July 30, 2001

• 13 Here is my final conclusion: Fear God and obey his commands, for this is the duty of every person.

  
  

  So my conclusion on the fear of God (for now) is that it is obedience.  Being willing to do things for God that you wouldn't normally consider.  The thing that is so amazing.  Though we are to fear God we are not to be fearful.  Whenever God visited somebody in the Bible the first words were Do not fear. 

  
  

  Noah feared God, and built the ark and saved his life.  The midwifes of Egypt feared God and refused to kill the babies of the Israelites that Pharoah commanded to be killed.  All in all it is a fear that causes us to obey.  Not fear that causes us to run, or hide, but fear that causes us to trust God and believe that he can take care of us.  Respect for his ways and a willigness to do them. 

  
  

  Ex 20:20 - "Don't be afraid," Moses said, "for God has come in this way to show you his awesome power. From now on, let your fear of him keep you from sinning!"
  

  Job 15:4 - Have you no fear of God, no reverence for him?

  
  

  Fear is reverance and obedience.  But not mindnumbing obedience.  Obedience out of respect.

  
  

  Sorry I got so heavy this morning I keep mulling the stuff over and over and over in my head.  Thinking, thinking thinking. 

  
  

  I guess their's nothing new here for me, just a reminder that God wants us to be obedient when he asks us to do something, and to be respectful of his person. 

  
  

  Today is our Saturday.  We are going to attempt to build a shed.  (ha-ha)  see how it goes.  We're talking about going and camping out close to Rob's work starting tomorrow.  We'll see what the weather is like. 

  
  

  Kaylin has declared a mortuarium on sleep.  She's been up since 6 plus up 2 times in the night...didn't even look at my watch just latched her on and attempted to sleep.  Passed her back to daddy when she started squirming.  And tried to sleep some more.  Sleep is sooooooooo needed.  I worship it unfortunately.  Oh well, this too shall pass!

  
  

  Zeria & daddy have been good friends for 5 whole days.   I'm so hoping this will last.  She has a hard time trusting him because so many men in her short life have abandoned her.  And she started her life out as a daddy's girl.  Why could anybody abandon children?  How could they be cruel to them.  My heart grieves for Zeria & Samuels younger brother still in the old environment.  He's so little I want him so badly.  But for now CPS in their infinite wisdom decided he has to live in that awful situation. 

  
  

  Father take care of "J" and protect him until the time we are able to adopt him.  Give his Christians in his life, and do not allow him to be hurt.  I want him when he's young Lord, when he's still moldable and not bound up in anger.  Do you think this is possible?  Please? 

  
  

  Big kids are sleeping in this morning   I LIKE THIS   And Zeria didn't get asthma like it sounded like she was gonna last night!  (PHEW).  

  
  

  Father as we do this day, help us to focus on you.  Help me to remember you are in control, and to appreciate the fact that my husband loves to work, rather then resent the fact that he refuses to play with us most days.

  
  

  Love,  Tonia

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