


    But....then I think I'm NOT God...and I need to understand things, so as to make right decisions.  And so I waffle. 


    I do KNOW this.  In the past I have made decisions that people did NOT understand.  And I tried to defend myself and it was pointless.  So I backed away.  And just stayed quiet.  In the end the truth came out. 


    The nursery squabble that I went through just recently I did NOT defend myself.  I went to the elders and said this is what happened.  I will walk away from this job if you want me to.  Its not worth the fight.  And they said no, stay...  So I stay and quietly do my job.  And on Saturday night--the lady who was sooooooo angry actually talked to me for a bit--and MAJOR break through.  And I was very excited to see that.  Because we used to be friends.


    I know that everybody's reading this blog looking for inuendo and my opinions bla bla bla.  Which is why I hesitated to blog...but I feel like God gave this to me.  And I need it for me. KWIM? 


    I just know when ever accusations are made against me its a waste of time defending myself.  The people who know me will stand true, the others will fall away.  So think on that for the next time you get in a tricky situation.


    We slept in our new bedroom last night.    It was an adventure as we had a wind storm last night--and its not 100% air tight yet.  ROFL.  But we were nice & snuggly warm thanks to our new electric sheet cover.   So hey--let the wind blow.


    Kaylin decided sleeping last night was highly overrated.  So after all the usual comfort methods.  (Even a night nurse)  We finally let her cio   Fortunately she only did for about 10 minutes...but I still HATE doing it.  For whatever reason some nights its the ONLY method that Kaylin accepts.  I hope the next baby likes sleep a little better.


    Rejoice in the Lord always and again I say rejoice!!!