HI,  3 other moms & I have started a new board.  It is NOT NOT NOT to compete with other boards.  It is to give Christian mommies who breast feed & do a sort of AP  a place that they feel comfortable with.  I'd like to invite any & all to check it out.  This is NOT a private board.  I've posted a link to our beliefs page if your intrested check us out. 

If you don't BF but are willing to live with thus of us who do you are also welcome  

For those of you who are wondering this board was started BEFORE the latest disaster....and we have NO intentions of pulling people away from the other nameless place.   

http://joyfulmother.homestead.com/index.html

The inside & outside of our new room. 

What do you think--do we officially look like Poor white trash??? ROFL  Oh well at least its warm--and we're living within our means.  And when the pennys come in we'll finish it

I am just finishing up Luke.  And had an epiphany  last night.  Now I'm trying to decide whether to blog about it.  Buttttttt its my blog so pbbbbbbbbbt I will  

Jesus stood before Pilate and all kinds of accusations were made against him--and he said "NOT" a word.

This kept running over & over & over & over in my head last night.

So often we as Christians feel we must defend ourself.  And we as Christians DEMAND that other Christians defend their actions.  But  Christ he stayed quiet.  What does that mean to me.  Maybe I should STOP defending myself from others.  And demanding for explanations. 

But....then I think I'm NOT God...and I need to understand things, so as to make right decisions.  And so I waffle. 

I do KNOW this.  In the past I have made decisions that people did NOT understand.  And I tried to defend myself and it was pointless.  So I backed away.  And just stayed quiet.  In the end the truth came out. 

The nursery squabble that I went through just recently I did NOT defend myself.  I went to the elders and said this is what happened.  I will walk away from this job if you want me to.  Its not worth the fight.  And they said no, stay...  So I stay and quietly do my job.  And on Saturday night--the lady who was sooooooo angry actually talked to me for a bit--and MAJOR break through.  And I was very excited to see that.  Because we used to be friends.

I know that everybody's reading this blog looking for inuendo and my opinions bla bla bla.  Which is why I hesitated to blog...but I feel like God gave this to me.  And I need it for me. KWIM? 

I just know when ever accusations are made against me its a waste of time defending myself.  The people who know me will stand true, the others will fall away.  So think on that for the next time you get in a tricky situation.

We slept in our new bedroom last night.    It was an adventure as we had a wind storm last night--and its not 100% air tight yet.  ROFL.  But we were nice & snuggly warm thanks to our new electric sheet cover.   So hey--let the wind blow.

Kaylin decided sleeping last night was highly overrated.  So after all the usual comfort methods.  (Even a night nurse)  We finally let her cio   Fortunately she only did for about 10 minutes...but I still HATE doing it.  For whatever reason some nights its the ONLY method that Kaylin accepts.  I hope the next baby likes sleep a little better.

Rejoice in the Lord always and again I say rejoice!!!

I have a wall!  The room is technically finished  

Well we still have to drywall at some point, & mud & paint.  But those are realatively easy.  The money has ran out.  (mommy mad BIG BAD error in checkbook) But that's okay we were ready for a break anyhow.  Its only one wall that needs the sheetrock--plus the dividing walls that someday we need to put up.  But we'll do it as time and the pennys roll in.  Tonight I think we're gonna have MOVING DAY!!!!!!!!  I thought I'd have to talk Rob into it...but he said sure--we can do that.  YEAH!

So headed to town for a couple needed things to finish things up.  And get a electric blanket for the new room & we're set.

YEAH YEAH YEAH

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ROFL!  Mrs. Moore.  I don't have an unordinary amount of clothes (I don't think)  I just you know wore a dress for an hour--and instead of hanging it up threw it on the "pile"  And my summer wear was sitting in that pile--seeings summer is gone.  HEHEHE.  I have 1 dresser.  And I stack 2 piles of sweaters/sweatshirts (8 total I think LOL)  On a shelf.  Plus the hanging clothes.  Anyhow it was  MESS.  Cause I was lazy.  I think pretty much my whole summer wardrobe was on a pile in the floor.  (BLUCH!)

Afternoon   I finally have a few minutes to do a "real" blog.  I have been doing laundry, chasing kids, and listening to my husband & brother BANG BANG BANG in the lean-to.

We have a DOOR.    Our french doors are up in our bedroom now.  So now we just need a wall to go around it.  ROFL.  They are headed to my brothers to get a drill, and some insulation that he had leftover & then they will hopefully do the wall. 

Then the house will be sealed back down & clean.  YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!  Then mommy starts pushing to move out there--MAN it would be nice to stand up in our bedroom again!! We have a attic bedroom (the little one)  And we can only stand up at the foot of our bed.  The rest of the room is occupied by bed, & dressers. LOL  We have to bend in order to get out of bed without hitting our heads. 

I AM SO psyched  

Kaylin has been sooooo much happier the last two days.  And she still hasn't cut that darn tooth.  I think its actually gone back down.  So round two to begin at any time. 

Kaylin has now mastered opening tupperware containers.  And spread flour everywhere this morning.  Soooo something else to find a "new" place to be stored.  Gotta love toddlers.

I don't think btw that my older two can open tupperware yet.  Kaylin may NOT talk much at all yet...but wow does she have good eye/hand coordination.

Samuel & Zeria were sooooo good this morning.  They spent an hour helping (truely helping)  clean my bedroom.  And oy was it a MESS!  I had like 4 weeks of laundry to put away stacked on the floor.  And a BIG huge pile of dirty laundry on the flour.  Kids clothes to be sorted & stored etc, etc. 

So the kids helped put everything up on the bed where I could store it...and carried many loads of junk downstairs.  And they had FUN doing it...  they thought it was a riot.  Even Kaylin carried stuff down. LOL.  1 book in each hand.  Or one dirty shirt etc.  She thought she was BIG stuff.

I love it when I can find stuff for them to help with.  They get so excited to be a working member of the family. 

We hashed out this morning how my extended family was gonna do Christmas.  With 8 brothers & sisters, My 3, my brothers 3, my sisters 1.  Christmas can be VERY spendy $$$$$$$$$.  So this year for the first year we are drawing names instead of buying for everybody.  Its sad to see it happen, but necessary too.   So I spent part of the morning drawing names & e-mailing everybody to tell them who they got. 

I have energy.  Its so nice.  I haven't had energy since before Kaylin was born.  And I've actually found myself doing stuff again.  Trying NOT to overdue...but nevertheless it feels WONDERFUL.

Thank you Lord for this gift!

Good morning,  Well squabbles are at it again.  *sigh*  And though I'm so NOT a part of it it grieves me. 

Beloved let us love one another, for love is of God, and everyone that loveth is born of God and knoweth God, he that loveth not knoweth not God for God is LOVE.

Enough said. 

The well laid plans of men oft go ary.

Today has been a day.  A very LONG day.  Tonight when I started thinking about it as I picked up a spilled glass of water I started laughing hysterically. 

This morning started off by Kaylin waking me up at 5:15.  We were all up for the day by 6:20.  I was NOT impressed usually my kids sleep in after a late night--but you know daylight savings. 

Anyhow trot downstairs and look for easy breakfast.  Have a HUGE bowl of leftover popcorn.  I know, I know BAD me...but hey they normally eat cereal & whats so different, except this was LESS refined.  So I put them in front of the tv to eat it while I did my blog. 

Get off the puter walk over to living room & their is popcorn cornels EVERYWHERE EVERYWHERE.  I head to the kitchen to get the broom & above the broom is a hanging plant.  I somehow snag the plant with the broom & dump the plant all over the kitchen floor.  Its not yet 8 am...and all this has happened.  Then I cried now I'm in hysterics.  LOL

Get the kids ready for church head out.  Okay this is happening the way it should.        

Get to church, clean nursery, wasn't that dirty YEAH!  Go to practice keyboard, Kaylin is even behaving YEAH!  Get Zeria to SS opening, and Samuel to 2s & 3s SS class.  YEAH!  Head to my moms with babies class.  Kaylin pick up a HUGE toy and throws it at me.  OUCH!  I have a bruise.  I tell her no...and redirect her.    She heads over to the cupboard and starts banging on it.  I say shhhhhhh!  she does.  Then another mom tells her no--wasn't her job--and have no idea why she did.  She starts screaming.  Her temper tantrum NONE stoppable scream.  I ignore it for about 5 minutes.  She continues to scream.  I pick her up take her outside and head to the van.  Crying myself.  I just am so tired of this.  So we spent SS in the van.  She eventually stopped screaming.  And I finished my sci-fi novel.  (Oh yeah that was spiritually uplifting)

Tell the pianist  that I'm NOT gonna be playing keyboard today as i'm a basketcase. Go get the kids from SS tell them no Jr. Church, mommy needs to go home.  For once they obeyed--still suprised by that LOL 

We eat doughnuts on the way home from church (our standard fare)  I know ewwwww but it keeps my kids awake until they get home.  Sunday is the only day we have ewwwww meals LOL

Kaylin falls asleep on the way home DRAT!!!!  I carry her up but that means 15 minutes less nap for the rest of us.  So we all go up & pile in mommys bed.  Mommys falls asleep quickly to find kids restling in bed.  Mommy wakes up reminds them to go to sleep & we all sleep for a bit.  Mommys pregnant bladder wakes her up an hour later.  If I get up allllll the kids will wake up. But bladder wins.  And all kids wake up. 

Several hours proceed rather uneventfully.  The house is trashed.  

Kaylin finds the baking soda.  Spreads it all over the place.  Kaylin finds the cereal...spreads it a bit but Zeria rescues it.  Kaylin finds the cans--well you saw the picture.  Mommy cleans up the disaster 10 minutes before daddy comes home.  Including more dirt from the stupid planter. 

Daddy comes home.  Mommy bawls all over him. 

Time passes a bit.

Time for dinner mommy starts making dinner.  mac & cheeze & sausage.  Mommy puts her water cup by the pacs of paper cheeze.  Mommy spills water cup all over counter & floor.  Mommy starts laughing hysterically.  What else am I supposed to do at this point????

Kaylin dumps out socks from sock box.  Mommy makes Kaylin pick them back up.  Samuel & Zeria are sent to their rooms about a gazillion times for being so loud we can't hear each other talk. 

WE sit down to eat dinner....Samuel spreads macaroni all over table, floor, himself you get the picture.  Kaylin is eating macaroni neater then him.  He gets the standard lecture--use your fork...not your fingers, keep your food on the plate.  Things proceed NORMAL.  Samuel finishes his firsts.  Apparently this was a good meal.  Daddy looks over at him to catch him licking his plate.  Daddy says don't lick your plate and then looks at me.   "Nobody told me that saying that was in my job description." he says. 

what did we do???  Laugh hysterically for 10 minutes.  What else?  Crying sucks.  Laughter is good medicine.  Hope you got a good laugh at my expense

The princess & her favorite toys, baking soda, cereal, and Cans

Luke 17:3 I am warning you! If another believer ^F76 sins, rebuke him; then if he repents, forgive him. 4 Even if he wrongs you seven times a day and each time turns again and asks forgiveness, forgive him."

I read this in my devotions this morning.  And found it appropriate for whats going on in xanga right now. 

I guess I am gonna share some thoughts on hurt feelings on the web.  Because I've been there--and still have somebody who is essentially NOT speaking to me.

I read Cynduck's blog where she said she thought we were "meaner" on the web.  And I have to disagree. 

I am NOT any different.  I am a confrontational person, and if something is wrong I usually say so. 

I think what is WRONG with the web--is we can't "hear" the tone of voice.  And rather then hearing it once and it kinda going away...we can read the same bad/sad/nasty thought over & over & over & over if we so choose.  Making it bigger & bigger & bigger in our minds.  KWIM?

Also...I haven't spent this much time with friends since college.  As adults we just don't have that kinda time to dedicate to friendships--but the web has given us the option again.  And when you spend MUCHO time with someone--invaritably friction happens.  If we fight with our husbands sooner or later we're gonna fight with our friends.

The trick is to practice the verse up top.  Forgive quickly.  Even when it REALLY hurts. 

I apologized to someone a LONG time ago.  And I truely meant that apology.  2 months later I still have not heard back from her--except one short cryptic e-mail.  I would LOVE to hear from her--but I guess she missed the apology--or was still in the throws of the anger.  So this is my next attempt.  Friend (you know who you are)  I am sorry I could not deal with you at the time.  I was VERY VERY VERY hormonal, and you were dealing with stuff I couldn't cope with.  I would love to try again--realizing that right now you can't do very much at the moment for reasons I'll leave vague.  

If we try again--some days I will have to say--now is not a good time.  And some days I will say--this is NOT a topic I'm willing to discuss right now.  Those are my only two stipulations on the friendship.  I don't believe those are unreasonable.  And that is what I tried to say two months ago.  Please I did NOT mean to hurt you when I ended the friendship.  I still want the best for you.  I just needed to protect me from getting hurt for awhile because I was feeling very vulnerable and very weak.  Still am hormonal--so you'll have to cope.  LOL 

Okay onto other subjects.

We had FUN at the Harvest Party.  This is the VERY first year I have had NO zero nada responsibilitys at it.  It was a riot LOL.  I actually played the games.  10 shots at the basketball hoop--and only hit it once.  (OKay basketball is NOT my sport LOL)  But I appear to have a fairly good kick.  I got the soccer ball into the garbage can multiple times.  YEAH!!!! I was so sycked and then felt foolish for feeling so syked ROFL.

My favorite though was the no cake cake walk.  We won tickets for the raffle instead.  Kaylin, & I played for like 15 minutes.  She thought it was soooooooo fun walking round & round in circles.  And the little fink--she won more tickets then me.  LOL  Zeria & Samuel eventually joined me too--but Samuel he kept jumping around and didn't get the point too well.  Zeria won a few tickets however. 

Each of the kids ending up winning a big prize.  Kaylin came home with a pink teddy bear.  Samuel a remote control airplane, and Zeria a necklace.  Mommy thinking she was being helpful removed the tag from the necklace--Zeria chewed me out--and said that the tag made it look "pretty".  Whose to know?  LOL 

All & all a fun evening was had by all And my kids wanted to know if we could go next year--the true success.

As a last wondering--could you please tell my kids its daylight savings time and 5:15 is NOT NOT NOT 6:15.  I managed to keep Kaylin from being too fussy 'til 6:10...but ALL were awake and bouncing by 6:30--isn't that a CRIME or somethin'???

Father God, I ask that today will go well.  I ask that Samuel would mind in Sunday School, and that Kaylin would NOT be cranky.  I'd really like to be able to get something to chew on this week.   I love you in your sons name, Amen

Thank you God for Orajel!!!  Its been a long 45 minutes.  I got off shortly after my last blog.  And Kaylin started screaming, she's been screaming the whole time.  She didn't appear to be pulling on her mouth--but I couldn't find anything else wrong.  I cried with her   I rocked her, I took her outside and she continued to scream.

Finally I called Rob bawling.  And he told me to take her to Dr's.  I did NOT want to do that.  He also asked about Orajel.   I decided what the heck.  I put some on my finger...and she opened her mouth--that shoulda been my first clue lol.  She HATES me in her mouth.

I put it on her mouth.  And she INSTANTLY stopped fussing.  And has actually been happy for the past 5 minutes.  Mind you all my energy has gone now.  And I still want to cry.  Gotta love life. 

But I still say...."Thank you God for Orajel!"