Good morning....I've been acting as a milk cow since 6 am in an effort to convince myself I was still sleeping.  Kaylin decided it was time to get up...and I disagreed....so she latched on and I semi-slept until the other kids woke up.  I hate it when I don't just get up!  I feel so groggy. 

I don't know if you want me to teach anybody to upholster...I'm learning...and their are literally some wrinkles in the project.  But it looks way better then the old couch...so I guess I'll live with it. 

I'm concientiously being anti-social today.  I've been invited to a church sort of picnic at a persons house with whom I've been treated very poorly in the long ago past.  I've forgiven them, but I'm so scared of the hurt, and wrongs being repeated.  Rob told me staying away was the better choice.  Sooo we got into this big long theological discussion as to whether forgiving equates forgetting.  We decided a woman could forgive the man who raped her, but not forget the crime, or place herself anywhere near him again.  What do you think?  Not saying I was raped...this was just the analogy we came up with.

Father God, I'm in a dilema this morning...I stood up for you on another site...and now there are some fairly icky things being said...and I want to defend myself rather then you.  Knowing that they will never see my point of view.  Show me which is the right decision...and if I'm supposed to say something give me the right words. 

Show me how to do WWJD!

I have been so spacey the last couple days, and ignoring my kids when at all possible.  Help me to spend some time loving them today.  And maybe even doing something fun with them.  It would be really nice to have enough sun to go swimming this afternoon. TIA

Protect my children from their pasts, and allow them to blossom in spite of the garbage environment they've come from.

Tonia

Good evening.  Special thanks to Cynduck for my new banner.  it looks good huh!

I am learning to reupholster my couch.  I have it about half done, and it looks good.  I had a nasty nasty colored couch but its soooo comfy.  And well built.  We got it for $40 at Goodwill.  It was shades of this color.  Can we say ewwwww!  Anyhow....I petered out before I got it finished, but it looks really good...I hope it works.

My kids are getting reminded to be quiet, and then my hubby and I are gonna cuddle. 

My brain is deeeeeead tonight, so I am shutting the puter off and going to bed with the kiddos. 

Thought for the night....Are you grosed out by moms who dip there napkin in the water glass at a restaurnt to clean their kids.  I sure am...if not why?

Good morning,

I read in the proverbs this morning.  Am enjoying it. 

Do not let loyalty and faithfulness depart from  you, Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will direct your paths.

Today Lord I acknowledge you, and ask you to come and support me in the plans for the day.  I ask you to guide me to spend money wisely, and to find the right shed for our property. Or not buy one as the case may be.  I ask you to put people in our path that need to see us, or those that don't.  I thank you that you are in control of all.

Thanks to Cynduck for help with color.  EWW did I make a mess of the last post, but she helped me rescue it

My kids only woke me up once last night.  Its a red letter day!  (YEAH)  Now, if I could get a night where they didn't wake me up at all.  HMMM it will never happen.

Did you read I saw a black bear on the road yesterday??  I know, I know....but it was so way cool.  And I just had to make sure everybody heard

Today is MY day. Rob has 3 days off a week because of working 10 hour shifts, and one of them he gives to me, and lets me plan the day without worry of what he wants to do.  This is it.  I can leave the house all day without kids, or plan a outing (that he wouldn't necessarily want to go on) or just vegdge without guilt.  Not sure what we're gonna do.  Know what I SHOULD do, but not really in the mood for should dos this morning.

Tonia

My apologies for the entry before this the color is awful...and I can't read it very well...won't do that again!

Well its 9:41 at night, an hour and a bit more til Rob gets home and I can go to bed.  Counting the minutes.....Playing with the colors on my board, I know there scarey, I won't leave them up too long...but they do remind me of wet rainy washington somehow. Anyhow...today has been an incredibly lazy day.
My piano students didn't show up.  Not sure whats up.  I only have one phone line and was using it for the puter most of the day I didn't even care where they were. 
I've spent the day uselessly. Trying to figure out how to reinstall something I deleted on my puter a long time ago.  And failed miserably.  Cynduck made me a nice banner, and duh I can't install it...cause I can't get jpg to show on my puter.  It shows on e-mail and aim etc, but no go on the main page.
Did finally get my Picture it Express 2000 reinstalled, but its missing some parts (GROWL)  Spent the day downloading, and undownloading things.  I'm thinking of paying a friend to come teach me what I'm doing wrong! 
Anybody tell me a easy way to shrink my picture to a size that will show up on web pages??  Nevermind I'm probably too stupid to understand it. I need to turn my head and life away from my computer and back to God.  I completely put him aside somewhere today. 
Father God, I focused on things instead of you.  I wanted something badly, and couldn't get it to work.  I never once asked you for help, just get doing and doing and doing! Please forgive me for looosing focus. And help me to start over fresh and new.
Oh Oh Oh you will never believe what I saw today!  I was driving my sister home after she cleaned my house and we had a black bear run across the road in front of us.  Only a mile and a half from where I live!!!!!  I was so bummed cause Zeria and Sam missed it they didn't look fast enough. 
Kaylin was learning alll about no today.  I wish somebody else could have been her teacher.  I hate the no stage.  Samuel is finally almost out of it...and Kaylin is entering it with a vengance. 
But it was cute, and I did laugh when she came out of the bathroom with the toilet plunger in one hand and the toilet brush in the other.  They were almost taller then her, and she was soooooooo proud of the new toy she'd found.
The wild blackberrys are ripe, and I failed to pick them for my dad for his birthday, its tradition, and I failed.  Its been raining, my back is sore, and I just didn't get inspired.  BAD DAUGHTER!
Thanks to Midge & mae mae for subscribing!  I'm enjoying your sites too. 
All of you in the east coast with your hot weather, could you please share some summer with me???  I'm sooooo sick of the  60 degree weather and drips.  I WANT SOME SUMMER!
Father, please be with me tomomorrow as I strive to make the right decisions.  Let me focus on you, and remember that you are my strength, my hope and my all!

At Kayte & my husbands reminder I actually did my devotions first this morning instead of completely abandoning them.

The first that sticks with me today is from Psalms 139...don't remember the verse number.  Anyhow it says even if the dark you know where I am it is as light as day and I can't hide from you.

Thank you God for being around all the time.  In the dark, when I up, when I'm down, when I'm sad, when I'm happy, when life is going good, when life is going bad, when I want to take a long walk of a short pier, and when I want all to celebrate with me.  You are truely incredible.  Thank you for always being there.

I have to go out amongst a person today who has done a lot of criticizing of me lately.  If I don't go out I will deny myself all my friends as well.  So Lord I ask for you to protect me from her words...and even be able to show her love.  She needs a friend so badly...but my armor is so weak these days.  The world smart thing to do would be to walk away...but I so can't do that.  So give me strength to face her, and the ability to keep my mouth shut when it would serve no good purpose to open it. 

Amen

I'm going to Annie Tonight the Dress rehearsal for our city's local light opera.  My mom, sister and brother are all in it.  I'm looking forward to it...but gotta find a babysitter for Kaylin.  No babes in arms welcome.  I have to admit...today a break from the baby sounds really good!

Tonia

Good Morning...currently hiding from my family staring at the computer hoping the fog gets out of my eyes   Kaylin was awake at 11:15, 2:15, well you get the picture.  I think we made a mistake moving her in with the big kids.  At least when she was in the Living Room we could let her fuss for a few minutes and she could comfort herself.

We're both grumpy this morning as a result.    Oh well time moves on...we can live without real sleep we've been doing it for a long time.  I get so I worship it though!

Anybody want a cranky baby????  Gonna go read my Bible...and try to find a good mood!

Finished our movies...and are enjoying the quiet in the house. 

I have had an amazingly non-crampy period this time.  Which is some kinda minor miracle.  It makes me wonder if my thyroid medication is working a little bit.

I still go through bouts of depression.  I had one last night...where I was convinced everything was wrong with me.  Nobody loved me and maybe I should go eat worms.  Fortunately it went away fairly quickly.  And even more fortunately I have a very, very, very, patient husband!

Father God, thank you for my family.  I love them, and appreciate them greatly.  I ask for the energy and patience to be a blessing to them rather then a drag.  Enable me to hold my tongue rather then yell...to love, and discipline with patience.  Help me as I deal with Zs anger.  Show me how to cut through it and enable her to deal with her emotions in an approriate way.  Thanks for the cuddles of Samuel...its nice  to have him wander of and snuggle with me again.  I missed it.  I think we may have officially gotten out of the terrible 2s!  Give Rob and I a good night tonight, and a joy in each other.  As I go to Bible Study tomorrow let me be a blessing to the ladies there...and to enjoy them rather then be obsessing about what they are thinking or saying about me.

Tonia

Good afternoon.  We've been celebrating Zerias birthday today with just our family.  We took her out to breakfast and she got to eat Chocolate Chip Pancakes.  Then we went to the Olympic Game Farm...hoping to link you to there site for those who are intrested.  http://www.olygamefarm.com/   Hope this link works. 

Its the farm that the Disney Animals were trained at for years.  Charlie the Lonesome Cougar, Grizzly Adams Show...and many other animals were trained here.  The kids had fun feeding bears & buffalo from the safety of our car.  And we walked around and looked at cougars, lions, and wolves in the cages.  The kids ran up to the wolf cage without us and the wolves thought Zeria & Samuel looked like dinner...they wanted out of that cage so badly!!!!

Zeria has had a lot of fun playing with her Fisher Price Dollhouse...and undressing her new dolls.  And daddy had to get "his" own present for her  and got her a little stable with 6 horses for $10.  Zeria loooves horses.

Its so hard to believe the little 13 month old baby I adopted so briefly ago Is already 4 years old.  And wanting to learn to write her name.  Although I have to say I'm glad she's growing up as I'm ready to get some of my kids out of the toddler stage.

Its nice to tell her to stay some where and realize that she will.  And to be able to trust her a teensy bit.  Its also a lot of fun to have "adult" conversations with her!

I droooooooooooled over a Digital CAmera last night.  I wanted it so badly.  I love to take pictures and I want to share my family so badly with my net friends.  But I felt incredibly guilty about buying it.  My birthday is in 2 months and I let Rob know long and loud and clear how much I want it.  I can wait 2 more months.  And the money needs to go other places, you know like pinching the pennys to get our backroom finished so we can actually have a bedroom for Samuel.  Right now our 3 kids are sharing a bedroom (its a huge room)  But that will not work for too much longer.  Besides Samuel keeps waking Kaylin up at night...and I'm getting tired of the whose in bed with me now game as a result.

Its raining & foggy outside and feels like December not July.  I think the Olympic Peninsula has now had its 3 days of summer.  Can any of you share your 90 degree heat with us please?

http://www.tenforward.com/webcam/   heres our weather today. ewwwwwww.  This is taken about 20 minutes from us.

WE're gonna watch a video with the kids tonight and have a dinner of popcorn.  MMM MMM  And then Rob & are gonna finish Fiddler on the Roof.  He's never seen it before.  And is quite enjoying it.

Probably won't be on again tonight...so talk to you all in the morning. 

HIding out on my parents computer for a few minutes...In a family of 9...with my sister having 1 child & my brother having 2....the house gets a little overwhelming on party days...And I needed a BREAK!

Besides that Aunt Flo decided to visit me GROWL!  Oh well    I guess it means I get to try the Keeper out...and see wether I wasted the money on this New Protection. 

Shoot they noticed I'm missing...guess i better go back.  Anybody want some extra family members...I have some to share.

ZEria's birthday is/went well.  We will take her to the the GAme Farm for her "real" bday day...on Tuesday.

Thanks for the Happy bday Mrs.Moore.